HUSBAND'S HEART

part 60 NODES HAVE OPENED

"Until when did Brother Jo give up and open his heart to others?"

After yesterday the doctor was forced to go home because there was an emergency call, today the doctor Joseph came to Yuana again. Sit on a long bench next to the house facing the vegetable garden.

"Come, Yuana. I just want you to know that I love you, no matter what happens, I don't want to lose you again. Even if you hate me so much, I'll still love you."

"Yuana doesn't hate Brother Jo at all. Yuana understands Brother Jo's feelings. It's just that somehow Yuana's heart says it can't, sister. And Yuana can't..."

Yuana's speech was cut off when Doctor Yusuf suddenly knelt in front of Yuana and grabbed Yuana's hands and clasped them tightly.

"Come on, Yuana, marry me. You just say yes. A woman can not be married and happy even without love in her heart. The proof is that you can marry Amar and be happy, even if you don't love each other, right? Amar, father, mother. Now it's just me, Yuana... And I love you. Less especially?"

The more Yuana tried to let go of her hand, the tighter Joseph's doctor clasped it.

"Sister... Who says Yuana and Mas Amar don't love each other? Yes, before marriage, we did not love each other, but after marriage, God gave us love for each other. As for the love that Kak Jo is feeling right now, it's just the lust that Kak Jo has to control."

Unexpectedly, Joseph's doctor lowered his head and placed his forehead on the back of Yuana's hand which he held tightly. A sigh until his shoulders shake.

Yuana's tears were also shed to see the crying doctor Joseph kneeling in front of her. It was not that he did not understand the feelings of Joseph's doctor, even more than he understood. Yuana knew exactly what Joseph's doctor felt for her, for she felt the same way for this young man before her.

Yuana knows that Joseph's doctor misunderstands his own feelings, that they are not the feelings a man has for a woman. But Yuana can't reveal a truth about the two of them that she secretly knew the day before her marriage to Amar.

A reason that he could finally accept when forced to marry Amar when he wanted to reach his goal of becoming a designer. For the safety of her and her parents.

Making a Yuana really resigned to the fate of life that befell him. A fate that made her grateful to have been raised in a loving family. As well as a destiny that requires him to be patient over everything he will face in his life.

Seeing the doctor Yusuf who was still down on his knee, Yuana felt pity. His heart ached, if only he could tell the truth.

"Sister.get up, don't be like this. Yuana was sad to see Brother Jo like this."

The two men looked at him as Joseph's doctor raised his head. As if there were subtle blasts filling Yuana's chest cavity and blocking her throat. One drop of falling tears again flowed down the cheeks. He could not remove it because both hands were still held by Joseph's doctor.

Doctor Joseph got up from his knees and sat down beside Yuana.

Released both hands of Yuana then wipe the tears on the cheeks of the girl he loved so much.

"I'm sorry, Yuana. L'm... I won't force you again. But, please, can you please not dodge anymore."

Let me love you my way, Yuana.

Yuana nodded her head slowly, indeed not always she could dodge. At least in this way, he did not have to reveal the secrets of their past in order to refuse a marriage request from Joseph's doctor. He then rubbed his face clean the remains of tears while trying to review a relieved smile.

"Nwoof..." Bu Aminah called Yuana from the back door of the house, "there is Mas Ilham in front."

Doctors Yusuf and Yuana looked at each other before finally separating after Joseph's doctor said goodbye. He did not want Ilham to misunderstand and think badly of Yuana, however Ilham was the superior and the person who helped Yuana in her difficult time.

Doctor Yusuf then went not through the front fence, but through a stepped footpath that went straight down to the nearest street of his parked car. While Yuana entered the house through the back door along with Bu Aminah.

"Snack, securane, your opo knows your brown ono taline envelope? Jare Ilham sent Kyai jupuk envelope iku," asked Bu Aminah carefully, because he had a hunch of the revelation of Yuana's past.

