More Than a Boyfriend

12. Can I feel happy?

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...Bella POV...

I close my eyes, trying to forget.

All the great memories of us Jim.

Jim, you've changed a lot. I don't know who you really are.

Capitalize on the reason you can't sleep alone, then you easily forget the rules of religion.

You removed all the restrictions God gave you.

Jimmy, can't you keep my trust in you?

I thought you'd always be a good guy.

But.time answers everything.

Time shows everything.

All this bitterness and pain.

Jim, I promise from this moment on I'll erase your name from my heart.

Enough of us as childhood friends and nothing more.

" Jimmy!! Hate you!!" I exclaimed, my voice scattered to the corners.

Asphyxiated as my chest, my ears heat upon hearing his confession that he has been living on one roof with another woman.

This one-sided love always torments me. I don't know how many times I promised myself to expel and remove that one name from my heart. Butwhat?

I. I'm this idiot.

I am this weak one, easily crushed. With ease back in the trap wrapped said friend.

The only person I hate in this world is me.

ME!!!

I hate this weak me.

I sobbed my grief by shouting annoyance and banging my chest.

Tight really tight.

This pain is not just once twice I have found.

This pain, this feeling of tightness had already been repeated many times!

Always come again and again.

In this sad moment, I suddenly remembered a name that often made me laugh.

Robbie.

"Bie's? where're you?" I asked our photo that I took when we videoed the call.

I haven't heard from him in a long time. Since graduation, I can't call her number.

I always look forward to him contacting me.

I don't know, but when we were with him I thought it was warm.

I didn't get that from anyone, including Jimmy.

"Bie, where are you? have you forgotten me?" I muttered speaking alone to the expanse of water that was within the basin. We call it an artificial reservoir.

DERT...!

DERT...!

My phone vibrated, I was about to round my eyes and soar with excitement. I thought the call was from Robbie, actually from Mommy.

"Yes Hello, Mother?"

"...………………………… "

"Yes, I'll be home soon."

"……………………………………"

"Yes." Yeah." There's no other choice I have to come.

"Yahoo!!" I threw my breath away violently hoping that all the burdens that were piling up on my chest would just disappear.

"What about dinner?" I said muttering alone.

The call I just closed was a call from my mom telling me about a dinner with Jimmy's family.

If other people could only install the house as well as we've kept for 10 years. Then not with my family who can repay as we like until paid off. They say it doesn't matter if it has to be 50 years. Because, my mom and Jimmy's dad were best friends.

I wanted to imitate my mother who could easily keep her feelings for Jimmy's father even though they had been together for a long time.

But me?

I'm fragile? Jimmy.., he was so perfect for me to stay away from. The allure is so thick.

" After all, it's better to just enjoy every scratch of this gaping wound. When will I get hurt?" I laughed at my own stupidity.

I came home alone from the park. Just aborting the thick of my heartache. I walked while kicking some pebbles and accidentally hit someone with long hair and wearing a tight-fitting gown wrapped around her body.

I think his limbs are tormented. Some scream choking, some cold, some depressed until others stick to the surface.

But, I admit.

The woman looks beautiful. But wait, he.. is Eva?

Oh, my God, he's Jimmy's girlfriend. He must have come to take Jimmy. Or did Jimmy accidentally invite him to dinner too?

Argh...! Especially this? Jim, can't you just let me live quietly for a second?

Can I feel happy?

When????

...Author POV...

Dinner at Bella's house. Bella after returning from the park she was very busy helping her mother to prepare all kinds of menus.

But, because his heart is not okay, making Bella make a mistake to scratch her finger accidentally with a knife.

It hurts, but not as bad as his heart.

Dinner started and Bella accidentally got off a little late. At least, he was stalling so as not to look too long at the couple who were at one table in front of him, Jimmy and Eva.

Oops! at this table, only Bella is single.

Ohh poor Bella.

"Where's Bella?" Ask the holy Mother who clings to find Bella's whereabouts.

"He's taking a shower. He told us to eat first." Answer Mother Ria.

"Maybe he's long because he's avoiding me Bun." Wipe Jimmy as he pleases.

"Why should you avoid it? didn't you say he was your best friend from childhood? so you should let go of the longing, right? talk or something." Said Eva innocently.

"Yes she's jealous, because I already have a boyfriend and she's still single Va." Jimmy Sahut.

"Eh!! who's jealous?" Reply Bella.

" What's the good luck of dating?" Ketus Bella spoke by pulling up a chair and then sitting down.

"Why long? purposely avoiding me, right? envy I've had a boyfriend and you haven't." Jimmy said with a look at Bella.

" Prisons?" Bella looked down on Jimmy. " Nih!!" Bella shows her middle finger with the end wrapped in plaster.

"Eh, it's not polite!" Fauzi's father's protest glared at Bella.

"Well, I just showed her my finger so she could know. I'm long because I have to treat my fingers!" Bella answered Fauzi's father.

Fauzi's father, Dandi's father, holy Mother and Ria's mother.they all nodded together. Jimmy continued eating.

"How good is it, right?" Bella asks Jimmy with her leg kicking Jimmy's leg until Jimmy sitting right in front of her sees her intensely.

Jimmy looked at it expressionlessly. " It's good to be clear, I cooked it wholeheartedly but my finger was cut off. Maybe in your side dish there's a mixture of my finger meat!" Bella said so easily.

Holy hooch!

Talking like that while eating? maybe if Bella speaks out loud then the others will spit it out immediately.

But no, no, no,

Bella spoke just by moving her lips and without a sound interspersed with a very annoying face mocking Jimny who is cool to eat.

Let's throw up. I know you're so disgusted by this. Vomit, don't hold it. Let it be easy for me to throw you out gently and slowly.

So that you can go home with your girlfriend who is dressed for less of this material.

You want me to feel disgusted, then throw up and the show's fucked up, right?

Don't hope!! look it!!

Instead of mopping him or spewing him, Jimmy even more eager to put food into his mouth.

With eyes that intimidate his opponent, Bella. The two of them looked at each other and almost glared.

Go home! Bella kicked Jimmy out through her eyes.

Hmm!! won't!! Reply Jimmy who then go back to devouring his food and return Bella's eyes no less sharp.

Both of their parents could only shake their heads and sigh deeply.