I AM POOR!

Pov.Rein's

Every day my mind is haunted with faces and people who make me miserable.In my mind, he is always around me.His behavior is shadowed in these eyes.

I don't know if I'm in the real world or hallucinations are too high.So make all my thoughts always his face, himself even his treatment.

I was so afraid, I was not strong anymore.I really wanted to die alone.But they still saved me.When I have left my life.

Oh, my God, I asked.

Why don't you let me die? What plan have you prepared God?Whatever it is, I can only beg you to strengthen me to live all this.By being honest, I can no longer.Although he is always in every vision of me.

Why is he always here?Wh why?

I'm talking to myself, but I don't know why this thought always haunts my sleep.

I think I'm crazy, I think I'm dead, but I still feel the pain when I get a needle stick, still feel pain with a stomach injury.

Honestly, I want to tell the people who call me here, but I always see their faces like that man's, my ex-husband.

How can I talk?I was scared of him, especially with his face.

Every day, in this room I can only look at the scenery out there that I have often looked at.

But today is different.The atmosphere is cold and cool accompanied by a spatter that continues to flow in every tile and tree.The rain that soaks the entire earth.

My eyes kept staring at the rain but my soul and mind went nowhere.

Before long the door opened, I did not look.

"Hasbi, are you awake?"a voice that is no longer foreign to me.

Silence has no answer.

Mas Zain walked towards me after putting some of his luggage on the table.

"This rain is very much awaited by the creature hiduop." he continued to look out the window and then turned to look at me.

I'm still silently pensive.

"Why is your hobby?If there is a problem, please tell me.You do not often daydream like this.Hasbi...Please tell me what you're thinking, so we can help you with your problems" Zain asked me again to tell him.

For some reason, every nearby I was always peaceful.I glanced at Mas Zain who held my shoulder.I looked at him deeply.

"You can't daydream.If something makes you think, I beg you to tell me.Don't keep it to yourself.You want to get back to health?"mas Zain assured me.

In my mind, I answered him saying that I want to be like before, but every want to tell.The incident always crossed my mind.I am very afraid mas.I takuuuut....

I speak for myself, but I do not know what Zain hears or only I speak in my heart.

I held my hand and wanted to talk to him, but again I saw the figure of a man who had driven me crazy.

My eyes bulged and sweat drenched my cheeks.The whole body trembled and I cried hysterically.Excreate the man, but he did not leave, he smiled sharply at me.

I'm getting scared.

Mas Zain rubbed my sweat, he looked worried to see me coming back like crazy.

But this is indeed real.My words he always appears.I pointed at the man however, the people in this room no one threw him out.Why with all of them?Why did they let the man be there.

Mas Zain called the nurse, then calmed me down who was still like a madman.

Perhaps he was astonished and wondered, Why am I pointing towards the wall in fear.

Actually I want to convey that the man that makes me want to die.But, not one bit heard by these people.What is with them?

Mas Zain continued to try to calm me.For a long time to calm me.He closed my eyes that continued to glare towards the walls of the hospital room.

"Hasbi.quiet.Mas here, do not look there.If you are afraid.Look at me...Come look over here," said Mas Zain holding both of my cheeks.He looked at me pity and full of anxiety.

Honestly, I want to say this.But, every time I want to talk I feel scared let alone see the appearance of the man always haunts and threatens me.

So that makes me choose to be quiet that does not know until when it ends.

Some nurses and doctors did an examination of me.Then they came out followed by Mas Zain.Today I am here along with some nurses who look at me pity.

They asked me to sleep and then left the room.

Actually I can not sleep because I always dreamed of the man.T fire, the medicine they gave made my eyes always closed.Akupun back to sleep with a feeling of a shaken soul.

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I don't know how long I've been in this room, I don't know.

Cekreeks....

The door was opened from the outside.She looked at the man who was always near me.She sat beside me and held my hand.She looked at me pity.

"Hasbi...Tomorrow I will take you somewhere.But that place is very far...I'm sure, there you will be calmer and will not be frightened again like this.I will take you to a place that will heal your soul." said Zain stroking my head.

"You know what, we're on a plane there, and there we'll meet a doctor who will cure you of this disease.I'm sure you'll be healthy again."she smiled and stood up to take the food on the plate and bribed me.

Honestly, if I wasn't like this, maybe the woman who was Zain's partner would be jealous of her sweet treatment of me.

But it must be how else.Only Zain mas can make me calm.If Zabi, every time I see his face, he is like my ex-husband.So I am very afraid of him.Even I had time to push him and throw him who had dared to approach me.

Hahh.This thought really makes me just like crazy.

After eating, Zain asked me to go back to rest.Then he contacted someone I didn't know.

Every day this man came to see me and fed me. I know he was tired and had less time with his wife.

Forgive me.Because of me, you must bother looking after me who will soon be a madman.With this, that man will not bother me anymore.And will stay away from me because I have gone mad..if you think about it, what kind of thought is this?

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A few days after that.Mas Zain took me somewhere.But I do not know where.Since while going I fell asleep.And my sleep is very sound until arriving at the airport.But this is not at the airport that I have been to.Then where am I?

Here I saw many people dressed in black and sunglasses standing under the plane carrying me.Then I was approached by several nurses and one of them was probably a doctor.

Obviously I was scared and as before.They calmed me, but I was still hysterical.Then came mas Zain calmed me.

He closed my eyes and took me to a car.Tak long the car was walking away from the airport to visit the hospital.

Mas Zain took me to the room where I was being treated.

"Hasbi.kamu must be calm here.You will recover as soon as possible, I promise."said him then glanced to the side and turned towards me.

"Hasbi.they are nurses who will take care of you.They are very good people all.So, herbalists do not be afraid of them."he added reassuringly.

"And he is the doctor who will cure your disease.Name doctor Miran.He is a man who is very good.He will take care of you during here.So, I ask you not to be afraid of him. Ok."continue Zain introduced a very foreign pri to me.

I'm silent...

Then mas Zain stood up and let the nurses install medical equipment ketubhuku.See mas Zain and the doctor chatted.

Actually I know and realize.But sometimes my feelings are like hallucinations.So I am confused, between conscious and not.

During this hospital, I did come back like I used to be, scared and screaming hysterically.Dreams that make sweat pour.

Ahamdulillah now I began to calm down a little and was no longer afraid of the doctor Miran.Thanks to the therapy they did to me.I began to be a little aware but not yet fully.

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