Mama Loves Me

SMP

Yep.. I felt in my tutoring place that I felt safe and became my resting place from mama . Honestly, I am a chameleon-like person . Where if I am near a person who is always positive and calm, my heart and mind are also calm and peaceful . But if I am near a person who is always hurt and angry, to me he also becomes sensitive, dizzy and causes diseases in my body . As was the case during tutoring, I could feel peace and quiet . Even though I know this is pretty useless .

Maybe among my lessons, only the swimming race that I finally allowed to participate in the sebangung raya race in ITB, although in the relay I was on dis because of hunger . Well I'm in the race without eating from morning . It is a shame the name of the school is also . Yeah but they don't know . And it was also my first time on local television . I was envious too . It's so good my sister never felt what I felt . I felt this torment from the beginning of the first grade of Elementary School . In my very small age I felt all the bitterness in the impingement of a mild-handed mother .

I saw another child who was also beaten up by his mother, but why easily he still communicates well with his mother . Not feeling the slightest fear . I want it to be like that . But I just remembered that from the baby I was never in his custody . The ASI never got to my throat . Maybe that's the end that makes mamah may not have the slightest sense of sensitivity towards me . Yep... Maybe that's the reason I've always accepted until this moment .

I won't tell you more about what happened at that time . Because reportedly mamah used the help of smart people to monitor me . I just don't want the riders to be musicians . Or rather this is not a horror novel . All I know since that incident is that school friends and their parents have contributed a lot to the orphanage and made Orphanage ‘Mizan Amanah’ more advanced and can refit the place . And I just realized maybe I'm troubling everything . Because he said the donation was a sign of gratitude for taking good care of me . I should have stayed there .

Now , I started school in Junior High . While my sister has been taken again from Java . Precisely fourth grade my sister's Elementary School is in bandung again . Yes, because the second house of mama has become . And is under contract . Dad is still the same . After years of not getting a job . Or work but don't tell mama . I don't understand either . The point is dad is still like that . Even if he came home he only gambled at the neighbor's house . It's still like that nothing has changed . It's just that my father bought me a NONIA HP in sixth grade Elementary School . My first phone . I just asked for 'em, and a few weeks later Dad bought me that nonia phone. I don't know where he got the money . All I know is dad if there's anything must ask his brothers in Java.