Married Man Bankrupt And Arogan

54. Contrition

(POV Sentul)

Mr. Anggara's question has really made me realize, how bo*dohnya me all this time. It could be for the sake of an ex-boyfriend who is always happy with his life partner, I ignore the love of my wife. Supposedly after marrying Tuti, I removed the name of Watiyem from my heart, because after all he was no longer a nobody to me. He is just a past that should not occupy all the space in my heart, until Tuti who always serves, takes care of me and gives birth to my children at the stake of life, has no special place in my heart.

Seeing me moody and unable to hold back my tears, Mr. Anggara immediately invited us to leave the Tepi Sawah restaurant owned by my former boyfriend who had been successful. coincidentally our pickup car and the driver have come while the car Pak Anggara is being taken care of by his confidants.

Now Mr. Anggara asked me to sit next to him in seat number two. Elena chose to sit next to the driver. Suddenly Mr. Anggara patted me on the shoulder.

"I understand the feelings of Mr. Sentul at this time, Mr. Sentul must have realized his mistake now. Waste the feeling of love that Pak Sentul kept all this time, because it turned out to be just clapping one hand.

Hopefully it's not too late, as long as Sentul has not been menalak father's wife there is still a chance to improve the father's relationship with Bu Tuti, but if the father still wants the whole household back to how it used to be," said Mr. Anggara, it seems he wants me to forgive my wife's betrayal.

"Yes, Mr. Anggara, if only time could be turned back. Maybe after marrying Tuti, I immediately focused on struggling to cultivate my feelings of love for Tuti, like Tuti who had managed to love me.

Now that everything had happened, the rice had become porridge. I'm really very sorry sir, maybe this is a reward for me who has wasted the gift of God, already loved beautiful wife, healthy and pleasant children, I'm not grateful. But instead of wanting to have a woman who is nobody.

The woman had been in my past, but she already had a future with another man, with her happy little family. I should also be happy with my little family," I said to Mr. Anggara with a raucous voice holding back tears.

It felt like my chest was so claustrophobic with all the sadness, the regret that came always later.

"Father must be patient, calm the heart of the father, there is still time and there is still a chance for the father to apologize to the father's wife, hopefully the father's wife still has feelings of love for her husband. Let's just hope he doesn't intend to justify his relationship with the man who has currently undermined his loyalties"

My hope and the hope of Mr. Anggara turned out to be the same, which was to forget Watiyem, to erase his name in my heart, to forget all the memories that had happened between me and him. Although my heart no longer feels the vibrations of love, when I meet Watiyem again. I actually feel homesick for Tuti my wife who may now be in the arms of another man.

The car continued to drive, after talking a lot of things finally Mr. Anggara delivered me right in front of my house. Today I did get a work permit to rest and calm down and strategize how to approach my wife and reclaim her heart from another man.

At the age of our decades-old marriage, why did I think only this time how to repay my wife's feelings. If only I had struggled a long time ago to love my wife. Maybe now Tuti and I are a happy couple. Tuti can't cheat of course.

By late afternoon, I had just woken up from my sleep. Rushing me to the bathroom, the house feels lonely, at this hour usually children go to teach at the house of a Mr. Ustad whose house is not far from here.

If he had obtained my permission, he would soap and rub my whole body gently and occasionally tease me by playing sensitive parts of my body. As a normal man, of course, I drowned in his caress until the heat happened again in the bathroom.

My wife is very good at teasing me, which is why, even though there is no love, we are able to print children up to twice. If you have done the ritual husband and wife, in a state of sweat and body is still in plain condition, that's when my heart is sad because it feels guilty to have betrayed Watiyem, and regretted having paid Tuti. Tuti is clearly my legal wife. A lawful woman to me, who lulled me into her game.

I shook my head not understanding the way I was thinking at the time. I took a quick shower, put on a neat shirt and didn't forget to spray my fragrance. This afternoon I will come to Tuti's contract whose location I have obtained from Mr. Anggara this afternoon.

Strange as it is, why I feel so stubborn as to want to nap at my lover's house, I smile to myself remember the days of courtship first.

After my clothes were neat I went out of the room and passed through the middle room. It turns out that Sentiana and her sister Sentiano are eating hodgepodge in front of tivi

"What are you eating, boys?"

I asked to say hello to them, my two teenage children turned their heads and scanned my face.

"Father from anywhere, we from the morning just eat hodgepodge, because mother does not come home, no one cooks, we can not cook, while father does not seem to care for us, while father does not seem to care for us, the proof is that we are starving.

Anyway Tiana did not want to know, how mom came home to this house to gather with us. If you don't come home that's okay, you can make your own living from online sales, after all, you'll soon be looking for a new father for us," sentiana said to me while Sentiano only nodded his head in agreement with her brother's words.

Turns out the role of Tuti as a mother in this house is very calculated by both my children. Perhaps because they rarely separated and their mother was also so painstaking in caring for her children. Seeing this fact I felt more and more useless and meaningless.is all this happening because my heart always turned to other women throughout our marriage.

"The plan is for you to meet your mother in a contract whose address was just sent by your boss's confidant. You pray that you will be able to persuade your mother to return to your home to be a good mother to you" I said to the children as I kissed my sons and daughters.

I got out of the house using a gift car from his father, Mr. Anggara, I drove the car at high speed to a simple contract that became the place where Tuti currently lives. I kept knocking on the door and saying my greetings several times. After that the door opened and a beautiful face from the wife I had neglected appeared from behind the door.

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