My Holiness Lost on New Year's Eve

CHAPTER 52

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"Yuk, eat Nin first. You haven't had dinner yet. " Raka said that he came from behind the door carrying a plate of rice and a glass of water.

After coming home from my mother's funeral I did eat. More time spent in the room, just going out to take a shower and recriminate.

After that I don't care if the irang people out there are preparing for the event tonight.

"I'm not hungry" I replied not to lie.

I heard heavy breathing from the man. "Nin you don't be like son dong. You know ngak, your behavior is not for Mother to calm even Mother to be tormented". Mas Raka said sounding annoyed but still trying to hold his voice so as not to rise.

" you don't know what it's like in David's birth mother's house. You know, for me, Mom is half of my life. Mom's problem didn't calm down there as I continued to lament her departure... I can't, I can't be strong. The shadow with Mom was like something that made me fragile again and could only cry. " I said at length.There are no more Mas frills for him because I'm not okay.

"So you think, here only you lose, only you are sad, No Nin. We're all the same..Although not like you, there is still a sense of loss. It is not only you who are sad we are also Nin. So don't bother yourself" I raised my head to look at the man who had just raised his tone on me.

"Asstgfirullah...Y'all know. If you like this is what makes Desi's mother not calm there" Sela Mama Nayla, stepped closer while shaking her head

"Sorry Nin....." Mas Raka said, approaching and grabbing my body in his arms.

"Don't be sad again.we went through the same. " Say mas Raka lirih

"These beliefs are all God's destiny line. You don't feel alone Nin, there's me and the others...Believing God's destiny is beautiful" said Mas Raka rubbing my head gently.

Mama Nayla came closer and hugged me from the side. Like there is power for me. The feeling of calm again prompted many people who loved me.

"Nindy ate ya..." Say Raka again..I'm nagging. The man moved back to take the plates and glasses that were all placed on the table.

"Sister Raka, this is medicine for Nindy's sister..." Xena arrives and hands the black bag to Raka.

"What medicine is Raka?" mama Nayla asked to represent me.

"When Nindy slept earlier, her body was a bit hot and shivering. So I asked Xena to buy Tiara medicine" explained Mas Raka.

"Yes Ma..But we went three, in between Yoga kak his name.. Because they don't know where the stall is"

The clear face looks mute and flat.

"Suapin yes. Ka" as if to know what he thinks I'm trying to make his heart back okay.

"Same..." Sure enough, the face returned smiling.

"Jas..Mama came out first, after this you guys also came out..Her do'a will be done soon" Ucao Mama Nayla left with Xena while closing the room door.

"Yes Ma" answered Raka.

"Your guy's outside..You just answered" I said

"I think it's important that I answer" He replied without making a thin smile rising at the corner of the lips.

Hopefully after this I can still stand with David.

"You promise me, Ka. to not leave me" I said .he turned his head with a smile.

"will not. And I promise to take care of you and to make you happy" she replied smiling sweetly.

"promises. Whose promise..?"

"Mother" said her short.

"When...?"

"Many ask.keburu nangis ni Food continues in pecans. Uda don't think about eating first"

I nodded and obeyed, even though my heart was not satisfied...

Seriate..