Not the Original Owner
52. Open Mind
Nyssa has entered the age of 4 months. In addition to a large appetite and fatigue, pregnancy hormones also affect intimate activities.
Almost every night they do, neither Nyssa nor Azmy can resist this one.
But tonight is different. Nyssa felt that the feeling she had ignored all this time was already unstoppable. Finally, she decided to stay away from her husband for a while.
Nyssa asks to sleep separately and does not want to get close to Azmy.
Although lying is a sin, Nyssa does not intend to lie. He's just not ready to say it. Nyssa tries to find a reasonable reason to keep Azmy from getting angry. He felt the need to organize his heart carefully at this moment. So that his feelings are not labile and do not make him depressed which will later affect the content.
Azmy can only comply with his little wife's request. With hope, tomorrow Nyssa is back to the way it was. Tonight he'll spend it in the study, taking care of his work. The project outside the city has been running for 1 month, the target he wants to achieve is 3 months.
Actually, he could have targeted within 2 months. But he did not do it, because the quality of employee work will decrease with the presence of solid deadlines and the amount of overtime. For Azmy, a bit of retreat is no problem than fast with perfunctory qualities. It also includes the plus points that its clients have liked all along.
The raw material provider report has no problems, as well as the project rate report. Everything went according to plan, just a little constraint on delivery. When he saw the dispatch service report, Azmy frowned. Because the shipping services used today are not in accordance with the initial agreement. Soon Azmy called Leon.
Leon explained, if the shipping service that should have violated the contract when it was only running 1 week. Leon has already processed the penalty and the necessary things. So Leon made the decision to use a shipping service that was ranked second during the presentation, instead. There is indeed a delay, because the average age of workers is above 40 years. But the delay did not affect the pace of the project, so Leon still uses the current delivery service. Leon also said he had sent an email report about the delivery service. Leon has asked Azmy to acknowledge this in his report. However, its performance will not be as fast as a young age. They are consistent in their work.
Azmy disconnects her phone and checks all incoming emails from Leon. It turned out that there was an email that was missed by him containing the report that Leon was talking about. After reading the contents of the report, Azmy contacted his trusted person to investigate the delivery service.
He also began to focus on reading some cooperation that will expire from the performance report. Whether to renew his contract or not and the need to find a replacement.
Nyssa was already asleep, after tired of crying. She felt tormented for staying away from her husband. But he had to do it, if he wanted to calm his feelings.
Nyssa's head ached as she tried to recall the thing she had forgotten. Plus 3 emerging memories of the same woman. It felt like he was experiencing, but their faces were not the same. From a different age, only the appearance of the same cover.
Nyssa had prayed to ask Allah for guidance, but had not yet received an answer. What is, his feelings are more chaotic when with Azmy. Every one of her body wants union with her husband, she restrains the warring mind. To the extent that their unification stopped in the middle of the road. Nyssa felt sinful with the inner state she had hidden from Azmy. And made her husband disappointed at the rejection also activities that stopped in the middle of the road.
How to start a conversation if you are not sure. Nyssa prayed again, hoping that by avoiding her husband she could get a clue.
In his sleep, Nyssa dreams of his memory when he first enters the body of Nyssa, the owner of the body. His memories flowed like a long dream. It is like a movie with a mixed plot that confuses it.
Nyssa also dreams of the man she saw when memory came on that rainy day. Husband of a woman who has 2 children. But why was Nyssa in his arms. A deep sense of comfort and longing and the words he spoke, as if Nyssa was his wife.
"Wife?
Am I the wife of this man?
Am I a woman in memory?
Am I not the real me?
Who me?"
Nyssa awakens from her sleep with a breath. Slowly Nyssa regulated her breathing as well as wiping away the cold sweat on her forehead. After his breathing was regular, he read a nightmare prayer.
In the lyrics a wall clock that shows at 02.00 in the morning. Soon he went into the bathroom to take ablution. Praying in one third of the night, asking God for guidance on his dreams.
After the prayer, Nyssa began to recite. Verily, Allah is All-Mighty, All-Powerful, and Nyssa's mind is open to the miracles of Allah. All memories, dreams, subconscious, which was a random puzzle before. On the pleasure of Allah, the puzzle is now neatly arranged.
Nyssa finally realized, he is not the owner of the original body. Unless only the soul occupies the body of the owner of the body. While the soul of the owner of the body has been lost without a trace since the dream he got before the wedding day. "Where does Nyssa own the body?" ask Nyssa.
The feelings of reluctance and rejection that he had felt so far were not multiple personalities but his own feelings. During these few months, he lived the life of the owner of the body with the memory of the owner of the body. Therefore, his own feelings become pent up can only feel but do not know the reason also the origin. So that the clash of his feelings became chaotic.
Does God want all this?
Nyssa's cry broke out instantly, not that she regretted what happened to her. Nor do they want to deny the decrees that He has outlined.
She cried remembering her longing for her husband and children.
"How are they doing now?
Do they know I'm here?"
Nyssa spilled all her yearning for her children, let alone the youngest she nicknamed the baby koala for always clinging to her.
"Who is my koala hanging on with now?"
Nyssa tries to pull out his feelings, every event must have wisdom in the can. Perhaps God has sent someone trustworthy into their midst.
"O Allah, You are Most Merciful, Most Merciful. Thank you for all the graces you have given. Forgive me, if what I have done has made You angry, you are Most Forgiving, Most Forgiving. The servant sincerely accepts the decree that you have given, and the servant is grateful for the opportunity that you have given to the servant. Protect the husband and children of the servant, as well as the soul of the owner of this body, wherever they are because you are the Supreme Protector. For you have desired me as a substitute soul. You must have prepared a beautiful plan for them. Alhamdulillah a la kulli haal." (Praise be to Allah in every situation)
After calming her feelings, Nyssa began to lean her body at the foot of the bed. Leaning can reduce pressure on the stomach. Her stomach had been feeling stuck since earlier, her pregnancy which was now three times the size of the one she had experienced. If he was 4 months old his stomach just started to look distended. It's like 7 months pregnant.
He began to recite the holy verses of the Qur'an, adding to the peace of his heart and soul.
Azmy just came out of her study. Upon entering the room, he heard the sound of Nyssa chanting sacred verses. Seeing the new watch shows at 03.00 in the morning, he guessed Nyssa finished praying one third of the night.
Azmy notices Nyssa from the door that connects their room. Nyssa was sitting on the floor leaning against the bed. A distended stomach was clearly imprinted on the face that Nyssa was wearing.
She recalled, Mami Sita once said that Nyssa's stomach is currently comparable to the size of a 7-month-old single baby. And will grow bigger again with the age of pregnancy. Azmy began to think about Nyssa's activities that would be limited due to her stomach later.
Nyssa realizes the arrival of Azmy, in her heart she feels confused how to face her now husband.
