My Dating Story's
The Story Four Guilty Inside
Almost every day Aby always gives special attention to Vira, as well as asking for the desired food and definitely deliver and pick up too this time when usually Vira enjoys waiting for anyone who passes in front of his cost (if not cutting down Edo sir), but also the cost of food, the majority of the sales and by carrying a helmet can change people at any time. But because whether there is an unwritten order the salesmen are not willing to take Vira, if Vira asked the answer is afraid of the father, or there is a father. Vira's relationship with the Sales so not so good and like a bit away especially with Sales who are under Aby. Sister Tina also almost every day gives endless praise about Mr. Aby as it is today, Vira feels at the doctrine of being wrong and even more confused and afraid of himself.
“iya lo Vir, meet the like Mr. Aby hard lo.”
“...” Vira listens while still typing.
“he is good that, soft also continue to like to joke, attention is also the same we, try that can be found where?”
“ya..”
“ya if the face is not everything, after all Mr. Aby is also not ugly right, yes do not be compared with Mr. Wandy as well, handsome emang him, but if it is not suitable difficult, yes, we become a girl don't be too chatty too, ntar that there are people like her no, trus bite fingers.”
“ya mbak, not the face also si, but not we find a suitable one huh?”
“ matches are not also searchable yes Vir, u can adapt, you are good at it, proof here, from being hostile to the most liked. So favorite.”
“tapi.”
“if you use but Vir long, this is yes now if you have anything here I also guarantee Mr Aby who will be hollow, he is also always good is the same you?”
“...” Vira thinks if there is something wrong in the steps of Vira so far, why is this?
“I see you are also comfortable with Mr. Aby, do not be fooled also pity lo.”
“wah mbak lah, playin feelings people mah can not.”
“nah that you know. You also never said your mama said mendingan loved rather than love?”
“ya mama emang said so, he said then we will not be sick.”
“ya you know, besides there is nothing wrong with Mr Aby right?”
If you want to be honest Vira is fed up with this kind of talk, as if Vira's brain and heart can not be in line, Vira's heart says no, Vira's brain says not wrong right? Maybe even this could be good. One where, so said the brain of Vira, especially every day always lectured the same Mother Tina who is indeed Aby is her favorite father. Vira wants to be left to think for herself but it seems difficult, Vira is afraid, afraid of missteps, but Vira also feels guilty, Vira does not want to use Aby, but it is like that, like giving false hope, like giving false hope, Vira feels like a bad person, and Vira doesn't want that.
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Sundays
Today somehow Vira felt there was a strange premonition but couldn't figure out what and it made her a little uneasy, Aby picked him up in the morning to go to church and after that they went to a park that Vira basically likes, there is a gazebo and there are snacks around. And either maybe it's because Sunday lazy people come out in the morning or what, it is now at 9:00 WITA and the place is quite quiet so that it can get a comfortable seat and there is no one else there, oh maybe not many know Vira has a little phobia crowd and Aby also looks a bit nervous and serious.
“Vir, can I speak seriously no?” Vira knows the direction of this conversation and usually always avoids if Aby starts talking like this, but Vira's premonition today is right and Vira can not avoid it anymore.
“why sister.”
“you know that I like you.”
“ya brother, but I do not like the same brother, sister also know it.”
“you hate me?”
“no, I like big brother, as a big brother, I don't feel I can be more special than that.” Vira this time said as honestly as possible hope Aby understood and did not hurt and want to let go.
“simple right if so, we are dating aja.”
“hah? But I don't like it with brother.”
“lah but you still care about me.”
“ya brother. But..”
“..”Vira was silent
“you agree, right? There will be no difference as well as kayak usually.”
Vira finally nodded resignedly, his heart full of anxiety and guilt, but his brain did rationalization and said there was no harm in trying, Trial and error or trial and success.
The news of Vira and Aby who have become a couple quickly became a warm talk in the Makassar office, most have a positive reaction, the rest are neutral. Ma'am Tina who feels like one of the matchmakers frenzied.
“wah finally.”
“what's the end?”
“can be sir, do not forget lo tax..”.
Tina was excited to be treated with Mr. Aby and not pay much attention to the words of Vira. Everyone thinks Vira is happy with this when basically Vira just tries to be positive by displaying her smile which is actually not sincere. Somehow Vira also increasingly feel the sales away from him, no one wants to be invited to chat again, fitting meet a rather new Vira so curious.
“Za, you guys why si?” Vira asks Eza one of his new recruits sales
“afraid bu.”
“afraid what?”
“mom will have a father, ntar if you are jealous right dangtur.”
“lah I remain me, no one has anyone.”
“but we are still afraid of ma'am, how also the father of our boss.”
With that answer, Vira could only take a breath and finally sat quietly by herself in front of the office entrance until Aby approached.
“what are you doing here?”
“bunggu.”
“wait what?”
“wait someone to invite by the way.”
“hahhaha, you are funny si.” Aby held onto Vira's cheek and made Vira somewhat surprised despite not avoiding.
“what's funny kak?”
“tuh would even pout.”
“sales-sales you it loh kak.”
“lah them why?”
“no one else wants to chat with me, even join sales also so difficult.”
“cooked si? Most joking doang them.”
Vira felt that talking about this with Aby was blatantly not getting a bright spot either. Vira sees Aby enjoying all this euphoria, Vira initially said that this relationship was kept secret first, but somehow tomorrow everyone seems to have known, so yes Vira can only resign.
The days of Vira passed quite slowly and Vira did not enjoy it too much but seemed to enjoy it, even sometimes Vira still felt uncomfortable when her hands were grasped by Aby or even to the point of holding her face. Vira so wonders if Vira can get used to this, can adapt. Aby did not have much of a drastic change other than that she looked very happy and had more smiles. But will Vira be able to survive with all this, Vira believes that if there is a will there will always be a way.
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