Narrative Minimal Dialogue (About My Feelings)

Episode 23 (Bingung II) RIAN

RIAN

"iya gua understands what you mean by rian, you definitely need time to open your heart to others, well the cave just want advice, if for example the closeness of lu ama sarah continues, cave hope not enter dita againi, ga ga don't want sarah so the impingement of your loneliness. The most important thing is that sarah is not easy to open the heart for someone, if not the criteria person sarah" I was silent at vera's words, I was still confused as to what to answer.

　

　

"nah if this hana agree ama vera rian, hana see sarah is good, the proof is that she is not fussy am hanna if deket rian" said Hana in support of vera

　

　

"there's the weight of the language is giddy cave" I said confused

　

　

"that's cooking a dizzy rian" joked vera

“yah how well, the point is that the cave tries not to make people hurt,

cave just how the groove, cave ga want to guess, cave enjoy aja

process occurring.” I'm confused

“yah can't do that too rian, entar you hangin people's children

what if he was a baper? Kan you know for yourself he's receptik ama lu, there's no harm

you open your heart a little for him, fight dong he” vera said trying

inflating me

“adeh vera lu fit to be a matchmaking agency rather than a diplomat,

basically, the cave just follow the groove, vera if time brings the cave to continue together

he well cave accept, but don't force the cave to be that fast to open the heart,

cave fear even becomes a problem later, you understand what cave means” said me

asserted

“iya rian gua understand, just cave as your temen, cave want

also the best for you rian” said vera put an end

“makasi for you both already care ama gua, yuk sleep dah

late tonight” said I ended the conversation

We went from this terrace to our rooms,

after arriving in my room I still think over the vera chatter earlier…

Looks like I have to take a step up the condition

here, I don't want anyone to be hurt by my treatment, my intentions maybe

no meaning, others may think differently.

I went to sleep …

SKIPS

This afternoon we will return to the city of our activities. And I

acting as usual with Sarah not keeping her distance, I don't want to be

question for sarah as I keep my distance from her.

This morning I re-enjoyed the natural atmosphere

this beautiful, of course with sarah, we both walked to see the scenery in

this villa, on the way I love my steps to enjoy the spot

good to see, looking down looks residents and the sea

blueish.

Sarah and I sat under the shade tree, and then I

ask a question to sarah.

“sarah according to you if again the same approach someone,

how long is the time?” I started fishing for sarah

“depending on the hell, some are months or it takes time

long for them to be sure of the feeling

they're each other and some take a short time, for them to be able to

get to know, until they are made, why rian” explanation sarah and

then ask back

“emang can well in a short time already sure the same feeling

each other”tanyaku

“can aja rian, if it is comfortable, sure of each other

whyever not? Ngapaen long approach if later friends taste girlfriend ga

there is clarity” said sarah

I smiled at Sarah as if she was saying it

leads to me..

“but is that easy? You think from the view of one

girls, in a short time can be comfortable and sure the same feelings for the doi?”

much

“rian you need to know too, each person is different, rian, not

means the girl who easily feels comfortable with the guy, not classy, ga

keep the prestige or anything rian, it could be that the girl has been looking to know everything

information about sicowok, and it could be that the girl is getting comfortable with the guy

because of finding someone who approaches the criteria of the girl.

have a reason why it can be as fast as it's comfortable as a guy” said sarah Long

width

“hmm well okay deh” my bales

“why do you have such a cake rian” Tanya sarah

“hmm just want your point of view only sarah”

“rian emang you again constation with doctor love” reply

vera while laughing

“it's up to you, oh yeah your plan after graduation

what college? Sarah said

“what well I'm confused sih”apku hanging

“bingung how?”Ask sarah

“iya I want to continue S2, want to be a lecturer, but I

also realistic, I also want after graduation to have my own income, and

not a burden on my family, because I'm not from my family

middle to upper class, so I understand the thoughts of my family, after graduation there

income, for them it is enough to make them calm and a little proud.

“emang if S2 does not make them proud and can be a lecturer

also” said vera

“iya proud also sih sarah, but the S2 needs a process as well

sarah, my preparation is to find a scholarship, test prep, while I am too

it cost me a living during that process, and if I can get through

the process, I also can not give my income

for my family, sarah, I think that's exactly”

“hmm that's good your plan, I doaiin that

best for you rian, hopefully you get the best way in determining

steps you took”

“ok ready to see a doctor, the best prayer for you too, and

may I get a doctor too”capku

“AMIN , uh you think that the doctor should be the same doctor

lt's it? Sarah said

“yah get used to it, dapetnya se profession, if you have ,

same one who wears uniform” said I smile

“you know rian, it doesn't have to be that way either, I don't

limiting who will accompany me later, do not have to be kayaked

you said just now, I accept whoever will accompany me,

the Fate of LORD”

“hmm that's cool you're sarah, salut deh, rarely

find a woman like you,” I said while joking

“meet me what rare thing?” sarah said while laughing

“iya tuh, need to be museumkan”ucapku joking

Back to kevilla again, breakfast trip packing for

rumah” said I ended the conversation

We're heading back to the villa until we're ready

breakfast and ready to go home….

I'm starting to get confused, aihh why it's getting complicated well,

timidly wrong with my closeness as sarah, my feelings are still mixed

with the trauma of dating and the fear of returning heartbroken, and I was recently new

break up, I'm afraid people's responses become strange, know I've just lived it, where

the best..

SKIPS…

It was time for our departure back to the city of activity

we, before we left this villa, you took a picture together, a photo formation

with Sarah there, whether it was intentional or coincidental, I

don't understand, the point since that night was me and Sarah like iron and

magnets that if found always close together in context are still reasonable.

After we finished taking pictures together, we went inside

bus..

Vera starts playing her role as a matchmaking agency agent

“mbak sarah I sit the same hana yah, mbak same rian aja”

vera

“loh really is vera?” Sarah was confused

“alah mbak do not protest follow vera’ said vera

asserted

I heard that I could only smile with the bureau's instincts

soul mate

“Udah yuk ride sarah”ucapku

We were on the bus we were on, but

my premonition had started to feel bad, I felt uneasy, sarah just glanced at me..

On the way to the Villa, I began to feel

the pain in my stomach, it felt like something was piercing, I couldn't bear the pain

sarah looked at my face that was beginning to change, anxious, enduring the pain.

“You why rian” Tanya sarah

“ga no why-why” answer me briefly

“what's why-why do you hold the stomach, hurt yah”

said sarah

“iya ails”

I'm starting to limp in this pain, I'm already dizzy,

my eyes began to empty..

…….