I'm Not Rubbish

Presentiments

Diamonds try to repair the joints of his life that have been porous. Return to occupy the relics of his late father with his mother. Although the place holds a lot of bad memories but he tried to bury it. If not there, where else would he and his mother take shelter.

Slowly his cheerful face returned. However, his appearance remained tomboyish. Looks like it's comfortable with the style. Moreover, he also did not care if no one glanced over. According to him, still no one will be sincere even though his appearance is made as sweet as possible. Wherever there is a man who will accept a scum, not anyone!

Lian rubbed the sweat on her forehead. All day he's been tearing up factories, shops and restaurants. No place allowed him to earn sustenance. The girl came home with a wedge.

"Why is your face so tangled? What is zonk today?" tanya Ayu peppered in a joking tone.

Lian kept the empty glass onto the dining table. His breath was thrown rough.

"It's been a week and I've been working, ma'am. Today still failed" he lamented.

"Propag …! Maybe it's not time yet," entertain Ayu peppered with a smile.

"But I'm confused, the money from selling Hp is still a little more. Most can only meet the needs of a few days."

"You just sell Mom's earrings" Ayu bargained with the headband of her daughter.

"Don't! The earrings are a gift from the late father. Gini aja, I used to go to Bu Atin's shop for daily needs. Later after I get the money, I'll pay."

Ayu insisted on offering her valuables in order to lighten the burden a little. In fact, he did not feel the heart to see his daughter had to work hard alone. 

"No, Mom! I promise I will try very hard to make Mom happy" said Lian who is currently holding Ayu's hand.

"You know what makes you most happy, you! If you can be happy and always smile then there will be no more distress in this world. I want you to be a tough person. Face the rigors of life with a strong soul, and you will be a winner!"

Lian nodded her head then hugged Ayu tightly. I don't know why his mother's advice and request made him sad.

**

A new morning, more excitement and struggle! Maybe yesterday-yesterday always failed in getting a job but hopefully today gets results.

After breakfast and farewell, Lian rushed on the motorbike. His goal remained the same, finding work to other areas he had not tried his luck in.

The largest garment company in town. Here's target. After a long wait Lian was finally brought in by personnel and handed over to a large supervisor. He was placed into a scourer in the gasket section. 

"You can train for 2 days, 7 to 12 noon. If your job is good then you can be accepted. One more thing, the targets and neatness of work here are very concerned. I hope you can give your best!" said the big supervisor who was supported by Diamond.

The girl smiled happily. Finally, his efforts to get a job are now paying off. No need to be confused to support himself and his mother. 

The first day went well. Lian seemed to quickly get along with the seniors even though there were some who were reluctant to say hello. There are also those who feel jealous because the work of Lian is praised by the boss. The girl did not take any dizziness at all. The most important thing is that he wants to work as well as possible in order to cover the needs.

Last day training. For some reason now Lian's body feels weak even though she has breakfast. His heart was not calm either. His mind was always on his mother. Is this perhaps part of the adaptation of having to leave her mother at home alone? But ... wasn't like this.

"Yes, Mommy!" Lian smiled then moved the iron back.

The senior snorted while grumbling towards the bathroom. "Basic guy kw …! About yesterday was praised by the supervisor, now his work even became melehoy."

Crouching diamonds take drinking water in bottles. Moisturize the throat that feels dry. His mind was still not calm. What kind of feeling is this? A hunch? Hopefully nothing bad happens to the woman he loves so much.

"Oh my God .. Please protect my mother! He's the only one I have right now, "his mind.

The senior who had come again with a surprised and more sinister face. "Jeez, the new kid …! What the hell are you doing? You want to burn this factory?" screeches while turning off the iron.

Lian got up immediately. He was flabbergasted to see that plain white shirt shirt was charred around his back. Even the hole is shaped like an iron.

"What is this, the workings of the praised new child?" The senior still continues to curse until inviting attention around. There are even direct reports on large supervisors.

Lian's face was straight on. His body was trembling and his heart was getting riled up. At that place, the supervisor scolded him extensively witnessed by other workers. 

"I can't hire a careless person like you!"

"But I will try to fix everything. I'll recoup the company's losses, just cut my wages, ma'am!" please Lian with teary eyes.

The supervisor smiled cynically. "You're not officially working here yet. I'm not interested in giving you a chance either."

Lian continued to beg but still the tall woman did not want to listen.

"I don't want to take any chances. Later if you really work here then there will be many more expatriate clothes that will be burnt. Now you better go home, okay!" Even though it was spoken in a low tone it still sounded slashing.

"But .. I really need this job. I …." The conversation was cut short because the supervisor's mom nyosor.

"I still have a lot of work so please don't waste time!" he said as he passed to the workspace.

Diamonds left the place. Whispers from employees whose julid he did not heed. The burden on his mind now is how to tell his mother. Yesterday Ayu was very happy to hear that Lian was working. But when the training period had not really ended, the girl had already been kicked out in a humiliating manner.

"I'm the stupid one. If only I could focus then I could definitely work here," he said in between walking towards the parking lot.

The helmet had stuck to Lian's head. The two-wheeled vehicle slowly left the busy place.

"Okay, it's not a big deal. I should be able to get through it hard! No tears, that's what you want! Keep smiling as bitter as any life."

Lian frowned as she placed her iron horse in the courtyard of the house. Stuck up because of the noise from inside. So many neighbors gathered.

"Mother …!" call him while trying to find that figure among the crowd. His heart grew riled.