My Dating Story's

My Mirror Gone's

As per Vira's prediction, they stayed 3 days and 2 nights in Bone. And it was the first time Vira met Winnie, Winnie just kept staring at the coffin that contained Sony's corpse, in disbelief, Vira approached and held the hand of Sony who was wearing gloves but could still feel cold and see her silent and calm face. Vira couldn't believe it and still couldn't feel anything, whereas Winie didn't want to talk at all, she was just silent and daydreaming, so finally Xion who met us introduced us to the Sony family. Sony died suddenly, he rarely exercised, that night playing basketball with his friends and then resting on the sidelines, and Sony closed his eyes, then did not wake up again, when he was taken to the hospital, he was declared dead.

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I haven't been with my mom's family for a long time, and today I'm with them to celebrate the new year together. Because my mother is a big family and the youngest child, aka the youngest child, he is quite spoiled by his brothers who also make sometimes mama just keep quiet if there are bad comments about me. But either because from childhood I have been accustomed to unpleasant speech and I am different from the majority of women my age in this family who are given super beautiful faces and higher bodies, the average cousin or other sister in this family is 170 cm tall, some are above average, but rarely far below as I am 160 cm not up, my height is 159 cm, 1 cm less for 160 cm, and from a young age I was gifted with logic so good that I was good enough in the field of that, especially mathematics, while the beautiful girls were very weak. Actually I think God is fair, but it would be unfair because of the criticism that is constantly directed at me.

But now I'm a little proud because I have a position where my other sister is completely dependent on her husband. I'm not saying they're all unhappy, even though there are also those who experience unwanted things as well but I can be proud, I felt that my life was quite happy when someone gave a thumbs up on my current position and income, and the envious look at me this time made me even less arrogant. But there is always something wrong for sure in me, at my age, I do not look with a companion, to the extent that I doubt, do I not like the opposite sex? Or even considered too choosy because it has been successful. If you think again the life partner voters are indeed supposed to, yes cooking must be as long as they unplug, is it a lottery? Now I'm in the middle of them answering as they please or just smiling as they are.

“Vi, aunt denger lo you are now very successful, your mama is good already got a lot of money from you.

“iya aunt.” I replied with an awkward smile, whereas my mama just smiled while lowering her head, there was pride but also felt as unpleasant as possible.

“if aunty mah child does not work so can not love money.”

This talk makes me proud

“iya, but already have a life partner, not lonely anymore. Where are you the candidate?”

(Well the question arises kayak gini, has been praised on this mah his name rutukku in the heart.)

“you do not challenge already successful also become too choosy, choose a comfortable, it is enough, do not need too handsome.”

Not to mention I answered my other mother's siblings added.

(This time I said in the heart that ugly is also a lot that makes heart eat, well if the handsome eat heart at least his face can still be enjoyed right?)

“so when are you planning a wedding?”

“ya try to find aunty.” I replied at will

“real yes entar aunt cariin.”

And this is the last word, it seems that this answer is the most powerful.

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 The meeting only lasted a few hours but it felt very long and tiring for me, and I saw the face of my mother and papa who were like worried because her only child still chose the way to be single. And finally in order to reduce their worries I also enrolled in a paid matchmaking agency that has a contract of 1 year and also began to diligently look for young associations who are like me, who have a good faith in me, because if not seiman can get blasphemed papa family that is quite fanatical.

 I followed the activity and the activity for me did not make me get a soul mate or just a partner, even as a playmate just seems difficult, I liked them just as individuals and felt like they were different classes with me, their lifestyle was a bit too luxurious for me and I was too simple for them, she said, so my association with them was ordinary and long disappeared with time. But I did get a pretty good reward from the activity, which may have been unconsciously there is my trauma that has not fully recovered and finally can improve, so my sense of curiosity in people began to diminish, he said, my fear of the crowd also improved, and I realized, despite being quite successful and reliable, I never trusted myself, and I was always so ordinary. I always feel full of flaws and have no place here or there and continue to be outcast wherever I start to understand more. And of course there is no continued special relationship with anyone and I who are increasingly addicted to my work makes me often in a businness trip, he said, although the area is still Java island but it seems like it makes the matchmaking bureau that I have listed do not get a candidate for me.

 “wah I was in the trial son, hope you can be invited to chat regular kayak. You're gonna maki them, right? You always know what my heart wants, my mirror, this time I'm actually talking the same mirror right. When do we chat again in the mirror less group? Hahhhaa funny the name of the group was lacking mirror, and I really just so lost you, you who are morbid and like no filter, who understand that I too often so, too, I couldn't bear to last see Winnie, I called her and Xion answered, Xion said Winnie was depressed, Xion hoped that if I stayed around here I might be able to help his beloved sister, but because I was far away I even became chatting with Xion. Xion is the same age as me, he is also quite close to Sony who is 1 year younger. I'll go to the matchmaking bureau which I'm sure if you know the price will definitely maki me too, will not ya? Hahahhaha.”

 Since losing Sony I have often confided in a real mirror that never answered, only I myself answered me. Maybe this is how I erase the loss of the only mirror of my life, already 8 months ago Sony left, Winnie is still in his depression, Xion is guarding it. And I feel like my world has really changed, because I think there are you who can live in this world and feel “belong” then surely I can do so too, too, but now you want to find another world, a world that I can't go to right now, you must be happy there, Son.

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