I Want You (Possessive Boyfriend)

15

A moment of anger is completely blinding. My initial meeting with Landy started when I was in junior high school, or maybe more. But what I definitely remember and realize of his presence is when Brother with some of his friends began to play often in my house. I don't know what triggers them suddenly like having a routine schedule that must be done at home, be it a school day or a holiday. The first time we met I saw him like a new brother to me. He always spoiled me with various dolls, chocolates, and some toys that at that time I really wanted. He was like a helper in my life, a hero who would always be available to help me and give me what I needed. He never missed a bit to pick me up at school when you were busy with some of his activities and both of my parents who were just pursuing their careers in banking caused their lack of time for me. There were some times when both of my parents had experienced a crisis and several fights due to some new efforts pioneered by them failed, with peace of mind, Landy came to spoil me and comforted me and forgot my parents' quarrel. From then on I would shamelessly run towards him for help and without me realizing slowly I began to be unable to escape the presence of his figure.

It has been two days since our last conversation. I haven't heard from him at all. What he said really happened. Never had he disappeared all this time, not giving any news at all even all his social accounts were like dead no life.

The twins who knew my anxiety several times tried to comfort me which I eventually ignored.

I had a chance to think, ah. not only had time, I always thought that what Landy did was to bind me, imprison me in his life. Pretending to be sweet in front of me, spoiling me to trap me into his life, made me dare not escape and could not stand without his help. That ugly thinking ruled me for a few years into high school. The trap Landy made really made me breathless but on the other hand I really couldn't escape him, it turns out that entering the high school life that people talk about and the stories of novels are very different from the reality that I experience. Landy controls every activity in my life. Hells. It's so exciting, I really can't escape the dictator Landy who unfortunately has a face above standards! It is very different from his possessiveness. Armed with a few words of pearl that I saw in one of the Instagram posts about toxic relationships and a few talks that said to better end it I was determined not to depend on Landy and live my life alone without interference Landy with the spirit.

Never tried to escape several times but in fact the devil still found my hiding, hoping for help Brother it feels useless, he has become an ally of Landy living all my life.

The peak happened at our engagement event which was only attended by the two of us of course, actually can not be called as an engagement as well because I chose to run away at the last second the ring will be coiled on my finger. That was the first time Landy would give up on me. And there was the proposed break that we went through a few months ago. But it seems like I was destined to trouble everyone, I really could not escape Landy's interference. Damnit. Yes, I'm that stupid.

“Okay... We must have fun! Lupain Landy bertarah Dan” said Fasya while embracing me.

“Totally, we have already bought you karoke aja first. let the cave men nyuruh cave men bring his friends” Tasya pull my hand hard, more precisely drag. Some people's views are meaningless to them. Oh god! How can the cave gini temen really.

“Tuh Ari with Marko already in front of the gate..”

“Mana? “ Fasya wailing beside me who really do not know why directly transmitted to me. Really stupid behavior.

“Guysh.. Your guy on never taper not the same you guys”

“what..?! no, you are, you are! Not met a week had forgotten” Fasya reply, which unfortunately is not wrong at all. His hand waved, following his gaze I saw Marko and Ari leaning on the car.

“Iaaaang..” Tasya ran towards Ari, like an ant running towards her sugar. Fuck up!

“Lu don't follow him yak! Norak! Kaya will not be until if the road uses run all”

Yes, yes, I am. Fasya still faithfully dragged me along. I'd be happy if he would let go of her hand, at least I can run away from their stupid plans even though today I plan to languish in the room accompanied by some drama series that I have not finished watching. Hh.

***

“Ndon't sing.?”

“Hmm..? Ahh.. again not mood” I smiled gloatingly. Foolish twins. They really intend to kill me!

“What if we come out? Your clay cave needs tranquility” Her sweet smile instantly makes me feel bad. I'm confused about what it's like to run away. Now I'm stuck in a karoke place with the twins and their girlfriends and the polite guy next to me who looks really cute. He looks like the cool and pleasing types of selebgram boys. The excitement that the twins were trying to create didn't seem to make me improve at all. It felt like something was sick and empty. I don't know, I should be happy, right? The request I made was granted very quickly by Landy, but.tap.but! Argha! Damn it! ****! Damnit damnit! Mother why does the heart hurt?!

“Yok..” This sweet guy really makes me feel even more bad. It doesn't seem fair to him to get my judges' looks. And finally with a heavy heart I nodded in agreement. All right, just for a moment, the happy expression she showed at least made me feel unapologetic about agreeing to her invitation. Glancing at my HP at a glance I tried to find out if there was a notification or a little news from him, which unfortunately has not appeared at all.

We both walked side by side around the mall, several times he tried to make a joke that I did not think was actually funny at all fortunately only helped by his sweet face if I had not stayed from earlier.

But slowly my lips formed a line, At least I put on my smile a little to appreciate what he was doing.

“How does it feel to be Denny?”

“You know Brother..” I'm talking about hearing Afan's shocking question.

“oya.. kok can”.

“Hahaha... Cave even salut very same brother you, send greetings to him, Lu laper? How about if we eat first, you don't mind Dan”

“But Fan..”.

“Please... as unwilling as a cave to eat, you can't possibly leave the cave alone to eat when the cave has already nemenin you from earlier” Shit! He's really smart at making people feel bad.

“Hmm okay”

We entered a fast food place, Afan ordered some food, unlike me who only ordered my favorite drink, float manga, it feels like I can not linger with him, my feelings feel bad.

“Fan...”.

“Hmmm.”

“Ceritain again, how can you know Abang ku” The atmosphere is crowded decorate this place to eat, maybe because it's time for dinner and a strategic place so this place to eat feels very crowded. Most of them had families eating together. And there were some schoolchildren as well as some human pairs. Facing forward I let out a loud breath.

“Fan…! Afan..!” I really wanted to throw the plate and its contents in front of Afan. He didn't even see me at all.

“Afaaann...faan” Ku Pull hard Afan arm pull. I was really curious about the story he said earlier. My eyes circled around observing around taku being the center of attention. But my body immediately froze to see who had just entered this eating place. Our eyes met, the light of anger as if scattered out of his eyes. My hands clenched in fear, pulling my hands away from Afan. Afan was confused to see me who stopped suddenly from my fleeting whimper.

“Hey... lu gapapa” And foolishly Afan added to my worries by trying to hold my hand. Landy who saw the two of us like that immediately turned away.

Oh god! What should I do?

“Fan sorry..

“Dan... Dan... hei” No I ignored Afan's exclamation I kept running out looking for Landy my eyes circulated looking for his whereabouts which I unfortunately did not find at all.

I'm tracing the parking lot trying my luck to find Landy, God how is this!

“Fa lu why si...” Tasya pulled me, making me realize I have become a spectacle of some passing people going home.

I can't say anything, my mouth feels locked. Afan rubbed my shoulders trying to calm me down.

“This drink first let calm” Fasya held out a bottle of mineral water that without thinking long I gulped greedily.

“Pelan-gelan okay..” The calmness that Afan shows slowly makes me a little calm.

“Tadi... was Landy here.”.

“Ngga know why gua ran gini.” Without tears flowing down my cheeks. Seeing such a desperate me made the twins concerned and tried to hug me.