Petunia Amarily

30. Sin cannot be separated from revenge.

A person will look very strange and suspicious, when he feels excessive guilt pursued. In addition, there is a sense of discomfort and nightmares often hit, when the night comes that should bring a beautiful dream.

Whether it was full, Abhimanyu often had nightmares about his youngest daughter who had left without a trace. Dreams as if he was being chased by Farel, and also a baby whose cries were deafening. Not infrequently, Abhimanyu often felt ear pain when he woke up from his dream.

Like tonight, for example. Lightning is often heard snatching and making the ear pain. The rain fell very hard on the earth. Lightning snatched in space. The moon that was originally shining, as if running away in fear due to the sound of lightning coming ganged.

Abhimanyu was agitated, like the previous nights. Sweat looks big adorn his forehead which shows wrinkles clearly. The man's head seemed to be shaking to the right and to the left, like he was avoiding something in his dream.

Kirana repeatedly woke up and tried to get her husband to wake up and wake up. However, Abhimanyu looks restless passed in a dream, hinting if he does not want to wake up and wake up.

"No, no. No .... I'm sorry, sorry," Abhimanyu continued to groan softly, with a voice that seemed to be stuck in his throat.

For a long time if Kirana noticed, Abhimanyu's breath seemed heavy, sounding painful. The man's face was already deathly pale, like a man facing a death angel.

"Mas, wakeup. How long are you gonna be like this?" kirana asked softly, with her soft hands patting Abhimanyu's cheeks.

This is not the first time, but there are many nightmares that continue to make Abhimanyu tormented. Even in a state of sleep, Abhimanyu could not calm down in his subconscious dimension.

Pining, tormented, suffering, what else has that middle-aged man experienced?

"Yet....!" Abhimanyu exclaimed loudly, as he suddenly woke up, feeling his entire body tense with stiff veins. Every night, this was not a foreign sight to Kirana.

"Drink first," Kirana said, offering a glass of water that is available on the nightstand. It has been a habit of Kirana for a long time, providing water before going to bed.

"Night you have another nightmare?" ask Kirana later.

"Yes, this time it was real. I feel like I am in the real world" replied Abhimanyu Lirih, after chugging the refreshing water his wife gave.

"About Petunia and the late Farel?" ask Kirana again. Although he already knew the answer, but there was no harm in asking.

"Yes. Farel was after me, as usual, I couldn't stand this dream. Can I just get rid of it?" ask Abhimanyu later. The man looked agitated, improving his sitting position several times.

Kirana then receives the glass returned by Abhimanyu, putting it on the nightstand again.

"You're just being chased by guilt. Don't despair. We will continue to seek Petunia, until she returns in our eight as her parents" replied Kirana, wiping her husband's arm slowly over and over again to strengthen.

"I went to Farel's tomb, but the keeper of the tomb said Farel was not buried there. Don't you know, Kirana? Maybe Petunia deliberately cut off our connection. She really went far away, even her husband's body, not allowed to be touched by us. Where should I find traces? Even after two months passed, Petunia was swallowed by the earth" Abhimanyu said. The man's eyes looked wet, with melted glass in his eye cuffs.

"Really, this pain is not until when. Parents who have failed to become good fathers, what is still worth mentioning as parents? If I may ask, I would like to explain to Nia, fix everything and apologize to her. I want to be like before, my kids to live well and be happy. If my Petunia returns, I will accept Farel as the daughter-in-law of this house" Abhimanyu said. The man looked tangled in massai, with breathing still rising and falling irregularly.

"We'll fix everything. If Nia comes back later, don't forget to keep humbling yourself, because we are the ones who are guilty" Kirana said later.

"That's for sure," replied Abhimanyu curiously.

"Somehow I feel or how, but I feel, there's something you're hiding after Petunia's departure from here, Mas. Is that true?" kirana asked, "but if there's nothing you're hiding, I won't force it, maybe it's just my feelings."

Abhimanyu's sturdy body froze, feeling as if he was caught hiding something from his wife. Should he be honest? However, hiding something from Kirana was also not something good. Sooner or later, the rot will be exposed soon. Abhimanyu realized that.

What if Kirana judged Abhimanyu?

Ah, it feels like Abhimanyu no longer cares about that. He is guilty. If you are judged, it is natural as a consequence of his actions.

"Mas, are you daydreaming?" kirana asked Abhimanyu.

"I'm sorry, I .. I do have a big secret that I'm hiding from you" Abi replied in a soft voice. Kirana frowned, feeling her sudden heart thumping very fast.

"What's wrong? Justsaytheword. I will not talk to anyone, including Kia," Kirana said no less softly, "i will not judge you, if you have a mistake. You're my husband, you're still my husband" Kirana continued.

Abhimanyu was silent for a moment, breathing the air deeply to neutralize his violent feelings.

"Actually, I .. I was the one who caused Farel the accident that night. I, deliberately wanted to separate Nia from Farel in a dirty way, because Nia and Farel still insisted on refusing to separate," Abhimanyu later said.

Honestly, it took a lot of courage for Abhimanyu to say this honesty.

A huge thunderbolt was snatching around out there, as if Andik was grabbing a heart in a mother's chest. Kirana was not only shocked, but more than just a heavy shock after hearing her husband's statement.

Is it possible that Kirana heard wrong?

"Me, I didn't hear wrong, did I?" ask Kirana then, "say if you're just joking."

"No, unfortunately no," Abhimanyu answered steadily, with his head shaking slowly several times.

"Gosh, Mas. That means you've made Farel go? Killed her? Answer, Mas. Answer!" exclaim Kirana with a choked voice. The woman's reflexes covered her lips with her two palms, in an incredulous reaction.

"Unfortunately, this is the situation. Maybe this is my nightmare, because Farel's spirit is demanding justice from me. I would have, if I had been in prison. Should I just turn myself in? I realized, Kirana, sin cannot be separated from revenge," Abhimanyu shed tears unconsciously.

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