I Love You's..... Elder sister
PRONOUNCEMENT
I closed my eyes again. And I felt Mr. Nicho's hand wiping away the tears that were dripping unbearably on my cheek. The touch of her hand is soft. The aroma of her breath was refreshing and soft-sounding in my ears, whispering softly.
"You remind me of someone I love so much, Tiara"
Deg.
My heart seemed to stop beating hearing Mr. Nicho's whisper. I opened my eyes immediately. His face was right in front of me very close. My heart rate is getting more and more irregular looking at the look in his eyes.
Mr. Nicho kissed me on the cheek suddenly without permission. Yiyyy!!! It's violation!!! My heart seems to jump out. My hands were shaking, I was nervous.
I haven't yet set my heart to calm down. Mr. Nicho said the words that made me freeze.
"Tiara, I love you" he said softly.
A statement I have been waiting for for so long. My love for her never changed. I'm looking forward to it. I miss him so much. But is she really Nichoku's sister? My brother?! Is not his face the same. His stature is the same. Her voice. His manner. Same everything.
Maybe I'm too imaginary of a no-no. Maybe it's because I still can't make peace with the situation that I hallucinated. I'm sure now Sister Nicho and Princess are living happily.
I pinched my own hand. It hurts. Then this isn't a dream?
"I'm sorry for my disrespectful attitude" looked into his eyes. I looked at Brother Nicho.
"But you should know that I love you very much, Tiara" her voice sounded very soft in my ears. Maybe if Mr. Nicho wasn't married, this declaration of love would make me dance like crazy for being too happy. But considering that he was married, this statement was like a thousand swords piercing the recesses of my soul.
"Ma..I mean Mr. a.what?" many nervous. I tried to force open the car door.
Mr. Nicho is closing in.
"May I hold you, Tiara?"
"Please one time" he asked.
My heart was pounding more and more, my body was trembling and my face turned red with fear.
Isn't this the moment I've been waiting for. But why am I so scared?
"its OK. I have no intention of scaring you so please don't look at me with such a frightened look. I love you Tiara, Pearl Sari. Beautiful girl born 25 years ago. Who has left his family for 5 years on his 20th birthday" his voice is raucous and I can guess if Mr. Nicho is currently shedding tears.
Ka.kaaakk...
I want to hug him. How much I miss him. Ohhh... Lord, I have come a long way to this city. I have also gone a long way to dispose of the grain of hope about him. But why did You bring it back before me with a different status.
Me and the Princess are both women. No matter how much I want to love Sister Nicho, I will give in to the happiness of another woman. Especially that woman he had chosen himself.
I raised my face. I ventured to look at his face. I saw her eyes turning red with a bunch of cloudy tears at the end of her eyes about to drip. Could it be that he is secretly harboring the same love for me?!
I bow my head. I couldn't see him cry. Then I unconsciously cried. I wish it was a dream but I also hope it's true. Dream that Sister Nicho is married. And the fact that he had declared his love for me and kissed me. I can't tell where a dream is, where it's reality. It hurts too much to be considered reality.
Nicho Ramadhan is a man who for 5 years I buried deep in the recesses of my heart. No one knew how much I loved him when I arrived in Jakarta. Not to Nina my best friend or even to Sela I told her. I kept him alone. I want to start a new life upon my arrival in Jakarta, a new life, a life without the love of a man.
I love you, Brother. I missed you .
Mr. Nicho's right hand wiped the tears that fell on my cheek.
"You're ugly if you cry" Mr. Nicho smiled at me.
I just kept quiet about not responding to it at all. The atmosphere in this car turned awkward. I'm still struggling in nature I think.
"Ehm...." Mr. Nicho berdehem.
"We have reached your home, Tiara. Get some rest, don't sleep at night"
I came from all sorts of unclear thoughts. I opened the car door. I thanked him without looking at him.
I ran towards the boarding house. I came back crying. I just left him without a word of thanks or pleasantries. I didn't look back at all.
I want to shower immediately and let go of all this fatigue. Even though I know Mr. Nicho's declaration of love will make it difficult for me to close my eyes.
*****
The next morning I was neat with my office girl uniform. Navy long pants, sky blue shirt. Shabby backpack. And black work shoes of course. As usual, I leave at 6 a.m. And I usually get to my workplace for 30 minutes
later then. So the next days.
I'm home from work at 7pm to home. Sometimes 9 o'clock just arrived, if there are a lot of vip meetings.
Ever since Mr. Nicho expressed his love for me a few days ago, I have chosen to avoid him. When he called me, I deliberately didn't pick him up. I can't possibly block his phone no matter how much he is my boss in the Office. I respect and respect him.
My heart rate is erratic every time I remember a statement of love from him. Well you could say it was a declaration of love that I've been waiting for my whole life by the person that I've loved my whole life.
Today I heard the news that Mr. Nicho will be out for 1 week. Puuhhh..... Aman feels. I don't have to play hide-and-seek again for a few days. It is not difficult to get the latest news from Mr. Nicho because he is very popoler in this office.
I smiled amusedly. I shook my head trying to shake his mind and went back to work.
"Ra.. tonight nginep ya at my house. I went back to Bandung. Grandma's badger. Please accompany me yes. Please.." said Sela pleading.
Sela is a coward. He'll take me to stay at his house while his parents are traveling. Sella is famous for her demeaning nature but she is innocent.
"Yes, I told Nina first"
"OK, baby thanks" Sela replied as she kissed my cheek.
"Ihhh. Amused to know" I shuddered to remember Sela's cheek kiss just now.
"Ha... Haa... keleesss..."
I tried to hit Sela. Nimblely Sela dodged. We're chasing each other.
A man shouted.Who is that???
