I AM POOR!

Pov.Rain

"B......!"pekiku in front of the door of Mas Haris' apartment.

I saw Haris and the woman was playing in bed.I can't say anything more than feeling pain here.

Even if she doesn't consider me a wife, I'm a human being with a heart and feelings. Moreover, he is still my husband status.

Mas Haris looked at me who was standing at the door.He looked surprised by my presence.

I'm not here to see the sight.My heart hurts, I run and cry leaving the room.

I am not strong!

To the edge of the road I immediately got into a taxi that happened to stop in front of me, at this time I went to Mension.

Arriving dimension, I took some clothes, and a pocket of crackers filled with money then put it in the bag. I rushed outside to the taxi waiting for me.

If by torture then I will accept mas.But, I can't accept what happened today!

I'm a poor man, but I'm not a woman***** or a prostitute like the woman you just slept with. I'm sorry I had to get away from you.I can't be here anymore, because poor people like me have no place here.

Clear threads in the eye rinses wet both my cheeks.I am very sick!

The taxi I was riding left Mension who had been holding me for several months.

A few times remove these tears but still come out.

Really am... I don't know where to go.Going to Rania's sister's house is impossible because she has now been fired unnaturally by my own husband.

How could his parents accept me?

"Where are we going?"asked the driver to take a quick glance at me.

"We're going to X, sir" I replied, looking out the window.

The car I was riding was walking down the highway to City X. I went there to see Zabi, he went to college there.

Arriving at Zabi's place, I took out some money and gave it to the driver.

After the taxi left, I walked into the alley looking for the boarding house.

Dikos.Zabi greeted me with pleasure.However, she was sad to learn that I ran away from home in a young pregnant state.

He also asked me to rest and tomorrow will take me to the village.Yes, I will live in the village that we used to live in.

Want to stay there for a while.

I fell asleep because of the fatigue that hit me.Entah why, since Hami I feel tired quickly.

At dawn, I and Zabi went to village X so that later the journey was not confined by traffic jams.

Halfway through the trip Zabi and I stopped at the diner for breakfast.Usai dined, Zabi gave me a new card and asked for my number to stay active.

I also asked him not to tell anyone about my whereabouts, including Mas Haris.

I did that because Haris would look for me wherever I went. Because of that, I chose to stay in the village and asked Zabi to pretend not to know.

We again continue the journey by motorbike yes just credited.Splitting the city and passing through several villages to get to the destination, long journey about a full day.

On the way my car rang repeatedly, I knew it must be Haris. I didn't pick it up and shut it down so that Haris couldn't track me down.

I thought all this time Mas Haris had done it with someone else behind me.Has fast he rarely came home.

Honestly I do not accept, even if the mistake I made hurt him.But, what he did has torn the marriage sentence between me and him.

I'm self-aware, I'm not the expected beautiful woman nor am I a career woman.

Where there is a woman who accepts her husband to have a husband-and-wife relationship with another woman, I am sure no one will accept that.

Especially at this time.I am already two-bodied, a new pregnancy that keeps 1 month.

Actually, I came to Mas Harris Apartment to say that.However, I was treated to a very interesting view.

Honestly, I'm not ready to have kids. But God loves me more, he gives and leaves a child.

I hope that after having children, my relationship with Harris will improve.

***

A week later.I contacted Rania.I told her about this pregnancy.She was so happy to hear about my pregnancy.

I explained the problem that got him fired from the office.I said that I never told Mas Haris about the problem.

I know Rania's sister was fired because Haris told me.

I can't believe it. The once gentle Mas Haris now outweighed the psychopath.For several months I received his abusive treatment even while I was pregnant young.

But, now I have to walk in search of my own life.I can not continue to survive in the household that is not okay.Especially mas Harris heart is no longer there for me.

Resume..

Arrive at village X. We met with Kades.We chatted with him before going to the boarding house owned by Mr. Somat and Mr. Laila who is currently the village head there.

Arrived at the post, we both cleaned it and put the goods on the table.I and Zabi sat on the carpet that Laila had lent.

"Don't I buy fried food first come out, will you come or stay here?"ask Zabi.

"You're here bi, you know the problem" I replied feeling tired.

"Yaudah, I go first, brother, I rest first but the door is locked." continued Zabi then went up on his bike.