"She, Mom. Later Yuana got it," Yuana wondered in her heart, what exactly is the contents of the envelope, why yesterday he did not try to peek at it for a while. Why did Kyai Marzuki send Mas Ilham to take it? But what if it's an important item that he doesn't deserve to know?

'Ah, just tell me, anyway that means it's none of my business, ' her inner self.

Yuana picked up a tray containing two cups of hot tea that had been prepared by Bu Aminah on the kitchen table. Maybe Bu Aminah made you a doctor Yusuf, Yuana thought.

In the living room, Ilham had sat with Nabila facing Yusron. Apparently Ilham went to Yusron's house first before going to the house of Bu Aminah.

"Drink the tea, Mas, mumpung still warm," said Yuana offering a drink that was just served. The cold mountain air makes the tea that is still hot earlier quickly become warm when served. If not immediately drunk will definitely be cold.

Ilham smiled as he took the teacup and immediately drank it to the end.

"Sweet," Ilham said while grinning to Yuana, because the tea he drank was much sweeter than what Yuana used to make.

"Respensated, Mas, but then don't eat or drink sweet anymore."

"Sorry, Yuana. There is something that Mas Yus wants to talk to you about, maybe what we will talk about this will make you surprised or sad or angry, Mas Yus does not know. So I hope you can prepare your heart."

"What about, Mom?" yuana asked whose heart was suddenly twitching, what fate would she meet this time.

"Then I go out first, let's go Bel..." Inspiration who felt that Yuana was uncomfortable if she listened to their conversation, wanted to invite Nabila to take a walk for a while.

But Yusron held him, "don't! Aren't you Yuana's future husband, so you should know too."

"Prospective husband?" Yuana hopes that Yusron mispronounced her.

"No need to be shy, this is good news, why are you guys just being quiet? Until I had to hear from Kyai Marzuki first," Yusron held back laughter looking at Yuana and Ilham's reddened faces.

"Kiyai Marzuki?" Yuana was confused to behave how, why this could be heard by Kyai Marzuki, did Ilham say? Didn't he just tell me to trick Ratna?

But Ilham simply shook his shoulders, opening both of his hands while shaking his head as Yuana glanced sharply at him.

"Yuana, now that Amar is gone, Mr. Bram and mom are gone. So inevitably, I feel a sense of responsibility for you, because there is Nabila, so there is still this attachment between us. And I have to tell you a problem that your parents couldn't tell you directly. Do you mind?"

"Just Yuana thank you, Mas. Mas Yus and mother still consider Yuana part of this family."

Yuana was worried, worried that there was another new reality that she did not know and was painful.

While Ilham chose to quietly listen while paying attention to how Yuana would react.

"Have you not wondered why your marriage was just a simple marriage contract and Mr Bram did not allow you to sit together on a marriage contract?"

"That time Yuana just resigned, Mas. Because Yuana realizes all of father's decisions are best for Yuana."

"Do you also know why Mr. Bram refused Joseph's proposal and preferred to marry you to Amar?"

"Yuana didn't know it, Mas. But mom and dad didn't know that Yuana knew. But Yuana did not dare to ask, fearing that later would only open the old man's disgrace."

"So you already know that..."

"Yuana and Brother Jo are siblings."

Ilham and Yusron looked at each other, they were even surprised by the new facts they heard from Yuana. Because they know that Yuana is not the biological child of Mr. Bram so the marriage contract used to use the judge, Kyai Marzuki.

"Are you sure, you and Joseph are siblings?"

"Very sure, because at that time Yuana had heard that we were siblings, so she could not get married. But don't let Brother Jo or his extended family know that Yuana is Brother Jo's younger sister."

"No! No way! I'm an only child, I can't possibly have a sister! You're not my sister!"

Doctor Joseph had been standing in the doorway, he came back because his cluth bag was left on the bench next to the house of Bu Aminah. After taking the clutch bag and about to return, he heard Yusron mention his name because Yusron's voice was a little raised. He was worried that Yuana would be scolded for her arrival.

