LIKE I CAN'T SEE

CHAPTER 54

Pov bagas.

There is no word no longer in love with him that there is only forced to give up so that he can find his happiness.

It's hard for me to just take it off. For years I kept it mine. I've been looking after him for years. So that he would always be by my side.

Until then I knew the woman I loved liked another man. It was Jovan. I never thought when I got angry he met the man in the park. Screeching as he leaned against the shoulder of the man.

Made me ride the apoplexy who saw it. How not, I tried to find him everywhere but I found him in the garden alone.

At the beginning of that event, I became an initiative to move. I asked Steve to help me get Jessy to London. With a variety of options that complicate Jessy. In the end, Jessy will come back to her papa. Until we moved schools there.

The reason I want to keep him away from Jovan. But I do not think, it turns out that years also lived in London did not make him forget the figure of Jovan. He was even so intense to find out all the activities of the man through his best friend Amel.

And I caught him when accidentally his phone screen displayed various kinds of photos of the man that Amel sent.

I'm frustrated. As if all my efforts have been in vain. I often hurt my body. Every night get drunk at the club and go home in the morning and even in the afternoon.

Spending my nights with call women. I'm booking deliberately for the next few nights.

I'm still afraid of disease. I realized that if I changed partners. For that someone introduced me to a woman with a semi-oriental face. With white skin.

According to the owner of the club he is a jewel in the club. People who use their services dare to pay them dearly. And this is my chance because the next few nights she's gonna be with me and ignore the other customers.

Every night I have an intimate relationship with him. I do it with liking. Maybe because the shadow of Jessy's face always decorate in front of her eyes. And I imagined doing that with Jessy.

I don't know how many nights it was. He arrived late with a bent face. Suddenly just threw a consumable test. With my eyes wide I saw line two there. She claims to be pregnant with my son.

I refused it completely. She's a call woman after all. Where do I know it's my flesh and blood.

But he convinced me. He said only I was in contact with him wearing no safety at all. And we've done it over and over again.

If I'm not responsible he threatens to expose it in public. And my company will surely be destroyed.

For that I made an offer to acknowledge the child he conceived. By financing her pregnancy and talking nicely to both of my parents.

But he demanded that I marry him. All right, I'll consider what I think. She wants to be a second wife. Because first priority is still Jessy the woman I love.

Nine more months she was pregnant until she gave birth I always gave her a fee. Not even a little. What he always wanted me to do. Although not infrequently I always get tantrums from papa.

Especially the one I hamili women night. Adding a dark list to a series of problems.

I didn't think and I don't know what was the reason she left me and the baby. Right after 3 days of giving birth she left her baby in the hospital with the facility I had been giving her all along. You sly woman.

Both my parents were upset. How can there be a baby without a mother. What if the public finds out.

They go to Papa Steve and suddenly Papa Steve asks me and Jessy gets married. With the lure of papa Steve will approve and give Jessy freedom in the world of modeling according to her dreams so far.

That's what I know. I don't know if there's a deal in it. I and Jessy can get married. Although only the marriage series according to Jessy's request because she does not want to be publicly known if she is married. As a model she should be able to keep her status from being exposed in the public.

During our marriage, Jessy always refused me to sleep with her in one room. It's hard to imagine. Got a wife but don't want to sleep in the room. I finally gave up. Maybe he's not ready. We got married accidentally too.

I always waited patiently for her to accept my existence as husband. But it turned out to be futile. He's getting busy in his world and ignoring my son Kessy.

Jessy not only refused to accept me but also rejected my son Kessy's presence. It frustrates me back.

Until finally he had a job offer in Indonesia. He insisted on going there and accepted the offer. I'm counting on Papa Steve. And finally papa Steve let me and Kessy come too.

It was hard at first for Jessy to go with me and Kessy. But it turns out his desire to be able to go to Indonesia is bigger than having to remember going with me.

Either because it has not been to Indonesia for a long time or indeed because there are other things. I see he's very excited once allowed.

Maybe due to the change of weather, Kessy's condition suddenly dropped and she had to be treated. This is also the first time Kessy left London from post-birth. Mama took Kessy to one of the famous mother and daughter hospitals in Jakarta.

Tumben-tumbenan Jessy can take the time to catch up to the hospital as soon as news of Kessy getting sick. He usually doesn't care.

And I didn't think it turned out at the hospital that Jovan was working. Does that mean Jessy knows she's here? It was only fitting that he had deliberately come to accompany Kessy who was being treated.

Oh my God, I thought Jessy sincerely wanted to accompany Kessy. But it turns out he accidentally met Jovan at the hospital.

And to my annoyance, it turned out that a few days in the hospital made Kessy familiar with the man. By calling the man with the call om a handsome doctor. Gee whiz....

*Sorry, I was selfish in separating the two of you. Two people who love each other. Even I was always mean to Jovan. Calling it rancid and not comparable to our family.

And right now I've let Jessy go. If he wants to find his happiness that was delayed and hindered by me*.