Zabi came out leaving the boarding house.While I locked the door because it was still a new person.

We don't know the people there, let's stay kos belonging to mr. Kades.Everything has to be vigilant let alone I'm a young mama.

A few minutes later, Zabi called from outside. I opened the door, Zabi came inside. He washed the dishes he had just bought and then put the fried dishes.

Zabi actually knew about my household but he couldn't help me because of Mas hariis.

Mas Haris could have taken him out of the faculty where he went to college.Since I was married to Mas Haris I could no longer help his college finances, so Zabi had to find a part-time job.

It was late at night.But my eyes could not be closed.My mind just kept turning the incident earlier so as to invite tears to come out.

I put the pain into the pillow. Pressing the sound so Zabi wouldn't hear it.

I replaced the old phone number with a new number.I kept the numbers of Rania and Zabi.After that I threw the card into the trash.

"Good bye... "

I fell asleep after crying.

***

The next morning I woke up from my sleep and saw that Zabi had finished cleaning. Today he did not go to college so that he could accompany me for the whole day, besides that I also needed his help to find some items such as cooking tools and other items.

When I escaped from Mension I took a black crackle bag containing money from my savings for half a year in my bulk bag.

I took it for lunch later.Alhamdulilah turned out after calculated jumblah approximately 10 million.

This is enough to pay for the costs and for the needs of the next few weeks.

I went with Zabi to some shops to look for supplies.After seeing and bidding finally the item I was looking for I had bought.

I bought one casual mattress, one plastic cabinet, two cauldrons, one small flask, some other equipment.

We also stopped at several places to buy cooking ingredients, then stopped at one of the rice stalls.Aku and Zabi had lunch there.

I noticed the people around them eating voraciously. While I feel sick and feel nauseous after eating a mouthful of rice.

Seeing my condition, Zabi took me home to the boarding house.He also took me to the nearest clinic to check on me.

"How about we go with Zabi to the city. Zabi can't leave a sister like this alone." said Zabi worried.

"Sister ngak papa kok, earlier it was because pregnant sister so not tasteful eating.Usually brother will eat if eating food at home. So you don't have to worry."

"But my brother.... "

"Here kaka is not alone, there is Laila's mother who nemenin brother.D and some other neighbors.If anything happens Laila bu house near , 'near ,just a few steps we have arrived at his house.So you do not have to worry yes."I replied reassuringly.

"Yaudah then, take good care of yourself... Every week I'm gonna be here to see kaka."

"Yes, I don't want to cook first. I'm the laper" I replied, taking some cooking ingredients.

"Here I help" said Zabi pulling some materials and cutting them.

While I cook rice with Meg***m.

Half an hour later, all the dishes were ready. Zabi and I ate together.We ate very well.

After eating, Zabi helps wash the dishes and then take a shower.

The next morning, Zabi left for the city of A.

***

A few days later, I was invited by Bu Laila to come to his house. He said the welcoming event of the arrival of one of his sons in Australia.

Because it is close together at the same time etangga.I was forced to attend the event.Padah I was lazy because I was easily exhausted.

The welcoming event took place quite lively, which was attended by the extended family of Bu Laila and several neighbors.

Remember yes, not handsome but sweet.

The people who were there looked happy.They celebrated with singing.And do not forget, mother Laila introduced her son to us.

Zainal Arassyit, that's his name.

While the pickle was in progress, I chose to return to the boarding house because I felt tired and started to feel uncomfortable.

A week later I opened a small business in front of the cost, selling Ice pop, fried rice and other fried foods.I like that so as not to easily stress.If at home continue, if you continue to,so I feel tired when I do nothing.

Recently selling, my trade has not been much sold.But, three days later.My sales began the road and the money I got I saved for the preparation of giving birth later.

I've been doing this job for a few months. Now my pregnancy has entered the sixth month.My stomach began to look bloated and the body began to grow.

My mind was turned to work so there was no time to think about my husband Harris.

"Hasbi......"

I looked towards the voice.

There stood the figure of a man who was the son of Mr. Somat and Mr. Laila.Namanya Zainal Arrasyid, his age may be different five years from my age.

Uniquely, Zain preferred to call my name Hasbi rather than Rein.

"Eh mas Zain, what are you doing here?"tananyaku.

"It seems like you're busy today" replied Zain.

