I Give My Husband to the Perakor

Just One Child Only

‘’What? Real aunt?’’ I couldn't believe looking at my aunt with what I just heard straight from the faithful woman who was with me.

‘’Iya, Mom. Even Mas Reno often stopped by here just to meet Naisya and play with him,’’ he said casually and opened the door for me.

Makes me silent. How could my little daughter who had only been close to her father and did not want to be close to other men besides her papa, now could be that close to Reno the foreign man. Often the friends of the man who is still my husband play at home and invite Naisya to play with him, but no he does not want to. I don't think I can believe it, but if the aunt who speaks doesn't want me to believe it. Because what your aunt said was never a lie that came out of her mouth during my acquaintance

Uh by the way, I was in the hospital never knew if Reno would often visit the house and play with the princess just my way. Ahh, she herself was also reluctant to tell me, or was she worried that I would ban her? Basic man! If he could take my daughter's heart, I'm sure this is his way of getting closer to me. But, I don't know why he could spend his time playing with my daughter, does he have no other job? Until she was so easy to get there and come here, not to mention she always met and kept me in the hospital. Ahh, I'm confused at all that guy.

‘’Where is it, Bi?’’ I spontaneously asked and rushed into the house I had longed for. I was amazed to see such a clean and tidy house. Is aunt Sum not troubled? Clean and tidy up a house of this size, plus take care of Naisya and cook every day.

‘’Ya Allah, pity your Aunt,’’ muttered me in heart.

‘’In his room, Mom. Again sleeping,’’ said aunt Sum who was rushing carrying a suitcase to my room.

Makes me stunned made,’’Lah, not usually he sleeps this afternoon, Bi.’’

‘’That's it, Mom. Maybe because he didn't sleep all night, he couldn't sleep. He wanted to play with Mas Reno,’’ he said, again making me gasp and make me upset. I followed my aunt's steps towards my room.

‘’Ya Allah. Why can I trust gini, Bi?’’

‘’What, Bu?’’ He asked back and hurried to open my room.

My eyes were fixed on my little daughter who was sleeping, she seemed to be hugging her doraemon doll. Makes my heart look at him. Yes, the doll was a birthday gift from her father years ago. Why did she fall asleep while hugging her doll tightly? Does he miss his dad?

‘’Honey, ma’afin Mama yes,’’ whisky me while stroking her hair. My chest felt like something was squeezing and the tears just escaped. My heart was so sliced looking at my little girl, the same age she needed the complete affection of her parents, but it was different with my son.

Oh my God, I'm confused. Confused by my decision, am I selfish? I felt so selfish that I forgot my little daughter who still needed the affection of a father.

‘’Bu, should rest first yes or want to eat Mom? Cuisine has Aunty prepared,’’ he said that is able to disperse my daydreams. I let out a heavy sigh and wiped away the circle of tears that had been dripping down since earlier.

‘’Ah, Yes, Bi. I'm gonna take a break. There is no appetite, Bi,’’. Ah, I I don't think it out. This large house looks so neat by me, especially my room is so very neat. I didn't tell my aunt when I was going home. Did Reno tell Aunt Sumi? Why did that man think I was so exaggerated the attitude he showed towards me?

‘’Ya, Mom rest. Don't force to think a lot, right Mother just healed.’’ I just nodded. The middle-aged woman wearing the veil rushed out of my room.

I looked back at Naisya.

‘’Ma’afin Mama yes, Darling.’’

Instantly he seemed to squirm, then opened his eyes slowly and rubbed his eyeballs. His face looked happy and his eyes were round.

‘’Mama, have you gone home?’’ I nodded with a nod, then hugged her tightly.

‘’Papa work keep yes, Ma?’’

I sighed furiously and let go of the hug quietly. I held her shoulder slowly while looking at her cute face.

‘’Iya, Darling. Don't ask me again Papa ya.’’

‘’Kok that, Ma? Kan Adik misses very much Papa,’’ sungututnya instantly. Which makes my heart sliced to hear his words so innocent.

‘’Eh, Mama wants to ask. Brother knows nothing about Om Reno?’’ I tried to divert my conversation. Because if he keeps talking about his papa, he will get more and more longing for his papa and it will make me more and more heart-sliced.

