I'm Not Rubbish

New round

"Where's my mom?" 

Sofia slammed into the arms of Diamond. The girl was crying. His voice faltered as he tried to explain Ayu's state.

"Sofia, speak clearly!" lian was impatient.

RW approached the two. "Diamond, patient! Your mother has gone to his side!"

Ayu this morning forced herself to get out of the wheelchair. His intention was to learn to walk slowly as taught by doctors during therapy. However, the woman fell down and hit her head on the floor. After an hour, Siti came to the house and found her friend dead.

Lian's body collapsed from not being able to hear the bad news. He was laid on his bed. It took me a few minutes until my consciousness returned. Just then, Lian screamed hysterically calling her mother. Get off the bed and then throw towards the middle room which is still crowded by the neighbors.

"Mrs ..., wake up!" Lian shook that stiff and cold body. Hope the owner of the body can respond. Unfortunately, it was all just empty wishful thinking.

Sofia clasped her friend's hand. Trying to calm and comfort the bereaved Diamond. "Patience, Lian! I know it's very difficult but it's all the will of the Above. Every living thing will leave, including us! May we be reunited in eternal nature."

"I know but .. a-I've never made my mom happy. I haven't had time to do it, Sof!" The crying is getting louder.

"Live well. I think your mom wants the same thing."

"I'm not ready to lose my mother …." Lian's shoulders shook violently. Her voice is a little bit raucous.

"You are not alone in this world. There's still me and my family who love you."

The two girls hugged. Perhaps it could be said if their relationship was already like a sibling. When Sofia mourns, the Diamond will be a solace, and vice versa.

Diamond strengthens his heart so that he can take care of the dead body of Ayu. He also bathed, also caffeinated his mother's stiff body. However, the girl collapsed again shortly after the corpse entered the burrow. As soon as a Diamond, still will not be able to stand upright when the mother who is the only family he has, now also have to leave him alone.

**

A month after Ayu's departure, this time Berlian wants to talk and normal activities. During that work only daydream with a mouth that almost never opens to take out a word. Crying without a sound despite her chest shaking violently.

Sofia's presence was only a little throw of grief and could not patch up the huge hole in her heart at all. 

Only Ayu's last message wants Lian to be a strong woman. That's what makes the girl rise again from the slump. He also did not want to trouble Sofia and her family anymore.

For a new day and spirit, Lian started by cutting hair that is still very short for women. He sat on a wooden chair behind his house. The barber who is none other than Sofia, looks flexible. The medium-sized scissors cut Lian's hair until the model resembles a man's hair with sideways bangs.

"Why was it cut? Though bagusan kayak first. You're beautiful and sweet with straight waist-length hair."

Diamonds just answer the question in the heart. "Whatever beauty I am, there's still no way anyone would accept a dirty girl like me."

Hair shaving ritual is complete. Lian rushed to take a bath while Sofia went home. The tomboy girl was wearing long jeans and a black t-shirt. Her face was plain without the touch of a polished beauty tool.

"Yes ... a minute!" he shouted when someone called.

Moving quickly opened the door and greeted the guest who turned out to be Siti, Bu RW who was also a friend of his late mother. 

Lian brought a glass of water for her guests. He sat next to Siti. The middle-aged woman smiled when she saw Lian was now able to communicate.

"Aren't you looking for a job?" tanya Siti responded with a nod of the head.

"Adi said there was a neighbor of his superior who was looking for a worker. But it works it takes people sick of stroke. You're willing, aren't you?" 

"That means out of town, huh?" Lian asked back.

"Yes. The monthly salary is very large compared to if you work here. If you want, tomorrow you can go with Adi."

"I'm ready, Mom. Thank you for offering me this job," Lian replied enthusiastically. He does need it to connect with life and also start something new to bury the bleak times.

**

"Mrs Hani, you must remember if I was Mr. Ringgo's subordinate, your neighbor." The one who was spoken to nodded. 

"I brought my neighbor, his name was Diamond. He wanted to apply to work here. Mr. Ringgo once said if you were looking for someone to take care of you, "Adi continued.

Lian glazed over as she looked at the woman in front of her. The wheelchair reminded him of his mother. Maybe it should be grateful because the state of his mother is better than the Madam whose head is stiff with a position tilted to the right. Some of his organs were paralyzed by a stroke.

The girl's hand was stretched out when she introduced herself. "I'm Diamond, just call me Lian! If Madam is pleased then I am willing to work here."

Mrs Hani welcomed the hand with her left hand still functioning. "I'm Hani, don't call Madam, just call Mom! I allow you to work here as my personal nurse." I don't know why the woman felt instantly matched when she saw the appearance of the girl in front of her. It felt like there was comfort created when this was the first time they met.

There's actually a nurse looking after Mrs Hani but it's not enough. He wanted someone who could accompany him more intensely like a friend or a child. During this time his only son rarely returned home because he took care of the company outside the city.

"Hopefully this girl can live up to my expectations. But it feels ..he is the honest and sincere type. Not like the young women who worked for me. I'm sure if Diamonds don't fuck around," thought the Madam.

Adi said goodbye because the task was completed while Lian rested in the guest room provided by the owner of the large house.

**

Lian woke up early. After bathing and changing clothes, she went down to the kitchen and made milk for Madam Hani. 

"Good morning, Madam!" swipe when approaching the master's big bed.

"Morning, just call Mom," he said.

The woman looks not passionate. I don't know why his face is so cloudy. Maybe miss his son? Lian should be able to comfort him.

The girl helped to seat Madam Hani by leaning her back on the shoulder of the bed that had previously been covered with pillows. Lian also helped the woman drink warm milk.

"Why look at me like that? You pity me?" ask the madam with a faint smile.

Lian shook her head. "I remember mom." His head was lowered to hide his shoulder face.

"If you miss, you can call her now."

"My mother died a month ago. Even though he's still around, I can't call because I don't have a cell phone." Lian chuckled blandly while the corner of her eyes was watering.

"Sorry …! I didn't mean to make you sad."

"It's okay, Mom!"

Lian prepared warm water for Ms. Hani's bath. He also helped her remove dirt from her half-footed body. 

"Thank you, Lian!" Exact guess. He could feel if the treatment and touch of the girl was very gentle and sincere. Everything that is done with the heart will come to the heart.

"Mother doesn't have to say that because I'm just doing my duty. Anyway ... I am very happy to do it because .. it feels like I am taking care of my own mother. Ehm .. sorry! I've been sassy!" Lian had finished putting aromatherapy oil on Bu Hani's body.

"It's okay! I also like to be treated this way. So .., this is what it's like to have a daughter." The smile that rose on the middle-aged woman's lips made Diamond relieved.

The girl brought clothes from the closet to wear to her employer. Actually he felt awkward doing it if he did not remember that it was his duty.

"Sorry, Mom! I have to put this on."

"Just do it, consider me your own real mother!" How else. The situation and condition do not allow to do the routine alone.

Suddenly the door opened and a man stared at the scene wide open. His mind is very negative. He thinks his mother is with a young man.

"Huh, what did you do to my mom?" 

Lian clung and her eyes were puffed up as the foreign man clenched his right hand in front of her face.