Petunia Amarily

12. Hell's View.

Time passes with a lot of drama. Full of wounds and tears, Petunia sometimes thought, is the woman forever in the pain zone?

Petunia sat on the balcony chair as usual, a place that has now become her favorite since she became pregnant. The woman spent the whole day, daydreaming, and was silent alone. There were many wounds that were so deep Nia felt.

From the balcony, this morning Nia witnessed Farel and his family coming to the house, entering the house greeted by Kirana. Once Nia heard, I kissed Dad's voice with a high tone.

Worry until now slipped in Nia's heart, becoming a mine that slowly hit her heart. A question lingered in his heart, about how Farel's fate was this morning. Maybe Dad scolded her, or maybe he beat her up.

Guilt certainly exists. However, Nia had no choice but to accept Farel's offer, for the sake of her baby. If one day her son asked, Nia would say that her son's father was Farel. Nia no longer wanted to be related to Adam, and did not want to mention the name of Adam in front of her son later.

Although dinner time arrived, Nia was not allowed to go out by her Father and Mother. Even lunch and breakfast, Aunt Rahmi was the one who delivered.

Petunia's life is like a Bird in a cage, or a captive who can't shift a bit from his cell.

The door of the room opened from the outside, and Nia did not care at all. Whoever comes to visit her, Nia doesn't care anymore. Although Nia locked the door, but both parents had duplicate keys throughout the room door of the house.

"Non, here's dinner. Mother said, non Nia should eat, take care of the health of the womb well yes, Non," said aunt Rahmi, who is the most understanding and most compassionate to Nia.

"Nia doesn't want to eat now, Bi. Just put the food on the table, later Nia will eat it if hungry," replied Nia later.

"Please, Non. Please don't torture yourself Non Nia .... " Aunty Rahmi said.

"Please don't provoke any debate with Nia, Bi. Nia just wanted to be alone," Nia replied later, "Oh yeah, Bi, how's the end result of Farel's father and family's decision?"

"Non Nia will soon be in boyong by mas Farel, after marriage. The wedding will be in this title soon. Auntie ... auntie will definitely miss non Nia," said aunt Rahmi, who then sat next to Nia.

The middle-aged woman then gently rubbed the top of Nia's head. There are many feelings that may not be able to be said with words.

Since Nia was a child, Rahmi's aunt took care of her and shed her never-ending affection. Nia was already like the daughter of Rahmi's own aunt, whom she had always spoiled affectionately.

Imagining Nia will get away from this house, of course, will incise her own wounds for Nia's nanny.

"Later Nia will call Aunt Rahmi by phone. Don't worry, Nia will definitely give Nia's news and address to Rahmi's aunt. Aunty can come occasionally to look at Nia. But, but Nia herself might not come back to this house anymore" replied Nia.

"Non, why would Mas Farel do this to Non Nia?" aunt Rahmi asked, with teary eyes.

As the night breeze blows towards the balcony of Nia, in fact it is not also able to cool Nia's arid heart. Nia couldn't, if she had to deceive a middle-aged woman who had been nice to her since infancy.

"Bi, Nia wants, Rahmi's aunt doesn't hate Farel. He is good, and innocent. Farel, has helped Nia from this pain, Bi. Nia will tell aunty what really happened" said Nia, wiping her tears that fell without asking.

"What does Non-Nia mean?" ask aunt Rahmi lirih. Bi Rahmi's eyes stared at Nia's glassy netra, looking for the meaning and meaning of what Nia had just said.

"This child belongs to Adam Billy Hutama, Bi, not Farel. Farel actually helped save Nia," said Petunia, as if becoming a thunderbolt to the heart of Aunt Rahmi.

"What, Non?" ask aunt Rahmi to make sure.

"Mas Adam and Nia, we love each other. And because of blind love, Nia and Adam made mistakes that we didn't have to make. Unfortunately, four and a half months ago Adam disappeared, stayed away from Nia and came as Kak Kia's future husband. Nia can't destroy your happiness, Bi. Nia would rather just give up, than have to see Kak Kia suffer. Seizing Kak Kia's property, is not at all Nia's character. Is Nia wrong, Bi?" Petunia asked in a sobbing voice.

Rahmi's aunt cries, closing her eyes and hugging Nia. That grim cry again sounded heart-wrenching, further deepening the wound that had indeed been bleeding.

"If Nia knew this sick man, Nia wouldn't have done it in the first place. The intensity of meetings that so often, makes Nia can not avoid this love, bi. What if only, Kia's sister got hurt even more if she found out? That's why, Nia chose silence, and please, keep this a secret until each of us, lying in a coffin in the ground," Nia's message deepened.

"Non, why is non Nia this strong enduring her pain? What non not tell mas Adam? If the problem of adult love, the aunt believes that non Kia can forget about Adam's mas and find the right replacement for him. It's about the child, though, Non. Why did non-Nia choose to give up Adam's mas?" ask aunt Rahmi later.

"Nia doesn't want to hurt Kia's sister, Bi. Nia wants Kia to be happy, that's all. Nia doesn't care if she has to give up" replied Nia.

Aunty Rahmi's embrace tightened, clutching a lump of body with an increasingly bloody heart. The night wind accompanied by a drizzle of specks, plus a concentrated night without stars, witnessed how dark the story of the Petunia flower that has withered.

The vast expanse of the sky, illustrating how vast the heart of the flower is. Proving a feeling so sincere because of a compulsion, forced to succumb to the happiness of another heart that Petunia loves.

"Just pray, Nia is happy after this, Bi. Although not always married to Farel, but maybe Nia will forever never return to live in this house. Nia will definitely miss aunty, auntie's cooking, and aunt's warm embrace" Nia said, holding back the pain.

"What if aunt comes with Non-Nia?" replied aunt Rahmi.

"No. Aunty should stay here, take care and make sure, that Mother, Brother Kia and Father remain fine" Pinta Nia sincerely said.

The wound became more and more unbearable, when the sound of the roar of the car entered the garage. Seen in the corner of Nia's eyes, Adam Billy Hutama came, with Kia who also just came home from work.

If I continue to survive in this house, this view of hell is what I will get every day. And so, I have to leave as soon as possible.

Inner Nia full lara.

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