I Love You's..... Elder sister

REALNESS

I walked off the couch in the tv room. My right hand was held.

"Where are you going?"

"Kepo" I replied in a cynical tone.

The harder Nicho pulled my right hand so I fell right on it.

My heart is beating again.

Deg..deg....

Dag.. dig.. dug... der.. ketipak... ketipung.... dung.... dung..... dung....dor...

Busyeets... What's heart is a pinched? It sounds so good. Like fireworks in the new year.

"Tiara wants to make milk. The water is hot. Sister Rese was so much from earlier. If the kangen mah talk about the person is also here using a mulu attraction event. Emang Tiara fishing line pulled!" I pressed down on Sister Nicho's chest so I could get out of her arms. Unfortunately his sturdy hands hugged me tightly.

"Let's just for a second" he whispered right in my ear. I'm speechless. The longer I have trouble breathing. I bit Nicho's shoulder.

"Aarrggghhhhhhhh" a shrill voice filled the entire room.

A chance to wake up.

Basic pervert!!!

I saw Brother Nicho rubbing his shoulder from my bite mark. He grimaces in pain. His sleeves were pulled up. His shoulders were blue in contrast to his white body color. I giggled amusedly.

A few minutes later I offered her a glass of milk. He grabbed. Then drink it once.

"So when do you want to tell me about President Adiputra's missing son!"

Uhuk.... Brother Nicho choked. Suddenly I patted his shoulder. I ran to get mineral water in the fridge. As fast as lightning I gave it.

"Nothing is missing. There it is" he replied casually. The view is straight at the tv. My favorite Chanel Tom and Jerry.

"So, I don't want to play secrets with you. OK. Don't look for Tiara anymore. Tiara mo came back to the boarding house" I said sniffling towards him. I'm getting up. Again my hand was held.

"When you have your 20th birthday..."

Nicho began to tell stories. I sat near him. I turned off the tv so I could listen to it carefully without any story being missed.

The night before Tiara came home. I looked in front of the yard. Splashing water pond fish in front of the house chanting melody longing. I remember the first time Tiara kissed my forehead.

Tiara grade 6 SD. She will be studying tour to celebrate her graduation to Bandung. I drove him to school. At 6 am all students should have gathered in the schoolyard to be absent. When all the students were asked to get on the bus, Tiara approached me.

"Not try to duck a little" he asked. I lowered my body to match his height. At that moment Tiara held both my ears and peeked at my cheeks, long ago.

He took it off and smiled.

"Please see Brother well. Tiara go first. Brother don't be naughty. Not the lyrics of another woman! Only I can have Sister Nicho!"

My heart is pounding so hard. Tiara looked me sincerely in the eyes. Implied a great love for me. Her eyes are so beautiful.

He left and waved his hand at me. I who was shocked half dead just silently stared. By the time I realized Tiara had disappeared among the crowd of students scrambling into the bus.

"Sister still remembers. Tiara has forgotten"

"Sstttt.... Don't cut the story!"

I'm going home. For 5 days I was locked in my room. Mom and Dad were panicking, because I was only out of the room when prayer time arrived. I have no appetite at all. I felt lonely in his absence. My heart feels empty.

Take good care of your brother. Tiara go first. Brother don't be naughty. Not the lyrics of another woman! Only I can have Sister Nicho!

Tiara's voice continued to echo in my ears. Every time I step. The voice kept coming. I really am like a crazy person. It was then that I realized that I had fallen in love for the first time.

The love I have is not just a brother and sister but the desire to have it completely.

Until I was 23, I found a dead end. I surrendered. I decided to forget about Tiara. Because the more I tried to uncover the truth about my parents the only deadlock I got. I have no leads at all.

At that time there were some of my college friends who expressed love for me. Exactly 1 day before Tiara returned home. One of them is Azizah Putri Wulandari. Beautiful girl, Literature boy. It looks almost like a tiara. He was quiet but spoiled when he was comfortable. He was too honest even his honesty made him look stupid. I'm a little interested. Maybe learning to open my heart to her could erase my love for Tiara.

I intend to accept his love. At Tiara's birthday celebration in the afternoon I'll pick her up.

I knew from the very beginning of MOS he had put his heart on me. I wanted to cherish her love by getting her engaged as proof of my seriousness.

The Monday I was waiting for arrived.

I just got back from the market. Mom told me to go shopping for Thanksgiving. That afternoon at 3pm. I'm getting home. I saw the figure of the woman I missed smiling to herself.

I approached.

"Aduhh... Princess Ara, what is she smiling to herself?" I looked at her cheeks and sat next to her.

"That's what.... Sister Nicho ngagetin tauuu.." she put her lips together. I was getting anxious to kiss her thick little lips. But I undo it. I know this love is a mistake.

"Sister Nicho what gift for the future wife Brother? Isn't today sister's future wife's birthday?" tiara asked with a glowing face.

She smiled sweetly at me.

I'm so embarrassed. His words were piercing right in the heart of the heart.

I.. iuu.. love you very much, Tiara.

Akuuu.

I can't replace your position in my heart with anything else.

I am so ashamed of myself. Rigid face. Looks like my face is as red as a tomato. I have to be strong. With the tremor of a restrained soul, I ventured to shake off this feeling.

"Aa...what the hell is Dek? Which wife?" nervous say.

"Yayak Mutiara Sari Sister's future wife. Kan adek has told you from the beginning if later adek gedhe wants to marry his sister. My sister promised, too. How is Kak. Promise to be kept" he sulked.

With a heavy heart I must throw away this love. I have to say it. Got to!

"Nihh Sister Nicho said yes. Brother is adek but only limited to brother and sister. It's okay if the brother and sister get married. Ara time doesn't know. Kan Ara is already big, now is 20 years old"

I saw the look on Tiara's face that had been sparkling turned into a cloudy cloud that was ready to rain when the wind came.

With repressed anger Tiara shouted, "Evil Nicho!!!"

Tiara ran to her room. At that moment I was chasing him. Damnit damnit!! The door to his room is locked. I was shaking the door of his room. Hope Tiara wants to open the door.

"Tiara, let Brother in. Brother wants to talk to you" I can't stand the tears in my eyes.

Tiara did not flinch. Without an answer and only a sobbing sound was heard from outside the room.

I tried hard, I said again, "Tiara listen to Brother. Brother will be engaged with your kating. Azizah Princess Wulandari. You introduce?!"

My tears are spilling unstoppable. Sorry with a heavy heart I had to lie to you. I love you so much Tiara. Hugely. But the truth I've been looking for all this time only bears fruit in vain. I don't want to give you any false hope. I want you to be happy with the others. Although our hearts love each other but enough as brothers only.

"I'm sorry Tiara" I said softly but could still be heard clearly into the room. I knocked on Tiara's door many times. The intense pain made my body lose bone to stand up straight. I sat in front of Tiara's room door. I cried terjugu.

I didn't realize at all that Father and Mother were listening to us quarrel.

The sobbing that had been heard from inside the room was suddenly silent. I'm so worried. I knocked on Tiara's room door many times. I begged to open the door. I'm afraid that Tiara would take a shortcut.

At that moment, a warm hand patted my shoulder. Asking me to stand.

Mother softly said, "Let Mother speak yes. You calm yourself!"

I'm nodding. With gontai steps, I headed towards my room which was located next to Tiara's room. My tears are over. The pain in my chest was getting gripped even stronger there.