Mama Loves Me

My sister is the One who left

I just casually said that I saw for myself at night he put the medicine in my bag . But momma dodged it . In fact he accused me of making mama die quickly . It was a day that I never forgot . Because also he tortured me and grabbed my hair when I was wearing a neat uniform to go to school . When the invitation came, I whose hair was already a mess, and a little tear in the groove under my eyes went to ride the car . All the kids in the car looked at me . But none of them asked what was wrong with me .

Later that night, my mom suddenly asked me to chat . Mama said you want to buy another house . Because of her heartache at the family taunts dad first . Mamah asked that the cost of school expenses be a little cheap, what if one of me and novi went to school in Java . I forcefully forced my mother so that I could stay in Java, I really felt this was a good opportunity for me to get out of all this torment . And Mamah just said that my sister couldn't help cleaning the house . So let my sister go there .

I was really disappointed, when I was a child, I thought that my mother seemed to regret beating my sister when she was sick . So he purposely sent my sister away so that it wouldn't happen again . Then what about me ? Why doesn't he ever care about my condition when I'm sick ? He kept torturing me under the pretext that I was my father's son . Without knowing my condition ? Why did he never look a little bit in my eyes so he knew I was scared of him and didn't even want to come anywhere near let alone talk to him . He also forbade me from being friends with anyone . Why ? Is he afraid also I tell most people if I am in his torment because of the things my father did ?

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I don't know where you know I told my friend . Mamah feels I sold her name . I'm also surprised if you know, why he never knew if I never had a safe place . Not at home not at school . Shortly after my sister went to Java, I was given a very busy tutoring schedule from Monday to Sunday . From badminton . Voly, swimming, table tennis and basketball . I don't know what you meant at the time . Whereas before I had asked for English lessons so I could be a flight attendant like auntie wiwi . But mom never allowed .

Actually all I needed at that time was my tutoring . Because I'm getting to be a very stupid student . Who cannot concentrate on learning . I also heard that my friends follow a lot of try outs . I also really want to take lessons like that . Not a sport like this . At first I was very unhappy . It is also useless to me . Even for what I'm swimming lessons, if there's a swimming race, I'm not allowed to follow him . But I feel like I have a place to avoid mamah .