My Dating Story's
POV Aby and Vira
The Vira Point Of View (POV)
The first time I knew Wandy's identity was when I was getting close to Aby, an unexpected moment that made me really understand my own feelings, Wandy easily entered my heart even from the very beginning we met, we were comfortable without needing to know each other's identities, Wandy strangers who never felt foreign. On the other hand Aby from the beginning got acquainted with a complete identity, we also quite often walked together, but I can only think of him as a good person who might be able to be made a big brother, he said, sometimes I feel guilty, do I use it? Utilizing kindness? But then I knew Wandy was just a lesson from a beautiful and tragic destiny, Aby came as if extending her hand, as if everyone around me was pushing me to choose Aby, my heart knows Aby was never an option. I listen to other people very easily and I like my logic that often beats my heart. My logic says it's ok. My heart screamed no, but I finally chose to live it, I realized living it half-heartedly, and we quickly felt the incompatibility, and then we were reunited again, and I repeat the same thing, am I wrong? What's the wrong situation? I can't blame the circumstances because after all I just have a false status all this time we are dating and again it is I who did choose to live it. I never cheated, never once thought of me even though my heart felt I chose the unfair path. My relationship with Aby sometimes feels like a ritual where I have to fulfill my obligations as a girlfriend, and my logic says that if I'm more open my heart might be able to accept it. Touched again by his kindness we unknowingly got back together again and which in the end led to new frustrations, we promised each other, but the fact that always kept it was just me. I always said I couldn't tolerate people breaking promises, but Aby kept doing it, I think she likes me but why she likes to hurt me this way so much. The pain I think I'm feeling is because I'm afraid of losing Aby, or am I just afraid of losing that status?
Time had passed when we had completely broken up after so many times of our incompatibility and I felt very relieved, somehow happier, even though at the beginning I was upset because of his accusations to me, he said, but in the end I understood that maybe she was also frustrated and other women could fulfill all her desires. We even made friends again, and surprisingly Vira was able to accept that and was fine when Aby told her about her relationship with Rely, Aby said Rely looked like me which made me ask for photos of them that turned out not to be similar. 3 years of our relationship never 1 time I or Aby uploaded our photos on social media, and never wear a couple shirt together, but he and Rely do it when it should still be the beginning of the relationship, and I felt really silly when Aby told me that she saw me in Rely and Rely was so scared that we would turn back, well, this opinion is a bit strange and like assuring that their relationship has started before aby finished with me. From his picture and Wandy's opinion it doesn't make sense if we are said to be similar, our skin color is different, the shape of the face is also, the eyes are also, we only use minus glasses. Funny thing is that I'm upset and I laugh because of Wandy. Well look at my thoughts more to Wandy than Aby. Breaking up with Aby seemed like my best decision, I was happier and very relieved. I have more self-time. Aby is my first girlfriend who I half-heartedly love for a status, these words are evil when others say them, but I still think in this relationship I'm the Villain, people who know our relationship also think so because my figure always looks strong. One thing I regret 3 years for a relationship like this feels wasted. I think I'm not ready for love, but I just force my self.
The Aby Point of View (POV)
I did not think they ran aground and I saw Vira was very sad and what I wanted to do at the beginning was to comfort her, but I have to admit that when I comforted her over time I was hoping for more, moreover, the office people around us are very supportive, I also ventured, and I already know the answer. I know he doesn't have any special feelings for me yet, but I think the time and if I knew him better, I understood him better he could be mine, out of nowhere my confidence would be, but that's what I think, and we also have the status of a girlfriend. I saw he was quite happy with me, he even cried when I wanted to go and we became LDRs, and it wasn't long before we broke up.
Then I was so happy that when our destiny made us meet again, I felt like he was my soul mate, I treated him like at the beginning, like we started over and his feelings changed, he felt more open, and he asked too many questions. I knew I was wrong not to open myself up to him, but I also felt I would be a burden to him if he knew what I wanted. In my eyes she was a perfect woman, and I didn't want to hurt her, and I was afraid that if she knew my weakness she would leave me, but everything I did ended up tired, I was tired of this relationship because I was too afraid of losing her, I lost myself and when Rely showed up in my life, we had a lot of hobbies in common and I saw Vira's figure in her as well, she wasn't as pretty as Vira, but I felt that maybe we were better suited, because our levels could be the same, and Rely seemed to understand me a lot. At that time I knew I was wrong, I started a relationship before ending what was happening, Rely knew that and wanted to wait for me, but I promised once that as a man I would not hurt my partner by deciding and ending I asked to be decided. At that time I even accused him of cheating because I knew he was still close to Wandy, it was not wrong if I was jealous even though Vira always told stories and I did not. At the end of this story I know I am guilty but I just want to be happy and loved, my selfishness makes me give up on Vira whose level I consider higher.
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