I'm Not Rubbish

Traumatizing

"You've been interrupting my night with that bohay chick so you're the one who has to satisfy me now!"

Lian did not understand what Satria was talking about. He thought the man was delirious.

'In that unconscious state, his brain is still tilted.'

The woman was stunned as Satria's red eyes opened and focused on her. Stare and glare. More trembling because his hand was gripped stronger. Fix, Satria is not delirious!

"Lian, your husband asked for his right!" firmly Satria made the woman widen her gaze.

"Sleep, your brain's not working right now. Let me sleep on the couch. It's okay," Lian grinned awkwardly. Trying to escape but in vain because at this time he actually fell in the arms of Satria. The man deliberately pulled and hugged her tightly.

"Satria, I-I am your wife but we both know what our real relationship is like. So, get off me! I-this isn't real." 

"Why? You're disgusted by me because I like changing girls? Come on, we're a series. I'm not a virgin and neither are you a virgin. Don't sell expensive. You should be grateful because there are men who want to marry a dirty girl like you. Now it's time to do your duty as my wife."

Lian is currently unable to control the heart. His eyes condensed and before long, dripping with water of pain. For the most part, the humiliation came out of the man's mouth.

"If you're disgusted, why ask me to serve you? You know, I also don't want to be touched by you!" Lian tried again to be free even though Satria's power was much stronger on it.

"Fuck your talk!"

Lian is now under her husband's custody. Both of his hands were locked, as were his legs which were completely immovable.

"Satria, let me go!" lian shouted hysterically like yesterday. Her tears rolled back to her face. In addition to not being ready to do the relationship, Lian also still harbors past trauma. The dark scene he can still remember.

Satria who was under the influence of alcohol did not bother his crying wife at all. His passion is far more important than the woman's grief. After all, he did not sin. It was only natural that he would demand something intimate from Diamond.

Lian screamed in frustration while her crying had not subsided. Satria really made it seem like she was returning to that bleak and despicable time. Pushy touch and kisses as well as****** the man is very nauseating. Dribbling his memories on the figure of Darma that he had been trying to remove.

That night Satria let go of her desire 3 times with a short pause. The man fell asleep after being content to play around. Lian lay behind him. The woman could not sleep. Water kept coming out of his eyeballs. His chest was tight and sore. 

She did not mean to be a disobedient wife but Satria's treatment really hurt her. Maybe if the man's way is polite and gentle then he could be lethargic and sincerely serve obligations. 

'I hate you, Satria. Consciously or not, you still insult me.'

Lian felt like a mere instrument of lust for her husband. I don't know, that guy deserves to be called a husband or not.

**

Ruh Satria was called and returned to the body when he heard a scream from the bathroom this morning. He slowly changed his position so he sat on the shoulder of the bed. Massaging his head which still leaves a slight throb. I missed a few memory fragments last night.

Is it true that he fucked his wife? Oh my God, most likely yes! He realized that he was in the Diamond room now. His clothes were also scattered on the floor, mixed with his wife's clothes.

"I hate my life, I hate …!"

The screams sounded again. Satria immediately took a towel and wrapped it around her waist. Quickly walk towards the bathroom.

"Hey, this is not a forest where you are free to shout!" Strong digedor door.

There is no speech, only the sound of crying is getting slashed. It made Satria feel guilty. Just this time he felt like a criminal after busting a woman. The diamond is his legal wife.

The man grabbed his own hair in frustration. Why do we get tempted and tempted like this? How humiliating! He who always demeans Lian but instead he who imposes the will on his wife. It's because of the fucking drink that got him so drunk. 

The scene last night was so clear now in his mind as if he could see it in person. This time Satria rubbed her face rough.

'Stupid!'

Inside, there was only the sound of water. There was no shouting or crying but it added to Satria's worries. 

"Diamondly! What are you doing inside? If you want to sleep in the room. I'm not gonna fuck around like last night. I'll go back to my room as long as you're out now." 

The screams and pounding of the door did not get any response. Satria snorted in annoyance because the woman managed to make him riled up and frustrated.

He broke the door with all his might. Approaching the limp drooping Lian under the still-lit shower. The water was turned off. Satria picked up a towel to wrap around that plain body. Can tremble him if you have to lift Lian in a state of nudity. I don't know, even though it is common to see the vital organs of the opposite sex but still there are others when with the antique woman.

"Bu ..," said Lian with her eyes still closed.

Satria's hand stuck to Lian's forehead. 'He's feverish. Am I that crazy to make her sick?'

Not thinking for long, he took Lian to a nearby hospital. 

**

Satria explains Lian's condition before falling unconscious to the doctor. He is currently in a room where Diamonds are being treated. The tomboy has not yet woken up.

"Have your wife ever been traumatized before?" ask doctor.

"Ehm .. I don't really know. But .. maybe it is."

"If it's true, then this morning's incident has something to do with past trauma. It could be Your wife suddenly remembered something to scream hysterically as you told her. There were actually no problems with his health, just a common fever. But the patient was under pressure, mentally a little shock."

Satria was almost agape. He felt more guilty for his wife.

"What do I need to do to make my wife fully healed?"

"Maybe always support your wife. Make sure his heart is always happy and take it to a psychiatrist if things continue like this. Sir, don't forget to pray! Excuse me," said the doctor, patting Satria on the shoulder.

The man sat in a chair facing the Diamond. His mind was in turmoil, his heart was also in turmoil. That pale face looked at him deeply. 

'It may be true that he was once the victim of abuse by his stepfather. It was only right then that she was scared when I pretended to touch her. And when I actually did that by force, Lian was so hysterical that she got sick.'

Satria feels really evil. He's holding a diamond finger. There was something strange, the corner of his eyes was watering and his chest was slightly squeezed.

"I'm sorry, Lian. I don't have a heart."

The woman slowly opened her eyes. Look around. Why was he in that foreign and uncomfortable room?

Lian gasped to find the forced man nearby. Her hands were pulled so as not to be touched by her husband. Quickly throw away face.

"Go away, don't ever touch me again!" His chest up and down was filled with tightness and anger. 

"I-I'm-I'm sorry, Diamond. I know I was wrong because I always hurt you. But I now want to ask …."

"Go!" firmly Lian.

"I'm sorry, Lian."

"Say you go now!" the heat was accompanied by a flood of tears.

Satria held onto the shoulders of the woman who had not been willing to look at her. "I …."

"Don't touch me!" Again hysterical while revolting.

Satria hugged him tightly despite the rejection. He wants to make amends. 

"Diamond Andini, I apologize sincerely. From now on I won't touch you again without your permission."

Lian shook her head quickly, still sobbing. He hated himself in this state.

"You're right, I deserve to be called a secondhand. I am trash, not you! I should not insult and demean you. I should be able to protect and guard your feelings. I'm sorry, Lian." The words just came out of his mouth.

I don't know why Lian was a little withered and touched. Now just shut up in Satria's arms. In fact, the woman came back crying. How can one who initially felt intimidated but now quickly turned comfortable?

Satria rubbed his wife's head. Many irregularities happened to the man's heart. For a lifetime, only Diamonds are capable of tearing their feelings up to this good. Yeah, well, this must be just the effect of his guilt on Lian.

'I'll be sure that you can rise from past trauma.'