‘’Know. That's good, Ma. Sister is always invited to play and bought ice cream,’’ he said enthusiastically answered my questions, making me relieved instantly.

‘’Oh yes? Brother happy to play with Om Reno?’’

‘’Eh, Her sister is up well?’’ aunt Sum's voice rang out from outside, she hurriedly stepped over to us.

‘’We shower first same Aunt. After that we play Barbie, how?’’ Making the look on her face change instantly and rushing over to aunt Sum.

‘’Mau, Bi. But the word is not here. Usually, my sister played with Om Reno,’’ lamented that managed to make me gasp, then switched to staring at the middle-aged woman.

‘’Sama Aunty, Dik. About busy working,’’ to aunt.

‘’Cock busy all, Bi? Papa is busy, Om Reno is also busy.’’ He looked pouty, I who was upset, even smiled because he saw his tiny lips that went forward a few inches.

‘’Honey! If Brother is big, surely Sister knows. People the age of Om Reno and Papa are very busy working in the office,’’ I said softly and aligned my body with him, then looked at his pupils.

‘’Well, Mama was right,’’ timpal aunt Sum while stroking her head.

‘’Ya already Brother wants to shower first same Aunt yes, Ma.’’ I nodded with a nod and a smile. Aunt Sumi rushed Naisya to the bathroom. I breathe heavily.

‘’Ma’af Mama, Darling. Not that Mama is selfish,’’ muttered me with a vibrating voice.

Looks like I need to rest for a while. My body and mind need rest. Yes, I haven't changed my clothes since. I'd better replace it with the house clothes I used to wear.

After I change clothes. Flat objects ringing instantly, I hurried to see.

‘’Mama? What do you want?’’

‘’Assalamua’laikum, Ma!’’ I perched onto the bed, not forgetting the flat thing I put in my ear.

‘’Wa’alaikumussalam. Ma’af yes, Son. As long as you're in the hospital, Mama's not there. Mama can't leave your Papa alone—‘’

‘’Ma, nothing really. I really understand how Mama's position is now, especially Papa is still sick. Kan Mama has come to look at me,’’ said I slowly who held the talk of mama who is still my in-laws.

‘’Still yes you already know Mama. Pantes aja Deno so much love you.’’

It makes me gasp and my tongue is muffled. Even the opposite exists. He was secretly betraying me behind my back. He made it easy to make a sacred promise on the wedding day, but he disavowed it. Though he made a holy promise before God that made ‘arsy Allah useful, he thought the holy promise was a game.

I never thought, so much so that he desecrated the sacred love I had given him. All this time whatever I gave him. I still remember, when he had nothing, even I was always beside him to provide support. I accompanied him from zero until he got the company from my papa, until he got everything. But what is the reply of a Deno? Milk is returned with tubal water.

‘’Ma—‘’

‘’Honey, you know? If Deno wants a boy from you. It's time to get pregnant again. Kan now Naisya already big,’’ said mama who cut my speech. Makes me sigh and shake my head.

‘’A—I can't, Ma.’’

‘’Why, Nel? What reason? Do you want KB?’’ I heard my in-law's voice getting upset across there.

Yes, I have been KB since Naisya was 4 months old. Once in three months I go to the doctor to the hospital to install KB, which is just an injection. Thank God it suits me very well. Sometimes there are women who are not suitable to install KB for him. Another case with me, making my body so contained. Yes, if KB is suitable then it will affect the body, the healthier the body is made.

Actually KB there is also a pill, but I prefer the injection. Because if the pill sometimes we can forget to consume it, but if the form of injection it is only once and we can install in the KB schedule alarm when the time is. The man who is still my husband status does not know about me installing KB, only I took the initiative to do it. In the past, the reason I waited for Naisya was big first. Another case now, I don't want to have many children with a traitor like him. Just one kid with a son of a bitch like Deno.

‘’It's time for me to be honest with Mama. I can't keep covering up this lie,’’ I said in my heart.

‘’Se—actually I have been saying about me and Mas Deno to Mama since yesterday. He was not home for a week anymore. He was caught with me cheating for 4 years that he had been closed off from me. Which wife's heart won't hurt, Ma? The man I've always loved, I've been with and I've been fighting and betrayed behind me. It hurts so much, Ma.’’

Seriate.