"Sister Jo?" Yuana stood up.

Doctor Yusuf stepped closer to Yuana, "Don't use this way to avoid me again, Yuana!" hardikik while shaking both shoulders Yuana.

"But we are indeed brothers, Brother," Yuana grimaced as her brother's hand grip was too strong on her shoulder.

"Suf! Calm down, you hurt Yuana" Yusron came forward and tried to unravel the grip of Joseph's doctor, which actually hurt Yuana.

Doctor Joseph realized from his anger, he staggered and guided Yusron to sit down.

"We're all talking cold-headed, okay?"

After all sitting back down, the atmosphere became silent, as all were deep in their respective thoughts. Even Nabila who usually always chattered speechlessly hugged Ilham tightly, he must feel frightened at this time.

Only occasionally did a deep sigh come from the people sitting in the medium-sized room.

Ms. Aminah got up to the back, about to make another warm drink for the guests in her house. It was clearly visible that his hands were trembling as he filled the water into the kettle to be attacked. The tinkling sound of the cup that met his saucer also rang out loud in his ears.

"Yes Allah... Iki sing diwedeni Amar, kulo kedah yoknopo Gusti? Paring the strength of my children kabeh Ya Allah," Aminah was very worried about what would happen after this. Sitting waiting for boiling water while massaging the chest hopes to reduce

tension in it.

In the living room.

Yuana occasionally glanced at the doctor Yusuf who was staring at him sharply. He did not know to feel happy, relieved or even afraid and feel guilty for accidentally opening what had been kept secret by their parents.

While Ilham took turns staring at Yuana, the doctor Yusuf, and Yusron. He himself is confused to position himself how to respond to the reality that is in front of his eyes.

While Yusron stared at the table while bringing together the fingertips of the fingers of his hands, thinking about how to start again unraveling the knots of the past Yuana and also the doctor Yusuf.

"Yuana... Kyai Marzuki said there was a clue that Amar kept in a brown envelope. Does Yuana know about that?" finally Yusron remembered the initial purpose he drove Ilham to his mother's house.

"There, Mas Yus. Just yesterday Yuana found it, but hasn't had time to open it."

"Can you please get it?"

"Good, Mas."

Yuana stood up to her room to pick up the brown envelope with the red thread she had weighted yesterday to open it. He also still took the time to hold the leather-bound album, feel it and think if there is anything surprising again on the album. Why did Mas Amar never show him or tell him?

Yuana sighed deeply, why would an old man even her husband have the heart to keep such a big secret to her. What danger would she be in if she knew? Even he had secretly found out, but he was fine, right? Even those who keep it a secret are currently going home first.

Hopefully, with the opening of this envelope, Yuana can find out what veil is laid out for her. Raging in his mind, who exactly is Linda, aside from being Bram's father's secretary. Is he daddy's cheating? What does this have to do with Om Rudi? Why am I a brother to Jo? Are we Linda's children? Or brother Jo's father's son? Or am I the son of Om Rudi?

With great heart, Yuana finally brought the brown envelope and handed it to Yusron.

"Bismillbornrohaanirrohiim... Allahummah dinaa wa saddidnaa wadzkur bilhuda hidaayatakat thoriyqo wassadaadi sadaadas sahmi," by reading the prayer, begging to be given instructions in dealing with this Yuana issue with a straight guide, the whole direction of the arrow, and, Yusron opened the envelope knot.

Ilham stared at the things Yusron had taken out of the envelope.

Several sheets of greeting cards are very well known and small trinkets that he deliberately sent from abroad to be given to Yuana.

Then a plastic map contains an obsolete letter and a birth certificate that is also dull but well laminated. It looks like it was just laminated by Amar. Maybe he wanted to protect the securities well even though all this time he could not convey them to Yuana.

Ilham temporarily ignored the items he recognized earlier when Yusron handed him the obsolete letter.

He received the letter but with a full view asked, why was it given to me?