I Want You (Possessive Boyfriend)

14

"Tumben Dede ate it a little, want me to buy you something?" Dad looked at me with a smile. I shook weakly. Any food will not taste good.

"It's full"

Brother went, greet Father and Mother. He even cheated on me. Brother is really angry. Without looking, he left in his car. Truly a miserable breakfast, glancing at my HP which showed no sign whatsoever. Landy hasn't sent me a message at all since last night, he has every right to be mad at me. I was the one who was too hopeful that he would still send me messages even though I had maki-maki indirectly last night.

"Later dede apologized, same brother.. Good brother kok dear brother sama dede, dede apologize first yes. hmm" Mother rubbed my hand slowly. Without a word Mother gave the code to Dad not to ask further.

Mother is indeed the best Mother in the whole world, she loves me as much as she loves Brother, never angry always listen to my complaint. The wisest woman in the whole world. Coupled with Dad's gentleness and authority, my parents were indeed the greatest people in the world. I'm just the most disappointing and childish kid. Either downhill from whom this spoiled nature and childishness of mine. My brother's nature is very different from mine. I nodded my ass, I had indeed gone too far indistinctly angry to even scream in front of Brother.

Today I didn't go to college at all, so I chose to stay in my room without doing anything that made me think more about my mistakes last night. Come to think of it I was acting stupid and the childish Landy shouldn't have to accept my outburst of hatred anyway his mistake wasn't fatal just posting a photo of the two of us, he wasn't even having an affair at all. I am indeed the exaggerated prefer my emotions and fear of opinions and attention of people without seeing the earnestness and pride of Landy towards our relationship, should I take the positive side instead of shouting unclear. Now my instragram has increased its followers. Okay fine! Just turn off the existing comment field, so there is no need to bother reading bad comments people.

Glancing at Hp Ku who was silent without any activity, I don't know I feel a little empty and disappointed maybe, did not find any message. Should I call him first, right? But what if he won't return my message? My brain was spinning around for the idea that Brother and Landy would forgive me. But my brain has stopped working. In fact, my mind would not stop thinking about some of the possibilities that Landy would do, especially if he was angry with me.

I tried to distract myself by cleaning my room, going to a furniture store close to the housing complex. At least there I can help keep Dad's shop and be-be-dressed. I'm pretty close to some of the workers in Dad's shop, they're very kind to me. But the vibration of the phone I was waiting for did not come until dusk.

Landy really ignored me, usually he would ask me something regularly, but now everything has changed. Now that I really feel guilty and scared simultaneously I really have made a big deal. At 4 pm I went home, hoping that Daddy and Mommy would come home. It didn't feel good at home alone, Brother didn't even ask me at all. Now I feel the consequences I have done.

"Mba. help dede make cake same yuk pudding"

Mba Resti nodded in agreement, at least he understood that I was trying to make amends for the mistakes I made last night, Brother likes mango flavor pudding he will be willing to postpone eating for hours and leave his favorite PS as long as it is prepared pudding his favorite mango. If it's Landy, I used to make him cake with oreo as a material once, then the next weeks he asked me to make it continuously. So I thought he really liked the cake I made.

After struggling in the kitchen for a few hours I finally managed to finish the cake and pudding I made. Now I just have to wait for you to come home and prepare to apologize.

While waiting for me to try working on a group paper assignment, we had split up a few tasks. At least I can get a little rid of some problems from my brain. Busying myself, trying to think about other complicated things, which I hope can help but in fact it does not last long my head still rotates thinking about the possibility that will happen later.

Hearing the sound of the car coming I rushed to make myself clean and ready to apologize. Okay fine! You can Dan! My dear brother, he will forgive me.

"Remember...."

"Hmmm..?"

The nervousness roared me, I rubbed the pudding bowl in front of me. My brother was still sitting back to me doing something in front of his laptop. Brother's room right next to mine, I sometimes go in to help Brother clean his room.

"Dede's sorry" My voice squeaked like a pinned rat. Cold sweat slowly came out from between my fingers. Without a word Brother turned around and pushed his chair towards me, looking at me silently.

"Try again..."

"Dede's sorry, it shouldn't have been that rich yesterday" my hands clutched the pudding bowl. Slowly my hand thrust out the hard-earned mango pudding I made. I hope you will forgive me.

Without a word, brother received the pudding I made, his hand rubbed my head slowly. Mercifully.

"Here's a hug..."

Without thinking for a long time I went straight into his warm embrace. Brother is like my second father. I love him so much he always takes care of me when Dad and Mommy leave, from childhood we are always together. Brother never even complained and was angry even though many friends mocked him, for letting me follow him to play with his friends. He wasn't angry even though I always asked him for extra money because sometimes I was too greedy and spent money. He hugged me when Mom and Dad were having a problem and had a fight, closed my door and tried to accompany me to sleep. I love him very much.

"Dede dear brother"

"Bat also dear dede..."

***

After thinking about what he said was true, Landy never complained or was angry even though I asked for it, every month he would transfer money to my ATM, fill out a gopay account even my shopee account. He never forgets though. Even when we broke, he stayed faithful. He also provided for my lectures both at ospek and now, several times I tried to refuse and return what Landy gave. But in fact, the next morning the item will come back to my face behind his possessive nature he is indeed that sweet.

My eyes were blinking hot considering Landy's treatment of me and what I had done to him I was indeed a great destroyer.

My eyes did not check the clock on my wrist, for an hour I stood here dozens of times I rang the bell that did not open the door. Just thought of sending a message asking for Landy's whereabouts. But my heart still hesitates to fear that it will not be reciprocated or actually I am afraid of getting a reply that Landy will give, once I made Landy angry because he did not listen to him, he said, recklessly I went with my friends to see a concert in one of the urban areas and what I got the next morning was all my friends disappeared they did not want to see me again or was forced to not see me again, there are some rumors circulating that one of my friends has a broken leg because he did not listen to Landy's warning but instead hewed me to go with them, after hearing the incident I changed and decided not to get too close to someone and limit myself. Landy was too scary to fight, or just my brain was too imaginative.

I sat lazily like a beggar, the quiet hallway of the apartment made me creep. The cake I made no longer felt cold.

The clanging sound of the elevator at the end of the hall made me realize, I immediately stood up as soon as I knew who was present. The nervousness that had disappeared now slowly came back cold sweat slowly emerged from between my fingers. Landy looked calm and flat when he came to me, he still did not say anything. Damnit.

"Landy...."

"Hmmm"

Landy stopped right in front of me while taking something out of whack. He looked at me without saying anything.

"Ah. sorry, I mean Mas. ak. me"

Ah shit! The sorry words that I had arranged for hours and then did not want to come out completely disappeared somewhere.

"Mas.. I made you something"

My trembling hands slowly pushed out the food box that I had squeezed out earlier.

"okay.. Thanks.."

Landy received what I gave without commenting whatever awkwardness between us did not gradually disappear at all but was even worse. Landy looked back at me who was silent back confused what to say.

"Hmmm... Ak.i'm"

"You don't want anyone to talk about, I went in there was still a lot to take care of"

Shit! Landy and his fucking mouth.

"Tap.but" My hands squeezed into each other.

"Okay. I go first, maybe you won't see me around you anymore"

"What.what?"

Landy entered his apartment without looking at him at all. That disappointed me yesterday. My eyes warmed to hear the indirect rejection that Landy had uttered. Okay I shouldn't have expected that she would forgive me that easily. Striking my hard foot away from there without looking back.