"Not really....Why do you ask like that?Want to take me on the road?"tanyaku later.

"Yes.Soalya I noticed you are very busy with work.Because of that, I invite you for a walk. Bumil is usually easy to stress."

"Damnah.... What the hell mas, I'm healthy walafiat.Mas aja kale stress."timpalku kidding.

"I'm stressed because of you. "later.

" What....?"

"No.....!"mas Zain spread his sweet smile.

"This one's really yes" I answered pulling his pointed nose.

"You going with ngak?"ask Zain to come back.

"Yes, but wait a minute. I clean up first so don't be shy."I replied into the cost.

"Yaudah I wait in front of ya."seru mas Zain.

After the departure of mas Zain, I makeup myself so as not to look kuel.Actually it has also been a long time anyway ngak go out for a walk.

I went with Mas Zain to the Mall.

The journey of me and Zain mas told a long story.Not my household problems.But about his trip during in Australia.

"Hasbi.

"Yes" I turned to look at Zain.

"You guys are already beaming...?"ask the Zain.

I felt astonished because suddenly mas Zain asked like that.Before he never asked about my household.Yes, even if he knew only the outline only.

Quiescent.

I really don't know what to answer.I fell silent, swept away in the shadow of who knows when the disappearance.

"Sorry...."

"Sorry for what?"I looked at him confused.

"I'm sorry that it's been to you" explained mas Zain.

"No papa kok mas, just the fact that it's so.But I don't know what to answer."

Mas Zain was silent. He focused on driving, whereas I stared out the window thinking about my current status.

Arriving at Mall X me and Zain mas go inside and look for the goods he wants to buy.

"Where are we going?"

"Udah go with me." he answered looking here and there.

I followed the direction of the foot of the Zain mas. a few minutes walk, we stopped at a special store of maternity and baby supplies.

"What are you looking for here?"stupid question that just came out of my mouth.

"Yes look for equipment for small ones.You can't read ya?"tanyanya.

"Yes could.....Cook it anyway!"

"Judah follow me."

"But I'm tired of mas." I said slowly.

Mas Zain turned his body looking at me.

"You sit down and I'll be here.Ok..!"

"Ok." answered me while drinking the fruit juice that Zain bought.

I saw Zain pick some baby gear.

"My mother wanted this one but it was blue" Mas Zain told the shopkeeper.

I sat waiting for Zain mas.My stomach ached after walking here and there.After making payment mas Zain invited me to eat.

"I'm at home eating mas, so I can't eat food here."

"Why is that?"tanyanya's confused.

"Because my stomach won't tell me." I replied.

"Then we are at home to eat.Ohya later masakin. You want a ngak?"

" Can you cook?"

Mas Zain laughed."Yes mister..I want to cook anything I can if I don't believe I'll make it for you."

"Ok. I'm so hot with the taste of Zain's mas cuisine."

"Ready......."

Mas Zain increased the speed of his car to get home quickly.

Actually, Mr. Somat's family isn't very rich. But their lives are more than enough.More than simple but less than rich.

You didn't?During Zain's time back home, he used to come to my place to cheer me up. Bringing a guitar and sometimes lending me his laptop to watch Love Drama.

Kos in my place is crowded residents, so I do not need to feel afraid and anxious. In addition to strict regulations, the guard there can also be given a thumbs up.

Super tight.

Arriving home, Zain brought the goods he bought to my boarding house.

"This is the stuff put here?"I feel astonished.

"Well yes.This is right for you Hasbi, later if it has been this very useful for you as bebbynya.Berak ngak?"ask Zain to me.

"It is true, but..."

"Udah, don't need to taoi-tapian.Member this is a gift from me to make the baby."

"Yes, thank you for bothering me." I felt bad.

Mas Zain smiled then put on an apron and started cooking. I sat beside him while watching his movements that already resembled Koki.

If only Haris were in front of me right now, I would be so happy.

"Hasbi.... Helloo...?"as Zain waved his hand in front of me.

"Ehh yes mas....What was that talking about?

"No talking about anything.Nih the cuisine is ready, please try."

I took a spoon and ate Zain's cooking.

"Enak mas, it's really delicious cuisine...."

I feed several spoons at once into the mouth.Just like a starving man.

"This is tried." I fed a spoon into his mouth.

Then Zain took the plate and ate with me.

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