My Husband VS My Past

part 27(return to worst)

Sitting in the room. Living as if not living. Half my soul seemed to disappear. I don't feel like living anymore. For what's left of me, my wounds have just healed. It's been scratched again. Even more profound. Sicker. I lay my body on the bed.

"Choky my dear...Choky why are you leaving....I love you.hiks hiks hisk..." I fell asleep while still delirious. I'm so tired already. Played the ball for more than 2 hours. Not had lunch yet. I slept long enough. And now it's 6 in the afternoon by evening.

I woke up, my eyes were too heavy to open. But I kept my eyes open. I'm still in this room. The most beautiful room is mine and Choky's. I miss you, baby. I was crying again.

Now he's gone. He doesn't even care about the wounds he's already had. Now my lips are swollen like this. My hands also hurt for movement. I gotta get out of here. Why am I staying here, the owner of the house just left me.

I wake up, go to the bathroom. Clean yourself up for a while and pack up. I just went to bring my stuff. I won't bring the clothes Choky bought.

After I finished packing, I carried my backpack. I looked at my tudur bed and Choky again. Lots of memories in this bed. We haven't had a couple, but I've enjoyed every moment with her. Loved her.

I breathe in slowly and then slowly release. I have to be strong. I'm gonna go. Goodbye my bed, baby.

I started to step out of the room. Walk down the small steps. I saw Mbok Tut standing there.

"Mbok, I'm saying yes."

"Where's the hell is the hell you going?"

"I have to go Mbok. There's no place for me here."

"Non, Mr. Choky loves Miss very much. He's just being emotional. Please don't go."

"No Mbok. I gotta go. Thanks, Mbok Tut took good care of me."

I walked out of the house to the garage. Take my helmet and start my engine. Mbok Tut followed me to the garage.

"Miss, don't go Non."

I just smiled and started to drive my bike away from Choky's yard.

Go without a goal, just the origin of the motor only. I also did not check the gas. A very confused thought. After traveling a considerable distance, the sound of the motor suddenly snapped and stopped. I'm driving my bike by the side of the road.

"Basic motorcycle. I don't know if I'm sad anymore. Why should it be stuck anyway. Bummer." I was angry with myself on the motor. I look around.

This is where I am, I suddenly got here. My inner.

A path I don't know. Looking at the clock in my hand, pointing at the number 7 more. But this road is still crowded. There are many food stalls.

Seeing the food banner, my stomach felt sore because from noon had not had time to fill it. It's good to fill your stomach first. I will walk again. I led my motorcycle to the front parking lot of the restaurant. Check the wallet first. Do not let the stomach is full but the wallet is not there. That's an old song.

Enter the restaurant, sitting at the very end.

"Would you eat or drink, Mother?" Ask the shop owner.

"Book Eating. What's the cheapest side dish?"

"Same rice sauteed kale Mbak."

"Yaudah I pesen it added a plump egg. Drink some water."

"Good Ma'am." The mother left.

Mununggu 5 minutes order coming.

"Please Mommy."

"Thank you Buk."

Without further ado, I immediately ate the food in front of me. It didn't take long, the food on my side was clean. The glass is empty.

"Huh, it's full now. Time to get a bed."

I moved from my seat. Walk to the food payment site.

"Can't anyone yet sir?" Ask the mother.

"not Buk yet. Rani even said phone call is not sure when to turn it. His father is not healed." Answer the father who seems to be the husband of the Mother.

"Sorry Buk, are you looking for a worker?" I asked when I was near them.

"I can Buk."

"The mother is serious? But here the work must be done Mbak. Especially at lunch and dinner. Must be full."

"I can all Buk. If you don't like the way I work, I'm told to stop."

"All right then. Tomorrow at 7 am I waiting in this stall Yes Ma'am."

I smiled happily. Finally there is something I can do. I stretched out my hand. "My name is Nova Buk."

The mother shook my hand. "Call me Lady."

"Oh, there's no boarding around here?"

"There's. I will take you to my sister's boarding house. I'm gonna take this for a second."

Waiting for Bi Siti for a few minutes, then left for her sister's boarding house. It was not too far from the shop. Only the hostel is located in narrow alleys.

"Fitri, your dorm room is still empty, isn't it?" Ask Bu Siti to a woman sitting in her house.

"There is no Ma'am. Full all. But let me ask Jessy, yesterday she found a roommate. He said to pay it cheap. Wouldn't you like a room together?" Ask Bu Fitri.

"You're Buk."

"Yaudah, let me deliver. It just so happens Jessy's coming home from work."

The three of us walked back to Bu Fitri's house. It began to look there are two rows of boarding rooms. Counting about 30 rooms. Ms. Fitri passed room 1,2,3. He knocked on his bedroom door.

"Jess! Jessie!" Call Bu Fitri to the occupant of the room.

"Yes just a little shit." Sahutan from within.

Krieekkk.

The door to the room is open. A woman who seemed to be younger than me, she stood on the doorstep with a towel wrapped around her hair. The smell of the shampoo is very fragrant.

"Jess, are you looking for a roommate? What's his name, huh?"

"Nova Buk." My answer.

"Nova's got a host as well."

"So, it's Buk." Jessy answered quickly.

"You're going to room with Nova."

"You're Buk."

"Jude." Ms. Fitri looked at me. " Nov, you pay with Jessy. Yesterday, Jessy paid in full. So you change the money he's just." Bu Fitri said.

"Both Buk."

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At the boarding, chat with Jessy, until she suggested me to include a job application at the company where she worked.

At around 9pm Jessy waited for her boyfriend who she said would come to visit her hostel.

I sat in my room, holding my phone. I want to do the same with this phone. It's just Choky's number and my family's. Not even Ardi's number.

It's really bad, Choky. He deleted all my sosmed accounts, deleted all the numbers stored in the phone's memory. Even the email on the phone was replaced. I have no friends.

I open the gallery on my phone. All are photos of Choky. I smiled at the pictures. When did he put these pictures in. Our wedding photos and prewedding photos of the time.

Fucking weird. Fill it all with her photo. I really can't keep pictures of my friends or friends. It should be just him. Is she so scared ? He was afraid I was cheating, afraid I might glance at the others. I remember all the silly things Choky said. I smiled and cried remembering.

"Choky, I missed you. I miss you so much."