KUIKHLAS YOU'RE GONE

Nayaku Sick

That night Nayaku was not as usual, he was very fussy, his body was also a little feverish. Maybe the wind because it was this afternoon I bathed it a little ahead of the magrib. Sister Mirna had reminded me not to bathe her because it was too late afternoon afraid of catching a cold, her advice but I still bathed her because I was afraid my son was sultry at night. His sleep was restless and there was a slight hissing sound from his little mouth. I tried to calm down and not panic, although to be honest I was afraid of what happened to Nayaku. I always hugged it in my arms, not taking it off my sling at all. I'm scared, so scared. Where is Arya's mas? at a time like this I need it most, need a husband figure who can calm my turmoil. Almost dawn I dared to let him go to sleep on the bed because his fever was a little down and his sleep was calmer. after I looked at the azan no longer heard on the loudspeakers in the mosque immediately I took the ablution water to immediately fulfill my obligation as a Muslimah that is morning prayer. I prayed fervently after that I offered a prayer for healing for my son, "Yes Rabb the lord of the servant who is all-seeing, all-hearing and all-will. I am your sinful servant, asking for all the fear and pride that I have done, O great raab only for you, I beg you and only for you, I ask for protection,, o Allah, I beg you to heal the sick child of HBA, O Allah, keep him from all dangers and always give him patience and sincerity in the face of your trials, Rabb. I am convinced that you are the all-fair and all-good servant God, you will not give tests and trials but you will be able to live them. I ask only for strength and fortitude in the face of your trials, Rabb, Lord of the servants, who are the grasps of the hearts of men,, if indeed Aryan is the best husband and priest that you choose for the servant and the servant soften the heart of Aryan servant, O Rabb, rob her of her practice to be a better and responsible person with her family and if indeed Aryan mas is not the best for the servant and the servant child then keep her away from the life of the servant, O Allah,, the servant is no longer strong with all his deeds to the servant and the servant's son, only to you the servant asks, the servant depends and the servant surrenders. Lord of the Worlds, God, amiin" my prayer begged for mercy and begged for a way out of all my troubles. I believe with all my faith that God will make the best decision for me and my son. My Lord has never wronged the burden on the shoulders of whom he wills because he is the all-knowing and all-wise servant-god.After being satisfied I make a good conversation with my rabbis I have tidied up my might and my prayer rug, I lay down this tired body to get a little right to rest while my son was sound asleep I tried to sleep, too, rest this body so that when I wake up I can be stronger and stronger in the face of this hard life, bismillah, bismuah,, zura💪 said I encourage myself to be strong to face tomorrow which God willing is better than today..