My Dating Story's
The After Story (2)
Yui Tanaka, that's my name, but I'm not of Japanese descent huh, there's no Japanese at all, I grew up as the youngest of 3 siblings, my eldest brother, my older sister who was a girl. As the youngest child at first I was not very concerned and arguably whatever I wanted could be quickly granted. That seems to be because I was born with a considerable distance of time with my brother, 10 years old. From childhood, yes, I lived that way and the bigger I was just living the life I thought I should be, school, college and then work. I helped my papa in the company he had for 20 years, my brother no one works there and all have been away from home since getting married a few years ago.
My dad seemed really annoyed because I kept being at home after work. Suddenly, he told me to get married. And so I was invited to a blind date event which was one of the religious events as well. I don't like to argue and I don't think I enjoy the event enough, even had time to meet a girl who is quite interesting, but different age is too far for me. If you think logically it's not really, not older than my brother, but if my parents know, well can be asked to marry soon, I'm not ready. And the funny thing is 2 years have passed my parents kind of stopped teasing me about this, yes maybe also because of the pandemic kayaknya. And I can still enjoy my single time, at least until next year.
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The man was chatting with his mother over dinner, Finno lived only with his mother, as an only child and his father had long since died. Finno loved his mother very much, and wanted to marry and make her mother happy. But it seems that the desire has not been realized until now when it feels like there is nothing wrong with him, Finno always thinks he is a fairly established man should be in the eyes of women, his face is quite ok according to him, and have enough female friends because one of them is because of their work. And he felt that he was not a bad person either. To this day he still likes to think about Vira.
Finno was still confused as to why Vira had stayed away and chosen another, was that man more handsome than him? If it's a matter of kindness Finno feels he's a good person. Finno never realized the attitude of having it excessive and its cravings like expensive selling will make the women retreat regularly, plus according to many women his face is quite ordinary. But the man was too confident to realize it and instead of doing self-reflection he was even more confused, maybe there should be someone who resuscitated him, told him what was really about him, unfortunately not yet there.
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Vira and I were strangers for over 1 year, until I didn't know what happened I felt Vira changed. The way he spoke, and the style he chatted made me relax, and strangely we became more open to each other, he gave me a letter, the title thank you letter. The contents of his letter as the title suggests, he thanks me for having been present in his life so that he could have the feeling he used to feel, he felt a lot of changes that happened to him because of me, because of me, he becomes understanding to love himself more before loving others. Even in the letter he asked me to forget all the words he did not make sense first, and whatever our relationship later it could have happened, it could have happened, even if we ended up like brothers it wouldn't be a problem for him. And I felt like he had given up, given up on the romantic interest in me 2 years ago, and it amazed me.
Before I saw Vira who was too secretive and just funny, and could never be serious. This time I felt like there was a fire to get what he wanted, and I was no longer on the agenda for him, he was looking for himself, he said, and the way he told me was different which made me feel comfortable to say anything to him, I who needed time to have the feeling of being like meeting a new Vira, can I try again? I'm too passive or I'm afraid I don't know, for now I feel happy just with our simple conversations about things that feel more meaningful.
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2 Years have passed from the last true relationship of Vira and Vide also there is no clear status. Vira realized that she was quite annoying back then. The habit of Vira who always had backups until the year in his chat made Vira realize when he read their chat back, how scary Vira, even in the eyes of Vira herself, why too aggressive? Vira feels fully aware that he has lost himself at that time, and he is amazed at the patience of Vide accepting his strangeness, and Vira did break the promise a few times and Vira herself was annoyed with her own chat. Vira was often childish, and indeed kept a distance by unconsciously closing himself and it turned out that the end was slowly backwards by reducing the frequency of chat and no longer calling after saying that he was afraid. But after a while so he instead asked Vide about the feeling of Vide. I think everyone in Vide's position will reject Vira who actually refused by installing a high shield. Vira is grateful that Vide answered honestly unlike the cliche rejection “you are too good for me” or the like that is often known by Vira and ever used.
1 year after resigning, Vira rested and learned many things and sought his identity. He loves his life now and gets the knowledge that he has not loved himself all this time, and he must learn it to love others.
“Love is not a love if u not in love.”
“To be in Love, you must love yourself first.”
“If u Love without love yourself first, its called sacrifice.”
“Love yourself is a key of Love.”
“ You can find love if u try, just never give up, and not be limit by age.”
“Our time is different.”
“being alone vs being lonely its different situation.”
“Love and hate is love with different way.”
“Love for you and love for me can be different.”
“respect yourself, find your way and find your happiness.”
