Not a Savings Woman

Night walks

''Well, Mas Didin is so handsome, '' Praise Luluk without blinking. 

Ainaya turned to follow the girl's eyes looking. It turns out that's right, Didin looked different. If the man usually only wears a t-shirt with a neck that is too saggy and training pants, this time he wears a box shirt and jeans. Her hair is neatly arranged. Pretty stunning for the size of the village guy. 

''Are you ready?'' The heavy voice broke Luluk's daydream which was stunned by Didin's appearance. 

''Here, Mas,'' Ainaya replied straightforwardly, while Luluk just nodded. His tongue was too thick to speak. 

''I ride with Luluk only yes, Mas, '' said Ainaya while pointing at the matic motor belonging to the friend.

Didin nodded then approached his sport bike. Perhaps, there are only a few people who have such a motorbike, including Didin. 

Before leaving, they waved their hands at Bu De who was standing in the doorway of the exit sign.

Luluk drove his bike slowly. Occasionally talking through the gusts of air that hit. The cold night wind no longer felt. The darkness is not an obstacle they enjoy the beauty of the city of Kartini. 

It was quite pleasant, many sights were soothing to the eyes and it made Ainaya forget about the problem. 

''You like it?'' ask Luluk in a high tone. 

''Like, next time we can walk again, ''' replied Ainaya in a high tone as well.

''By the way, the important thing is Didin's mas who treat us.'' Both of them laughed out loud. 

Didin who was walking behind them could only smile at the two, despite not hearing the conversation, he was sure that Ainaya was happy right now. 

''What are we eating tonight?'' Luluk stopped his motorbike in front of a tent food stall near the city market. He pointed to several stalls with different menus. 

Indeed, most processed villages, but it even makes Ainaya want to immediately taste everything.

''Just meatballs, like our plan was this afternoon.'' Pointing to a busy meatball kang serving customers. 

Didin parked his bike, as well as Luluk. They approached Ainaya who entered first. 

It turns out that there are so many visitors that they have to queue to get a bowl of meatballs. 

''Didin's mom wants to eat meatballs too? If you want something else, papa?'' tanya Ainaya approached Didin. 

''Meatballs only. You sit down first, let me order.'' Didin pointed at the empty seat that had an edge. 

Ainaya immediately sat down without protest, while Luluk ordered a drink. Just a few minutes in that place, many glanced at Ainaya especially at her pretty face. They, the men are being bullied each other. There was even a flirtatious wink that made Ainaya uncomfortable. 

Geez, they're like that anyway, never seen a woman.

Ainaya chose to duck pretending not to see him. 

Luluk came with three iced teas, followed by Didin carrying three bowls of meatballs. They sat facing each other to avoid the gazes of others. 

''You want me to take it, Nay?'' bargain Didin took the soy sauce and sauce and poured it in Ainaya's bowl. Not wanting to look excessive, the man also poured in Luluk's bowl. 

''Still, Mas.'' Luluk's heart was pounding as Didin replied with his sweet smile. Even though he knew his joy would not be avenged, it was okay, the important thing was that he could be close to the man. 

Not without reason Luluk thinks like that. He felt inappropriate for Didin who was born from a wealthy family in his village, while Luluk's mother and father only became laborers and worked to help De maam in the rice fields. Their degrees are like the earth and the sky that will not merge even though they complement each other. 

''If Ajeng knew, he would have liked it too, Mas.'' Ainaya pulled out her phone and took three photos in different styles. Send it to Ajeng's number. 

''It's not open?'' ask Didin kepo. 

Ainaya shook his head, showing his message which only ticked two grays. 

''Maybe he's also again weekly night with his girlfriend.'' 

Ajeng put it back when several pairs of eyes noticed, maybe they were surprised by the phone is very expensive and classy, or because they consider it a katrok already selfi in the stall. 

After enjoying the meatballs, Luluk and Ainaya and Didin continued their walk to the city park. Where many young men clustered there, many were only alone with their partners. Really, this kind of atmosphere is very fitting to remove all problems that stifle the chest.

''Didin's mom comes here often?'' asked Ainaya to stop his steps. 

''Not really, maybe this is the third time. First I am with Ajeng, second with my friend who now works abroad, and now with you, Didin said with a smile. 

They sat on chairs that were on the edge of the garden. Enjoy the sparkling lights that decorate. 

''I went to the bathroom first yes, '' said Luluk, he left his bag on Ainaya. 

''Be careful, don't be long, '' cried Ainaya who immediately answered a nod by Luluk. 

Only Didin and Ainaya remained. They felt a little awkward and silent to each other until Didin's deheman made Ainaya turn his head.  

''Do you still love your husband, Nay?'' tanya Didin made Ainaya frown. 

''Sorry if I'm presumptuous, just want to know, '' he added. 

Ainaya smiled stiffly. It was not appropriate for Didin to ask like that. However, it is also natural, after all, the man never messed around and always maintained his ethics and politeness. 

''What question should I answer, Mas?'' ask Ainaya back.

Didin shook his head quickly, afraid that it would make Ainaya uncomfortable and would no longer want to get close to him. 

''No need, Nay. Sorry, I'm just __"

''No papa,'' Sergeant Ainaya relaxed. 

''Loving without being loved hurts a lot, Mas. And all this time that's how I feel. My love clapped one hand, not the wrong Haris mas, but me. From the beginning of the marriage she had explained everything, but my heart could not lie that love just grew, especially when I was pregnant, it did not feel like getting divorced and would stay together. Butwhat? After my baby was born, Haris still hated me. He doesn't care about me and gives my son to Jihan's mom.''

Paused his words for a moment to take a long breath. 

''Now I realize that loving doesn't have to be. Although we have children, but it feels impossible if we have to unite.'' 

Without feeling a clear circle back dripping just on Ainaya's cheeks, before long the woman sobbed considering the tiny baby she left behind. 

''What if Haris is looking for you? Are you going to take it again?'' tanya Didin made sure.  

Ainaya. ''I will not repeat the dark past. I want to live with a man who truly loves me for who I am, not using me.'' 

Didin smiled widely, at least he still had a chance to open a new leaf for Ainaya.