KUIKHLAS YOU'RE GONE

Destroyed My World 2

"Neng wants to go down where" said the driver disperse my daydream

"At the nearest hospital from here sir. Guess what hospital is the closest?" I asked, because honestly even though I have lived in this city for a year but I do not know the roads and places around here.

"oh if the hospital most Deket from here most hospital love neng mother,si Din anterin there?" ask again

"yes sir, please be a little quick sir bring the car, my son is sick need action immediately" I asked

"God willing, do not break up in prayer, God willing, God will give the best for his people who always pray and ask only for him" said the driver sincerely to me

"yes sir, God willing. Thank you very much for your advice" I replied

We fell silent again in our thoughts, I saw my daughter still at peace in her sleep. His eyes that always radiated happiness were now only silent as if he was very peaceful in his long sleep.

"De,, wake up dong dear. umi kangen, usually we are at this hour again seneng bathe while playing water, Dede does not want to play water the same umi..after bathing Dede can be satisfied ***** de, Dede was most fond of***** while on elus elus cheek" 'my words while continuing to kiss him, did not feel my tears dripping down my cheeks.

"neng has arrived" said the driver surprised me

"oh yes sir, thank God" I got down and I took the money out of my pocket to pay the fare

"do not bother, to add additional costs to the doctor aja money, Insyaa Allah the father is sincere, hopefully the village will be healed soon yes" he said kindly

as soon as I ran inside, the IGD room was my main goal. After arriving I went straight in and asked for help and explained what happened to my daughter only way to the nurse who was on guard, Thank God this hospital is very alert in dealing with patients who come to ask for help. After I laid my son in the cage in the room, my son was immediately examined by the guard doctor who was on duty.

"excuse me ma'am, I'm asked to go to the registration section first. God willing, his son is being treated by a doctor, let my mother deliver" said one of the nurses. Without answering I followed his directions. In the registration room I was given a form for patient data. After filling out the form and paying the registration fee I returned to the IGD room, when I was at the door of the doctor who was handling my son and a nurse came to me

"sorry ma'am, your daughter was dead when we got here, we couldn't do anything for her. The time of his death may have been a few hours before my mother brought him here, I represent the hospital apologizing as much as possible for not being able to save my mother's daughter, my patient mother"

without saying anything I approached my son who is now a corpse, his entire small body covered in a blanket, slowly I opened the cloth that covered his face, and he, I looked and watched carefully how beautiful my little princess was, even though her face was pale white with lips that had turned blue but she was still beautiful. I kissed her eyes, her nose, her forehead, her cheeks..

"de, De wake up baby, we go home yuk, Dede shower while playing water with umi"

"de, Ayuk or wake up, don't de gini, don't stay in umi dear, later who nemanin umi in the house de,,"

while crying and hugging his body that had begun to cool and stiff I continued to say the words, the doctors and nurses who were watching let me do it, they just silently looked at it. After a while the doctor who was handling my son approached me

"the stoic mother, yes, now Dede is no longer sick. Mother must be strong and sincere so that the airy Dede road is not restrained due to sadness and incomprehension of mother. God willing, this is best for Dede and mom" he said to calm me down

I just kept quiet and said nothing, it felt like my body was limp, my world was destroyed. How will my life be after his passing, why is this all happening to me O Allah. I have always had the patience to accept all the destiny you have given me, I keep trying to be patient and try to hold on for my son, for his happiness to have a whole family despite the many thorns that stuck in me, I'm sincere, God, but why do you now take my only happiness, the encouragement of my life. I don't know if I can live without it, my life is broken to pieces like the foam of the waves in the ocean.