My Dating Story's

Vira's Decision & Vide's POV

Vira gets a negative impact during a pandemic and makes him finally reflect on himself, and realize that his life is just like a hunk that is not there, empty. He increasingly does not understand himself and if he can no longer enjoy what he does, he has difficulty sleeping because initially a bad habit because he had to work up to 24 hours, he had difficulty sleeping because of the bad habit of having to work up to 24 hours, and when he fell asleep he dreamed he was working, his life only contained work even in dreams. He became less rested and easily sick (physical and mental), felt lost himself and realized that all this time he did not love himself even somewhat hate him, he was not, therefore he finally wanted to find his own way, his identity and for that he needed time for himself, therefore Vira resigned to his superiors who trusted Vira very much. As a result the resignation was held long enough, and Vira's parents even sick that makes Vira confused, because he is financing her parents, whether it can be if she starts from 0 and leaves her job. Suddenly Vira remembered Sony again and this time she confided in her mirror.

(Son, somehow the decision to resign is very difficult yes.I'm sure that if we can talk now maybe you will say finally Vir, you should try to think more about yourself, you should try to think more about yourself, you live for yourself too you know, you always want people around you to be happy always like that, you always want to prove that you are reliable, but do they really care about it? And what's in it for you if you're not happy. Ah Son, I really miss you're gonna nag like that, because I didn't do this a long time ago, right? I'm afraid son, but now I have a picture of my life later even though starting again from 0 you will always support me right?) Vira keeps staring at her mirror hoping to get really Sony's answer not just her own voice and unknowingly tears Vira down from just one eye, this is one of Vira's strange habits when crying only her left eye is shedding tears.

POVs

 I have known for a long time that I am a different person, my way of thinking and acting when compared to other people in general, it can be said that I outsider, I always think in a way that other people do not think about it, and about my feelings very deep, but to get there it took a long time, I can't believe there's anything instant for anything. And one day my brother who found out that I was involved with a girl of different religion was worried about me and because of the encouragement of the order to introduce me to the religious one.

At that time my brother Rini brought good news to the house after attending an event that has a theme of our religion and also semi blind date, he met a good man from central Java, he met a good man from central Java, and they decided to date long distance. Actually a bit surprised also I the same decision that feels very fast. But if he's happy, I'll definitely support him.

That afternoon I heard a laughing voice and a little chat in the middle room between my mother and brother that finally made my curiosity appear because I heard my name called, so I went to those who, of course, they even picked me up. My sister wanted to introduce me to one of her boyfriend's friends. He's 2 years younger than me, and according to my mother seems like a good boy, his background doesn't look special. The rest I don't know too, and the photo was sent to me also by my brother, my brother asked me to get acquainted with him, and I think there's nothing wrong, many friends, many friends, many friends, especially if it's fun, why not? Even though I'm an introvert I sometimes like to know people privately. And before I was given her number my brother asked for my last photo. I'm confused also want a photo now it looks like I no longer look good, it could be a bad first impression later. I scrolled through the photos in my hap gallery and finally found a fairly decent new photo, a photo taken by my close friend and co-worker, it was Friday and I was wearing a new batik suit.

 I decided to chat with the girl this afternoon, because it's Saturday she might not be too busy. But it turns out that I was wrong, and this even aroused curiosity, this girl, Vira her name from her chat seemed quite cheerful but it seemed that her life was full of work, maybe career was her priority, she said, so I feel like she'll slow pace in feeling too. And we enjoyed almost every chat, I even really enjoyed it when we could play together and he asked for my help to complete the mission.

Vira is indeed different from other girls I have known in general, and it looks like the priority of his work, his knowledge is quite broad and really have a high learning desire, he said, even I don't get bored every day chatting with him and even spend the weekend with vcall with him for hours.

Vira is quite funny and more like flirting if I feel lately which initially makes me laugh but for a long time somewhat confused me with his earnestness, I was also quite afraid that we were incompatible. He said many times that he was an absurd person, and I didn't know how to deny it, if I tell my friends that women are sometimes curious and I can only say that Vira is unique and absurd, which makes them just look at each other and say nothing more.

I really felt that maybe we did have the same speed on different roads until a time like Vira felt herself scared and she really didn't like the situation, she told me, but everything he said was incomplete, as if he had deliberately passed inexplicably, maybe he was afraid, maybe he was too upset, maybe he was too upset, so I waited for his explanation and felt like chatting him and me was going in a different direction, like we were in a different frequency, and I was tired of waiting and it seemed like he wanted to end it all by saying fear, before the distance we were getting away that made me retreat himself he said that he was afraid, he was afraid he would regret what he would do to me. I kept asking what it was, but he kept saying he couldn't because of fear, I stopped asking for a long time and he kept trying to make me laugh, and I don't know why I feel like he's building his shield, it felt like he had to make me laugh until I didn't know what to say anymore and I finally said that only I can remember about you, you're absurd, please just do something, and then I said, I just don’t want to remember the absurd you. And I said he was too closed, he said the same thing and we both knew that the shields we each had were probably thicker than we thought, I retreated after he had indeed built the shield to cover himself with an unexplained fear. And we almost instantly as if to be a stranger, when he chat my answer can not be long and long we no longer chat with each other.