Khairil: True Hope & Love
Chapter 14 | Umma Just Want...
...Do not follow his will to die, but follow him because he always remembers death....
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The atmosphere of Jizah's house is now crowded with the presence of all her children, daughter-in-law and grandchildren. They were eating breakfast before leaving for Tangerang.
"Jiddah was the mother said, if Nafisah want to have a sister, but he said he should not tell others." Breath Saying. The 4.5-year-old little girl spoke with full rice in her mouth. The first child of Naura and Akbar. The first grandson of Mufid and Jizah, though not blood.
Those who were enjoying their breakfast laughed at the words of Nafisah. Naura could only hold her laughter while covering her face with both hands. Her daughter was too innocent to keep a secret.
"Oh yeah, Mom said it like that same Nafisah? If you knew about this, didn't you?" Jizah asked
"Dad doesn't know either." Answer
Jizah immediately looked at the child and his daughter-in-law, they looked at each other until Akbar finally rose from his seat and immediately hugged his wife.
"Are you really pregnant?" Akbar and Naura asked him with a nod of their heads
"Alhamdulillah..."
"Yeeaayyy added another bangakan so more can be ordered." Khairil said with pleasure
While Jizah, he suddenly felt his head throbbing as the memories of the past came into his mind. He remembers the day Fira came to his residence while still with Aldi. It was a bad day for him and his family. Fira comes with news that Jizah never thought.
Jizah's two hands held her head "Why? why did you have to come at that time? why?.. hiks hyks." Jizah's hysterical speech made them all shocked
"Umma, Umma why?" Ask Khairil to panic
"You shouldn't have come at that time, my son Tsaqif is now happy with his little family." The words of Jizah who looked at Naura with tears made them confused.
Aisyah hugged Jizah's body tightly and continued to invite Jizah to take a stand. Until finally Aisyah understood, that Jizah's mind was not okay. And there must be something in her mother that she does not know.
"Umma, Umma can't be like that huh? Naura is Umma's son. The first child of this family. Umma must remember, from the first Abba and Umma very fond of brother Naura. And Aisyah knows, Umma now must be longing for Abang Tsaqif huh? How about we now get ready to go to Tangerang to visit the tomb of Abang Tsaqif, Abba and others." Said Aisyah while wiping away Jizah's tears and only answered with a nod
"Zurran, please accompany Umma in the room first." Pinta Aisyah on Zurran and directly obeyed
Upon seeing Zurran close the door of Jizah's room, they all immediately stared at Aisyah.
"Darling, Umma why?" Ali asked his wife
Aisha did not answer her husband's question directly, but she stared at Khairil. "What during these few weeks Umma often daydream or behave like this?"
"Since Khairil and Zurran quarrel last month, Umma is now much more daydreaming brother. But Khairil was sure, Umma did not know that we had a big fight at that time." Khairil
"You guys got into a fight?" Naura asked who did not know about the incident
"Yes, brother, at that time Zurran did not come home after college and it turns out he worked secretly. And according to Ali, maybe when Umma had accidentally heard everything from behind the door, if not where might now Umma let Zurran to work." Obviously Ali
"I'm afraid that Umma is going through past trauma." Aisyah muttered but still sounded with the others
"Sister mean?" Ask Khairil
Suddenly, the door to Jizah's room opened and she saw Zurran coming out of it. "Sister, Bang? Umma asked us all to be ready to go to Tangerang." Prattling
"Yes, let's get ready. I'm gonna heat the car first." Khairil
In the end they all went to Tangerang with three cars. Jizah had been asked by Naura for a car with her, but she seemed afraid and did not want to see her daughter, which made Naura sad.
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Upon their arrival in Tangerang, Jizah immediately asked Khairil not to follow his brother-in-law's second car to Abah's house, but directly to the funeral of Muhammad's family. Don't forget they stopped by the flower shop first.
"Umma miss you so much with Abba?" Zurran asked who was sitting next to Jizah
"Whatever Umma's longing for Abba will not be able to pay before Umma goes after Abba to his heaven." Jizah answered, turning her face to the window. The clear gem certainly escaped by itself without being asked.
Khairil who was driving the car saw it from the glass. "Why is Umma?" Ask in the heart
Soon they arrived at the funeral of Muhammad's family. Jizah got off the car first by taking off her footwear, as did Khairil and Zurran.
They said their greetings first and Jizah asked her two sons to sprinkle the flowers they had bought into the other tomb. While he was, stepping his feet towards the grave of the deceased husband and his son were, Mufid and Tsaqif.
"Abba, Tsaqif? Umma come, baby. Sorry, Umma comes with all the confusion that exists in Umma. Already several times Umma did not understand what Umma had in mind. If Umma had experienced that? It must be Abba who will calm Umma. And when Umma was still pregnant with Tsaqif's brother? Brother must have given a small gesture to calm Umma. Umma misses Abba and brother. When will that time come to Umma? The time when the life of the world ends to begin the afterlife. Umma feels no longer able to resist longing for you two, this longing has been too long down the heart cavity Umma. Umma was really waiting for that time to come soon and of course, if death is better than life." Jizah tried to smile if he always expressed his heart when visiting the tomb of the deceased husband and his son, in addition to telling God after prayer of course.
Khairil and Zurran, who heard his mother's words, shed their tears. They're starting to understand. At the age of this twilight Jizah, the woman turned out that her days were just waiting for the time when she would leave this world to face the Khalik and hope to meet her husband and son who had long abandoned her.
"O Allah, give the servant a longer time to be with Umma. Servant please do not first grant Umma that wish quickly. The servant still desperately needs himself, O Allah. I love and respect him." Inner Khairil approached Jizah and followed Zurran who was trying to wipe his tears
"Momu?" Khairil hugged Jizah's body and said, "Will Umma miss Abba and Abang Tsaqif? don't talk like that, huh? Did Umma always say that everything has been God set with the best determination? And Allah has appointed a death. We don't need to get her presence fast. Khairil doesn't like that." Khairil sobbed in the arms of Jizah who just kept quiet and cried without a word
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All who live will surely die according to his death by His permission, destiny and decree. Anyone who is destined to die will surely die without cause, and whoever is willed to live will surely live.And whatever comes near will not harm the person before his death arrives because Allah Ta’ala has set and predestined it to a predetermined time limit. None of the people exceeded the predetermined time limit.
...“ A living thing will not die except by the permission of Allah, as a time-determined decree. Whosoever wills the reward of the world, We shall give him the reward of the world, and whosoever wills the reward of the Hereafter, We shall give him (for) the reward of the Hereafter. And We will give a reply to grateful people.”...
...(.(.QS. Ali ‘Imran :145)....
...What about the man who expects death to come soon?. “Do not expect any of you to die because of the danger that befalls, if you must hope (die), pray: O God, pray, turn me on during a better life for me and shut me off if death is better for me.”...
...(.(.HR. Al-Bukhari: 567 and HR. Muslim 2680)....
Man should always be patient with the decree of Allah Ta’ala and always Istiqomah in His path. Do not give up because despair gives Satan the opportunity to weaken the human heart.
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Really friends, longing that quiet Jizah is too heavy for him, so he expects that death is better than life? He wanted it to be present to him immediately.
Do not follow his will to die, but follow him because he always remembers death.
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