I Love You's..... Elder sister

STATEMENT 4

Brother Nicho is silent. Get up and leave.

I wept. I feel like a sugar cane that's gone sweet as thrown away. I'm just a normal human being. It was my fault, I asked to stop it but I was very hurt myself. This love makes me unable to think clearly. I cried terjugu.

Where did Nicho go? It's been 30 minutes that Nicho's gone. I closed my eyes to sleep. I must forget this painful event.

Krrieittt....

The sound of the door opening.

Nicho's brother lay his body beside me. She stroked my hair. My crying is held. Nicho turned my body in front of him. He looked at me and wiped away the tears that were still dripping. I still close my eyes. I was afraid to look him in the face.

"Sorry.." whispered in my ear.

Cupp's... Sister Nicho kissed my forehead.

I opened my eyes. My goal is to look into his eyes. There was sadness and regret in his eyes. Her lips smiled. His thick hair that was cut short, added to his good looks several times. His face looks tired. There is a little burden there.

"I love you, Tiara and I hope for the time being don't ask anything that matters. Including about Azizah Putri Wulandari. Because I was never engaged to him at all. I will tell you all the events for 5 years without you at the right time" Sister Nicho mentioned the name of the Princess with emphasis.

"I beg you. believe me. You are the only one from the past, today and the one to come" he said gently.

His hands still touch my face. I looked into her beautiful blue eyes. I'm sure there's no lie there. People say, the sincerity of one's love will be clearly reflected in his eyes. When you look at her, those eyes will look beautiful. That's what I always remember.

True..His eyes are beautiful.

I still feel hurt by being dumped. I was wrong, I was holding it but deep in my heart I also wanted to feel the beauty of love.

I looked at Sister Nicho expectantly. This is how it feels to be alone with a lover. His mind said it wanted to but his soul refused as hard as it could? Can be guessed how bad it would be if human reason took precedence. Although heavy but I have to keep my heart completely to him when everything has been diridhoi.

I closed my eyes and clenched my hand withstanding the bitter taste. May I ask?

"Why you, baby?" Nicho looked at me with worry.

"Why did Sister Nicho just leave me? Hix... Why Sis? Am I less attractive? Shouldn't Brother Nicho stop while I'm holding him? Hiks.. hiks... Abang kubasin I hiks... like.. hiks.. se.perti.... hikss... lady night hiks.." My tears are getting louder.

I saw Brother Nicho's eyes round in disbelief. His body was still and his gaze was empty. I also saw his face when I heard my question. Her eyes were red, teary. Then she hugged me.

"I've taken care of you if you will" he whispered softly in my ear.

"You knew? I held back the feeling of pouncing on you because you were holding me back. And it took a long time to ease it. I was tormented too. I want to, too, but I can't do it all without your permission. I. arrgghhh.." he cried half in frustration.

I was wide-eyed to hear Kak Nicho's reply especially when Kak Nicho said he had prepared a safety. I have to ask him.

"So. hiks... Sister Nicho.. hiks.. said that. ka.lau.. What hiks... ka...kak.... often hiks.... do it?"

I was stupid. But isn't that woman always so said how many times does she still want to hear the earnestness of a man?! So did I. I really want to hear his truth. One thing I believe in, Sister Nicho is not a person who likes to lie.

"Sleeping with another cwe? That's how it means?" ask Sister Nicho.

I'm nodding. I was embarrassed to look him in the face. Sister Nicho's voice sounded a bit upset. I've gone too far but I want to be greedy and selfish to have it. I can't bear to hear she ever slept with another woman.

"Listen Tiara. Last afternoon when I was out, I stopped by the mini market to buy a cold drink. I bought that. Because I had planned today to bring you here. I know for a few days you've been avoiding me. I also know you always come home at night, when I'm home from work. Even I came home early on purpose, so you weren't home too late. I know everything you do. I let it go because maybe you need some time"

"I intend to resolve this misunderstanding here. I couldn't possibly have talked about this in front of your hostel in the car like that. I want to be more free to talk, Ra. I know very well where my limits are Ra. I bought it just in case. Not because I like to sleep with other women. I'm just like this with you. So, please don't misunderstand me again, OK!" his angry face was still visible, but he was forced to smile.

Sister Nicho who is in front of me is always speaking frankly. Though others looked at him coldly, Sister Nicho never treated me that way. Could it be that I was a special person?

The red color on her cheeks was visible. Sister Nicho pressed her lips towards me and kissed me on my forehead.

"Well now, you know what?"

I'm nodding. I was ashamed because I had mistaken him.

"You believe me, right?!"

I nodded back.

I have always been accustomed to always think positive and always believe, now fall. Jealousy and fear of loss that took away my senses. I regret doubting it.

"There is nothing but you. Youunderstand?"

I'm nodding. I was embarrassed to hear Sister Nicho's statement. I was the first woman he loved. I was the first woman to make him lose his mind. Vice versa. He was the first man I ever loved in my life. He was the first man to blind my eyes until I left my family to forget.

"OK. It's late now and I don't want to see you crying in this cup again. From tomorrow if you cry I will punish you. Remember that!" Brother Nicho showed me his smirk which scared me a little.

"Sleep and don't think weird or anything? I'm gonna make baby in here!" he said while stroking my stomach.

I'm nodding. I saw Sister Nicho pongah's smile. I closed my eyes. Sister Nicho's big hand pulled me into her arms. I inhaled his scent deeply. Heard her heartbeat. Like a lullaby musical accompaniment, I fell asleep in a dream a few minutes later.