Petunia Amarily
10. The same bleeding heart.
Silence ruled Nia's night this time. Such a beautiful silence for the woman who has suffered a bruise in her heart, until it bleeds and no longer shaped. Sort of pain that is now starting to feel, in fact has made Nia's heart frozen.
Tonight, it should be Petunia who smokes the sweet honey of the wedding, through the first night of the wedding beautifully, and creates romance among the rose petals scattered on the bed. Unfortunately, all of that was just a pseudo dream, which Nia would never be able to reach with Adam forever.
All her family seemed to ignore Nia. No one cared about the pain Nia felt. Instead of caring, they judge Nia, blame and berate each other one by one.
All of this, it was Nia's own fault.
Did Adam know? The man even knew what had happened to Nia. Instead of helping and defending, the bastard did not even shift from his place, just staring at Nia with a flat gaze, as if the judgment Nia received was an amusement for her.
Regretting everything was too late, no one cared and no one could help Nia, other than herself. Now, the woman was completely alone, no one accompanying her.
In addition to watching her sister's wedding at the altar, Nia also felt the judgment of her family. Losing Adam, in fact, must have such a cruel effect. What other destruction does Nia not accept?
The door was knocked from the outside, I don't know who came, Nia doesn't care. Perhaps it is just a mouth that enters with insults, mockery, and painful judgment. Where does Nia care about that? What Nia cares about, she needs to get out of this hell house, as soon as possible.
Staying one roof with the man who is still in his heart, is tantamount to hell.
"Nia, are you asleep?" it was Adam's voice, and it managed to make Nia again feel the wound.
"Nia, where are you?" Adam repeated the question, when Petunia was not in bed. The man walked quickly to the balcony door when he found the balcony door open.
"You're not sleeping?"
Nia quietly did not answer, still remained silent in sitting, while staring at the dark night sky. The existence of an Adam whom he loved, no longer occupies an important position in the soul of Petunia Amarilys.
"Are you really Farel's son?" adam asked, sitting on an elongated chair beside Nia.
Nia remained silent without a care, what Adam was doing right now. For him, Adam's existence will only make his life chaotic.
"Take me, Nia. The doctor's ultrasound results, the boy was twenty-nine weeks old. If countdown, it was just me being intense with you. Are you lying to everyone?" ask Adam again, in a soft voice.
Still the same, Petunia was not interested in looking. There was a clear destruction seen in his eyes that drained the clear crystal.
Shaking, Adam grabbed Nia's cheek, intending to wipe away the tears of the woman who was carrying her flesh and blood. However, Nia spontaneously slammed into Adam's rough, sturdy hands.
"I just want to know for sure" Adam replied quietly, realizing that Nia's emotions were unstable.
"If you knew that what I am carrying is your flesh and blood, would you marry me? Can you leave the Zaskia Kenanga you love? Can you defend me in front of my parents? Can you change my destiny line? Can you give me back my future? Can you take me to marriage heaven like you promised? The answer is no, Adam! Oh I forgot, you didn't make that sweet promise, but I came and didn't know I was expecting a bastard like you!" lantang Nia.
Nia's breath goes up and down and dashed. Her tears continued to break with her lips that were shaking violently. The woman's face was as white as cotton, and her heart was as fragile as paper.
Adam's heart suddenly hurt, watching with his own eyes the suffering experienced by the woman who used to often bed with him.
Nia got up, with all her might to get away from Adam. But unfortunately, he was not strong enough and chose to lean on a balcony fence high enough. Petunia was slow, slumping onto the cold floor with helplessness.
"Mrs ...." Adam got up and intended to carry Nia. However, Nia stopped by gesturing for Adam to remain seated.
"Why did you leave me, Adam? How long have you been hanging on to our relationship? Four more months I've been looking for you here and there, to tell you about my pregnancy, but you've blocked all access to communications. Don't you have a heart of compassion on me? I went through the first trimester of pregnancy with great torment. Alone, alone I strengthen my heart so that my parents do not know. And look, you came with love for my brother. Why should Kia? Why should it be the only sister I have? You heart!" Nia cried, venting her anger.
Adam doesn't know what to do. The man was also quite shocked by Nia's indirect confession.
"If killing is innocent, I will kill you mercilessly, and I will finish off your son afterwards. Believe me, Adam, having a pregnancy alone, is not an easy one. I want to die if suicide is not sinful. Unfortunately, I have fallen deeply in love with the figure of the occupant of my womb, even though the form I have not met. What will you use to atone for your sins against me and your son, Adam?" Nia asked with a sobbing voice.
"I'll explain" Adam said, crouching down to help Nia get Nia back in the chair. However, Nia encourages Adam, and lets Adam stay away from him.
"Your explanation won't help me out of this pain, Adam. It's free for you to come and ask me, if in the end it doesn't have a good effect on my son. Go awayl. Happy Kia Brother. Just counting the days until Farel takes me away from this hell house, your happiness and Kak Kia will be complete" added Nia.
Adam's heart was slashed. The man's face also seemed to lose its tone, and unfortunately, Nia had just realized.
"Nia, if you're pregnant with my son, I'll take responsibility and .... "
"By giving some money as compensation. No, thank you. I'd rather starve to death than I'll have to accept your compensation money. Me, not selling love! Get out of here and never see me again!" Nia cried out with a screaming voice.
Adam went away, to soothe his heart that was as bloody as Petunia.
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