HUSBAND'S HEART

part 56 ALLOW

When a man dies and leaves an orphan, the responsibility for the child passes to the family of the deceased, the heirs or relatives. While the living for his widow will return to his biological father's side.

"Yuana niku is also a part of. Grandpa-grandfather e niku sami-sami tiyang oversea, sami-sami gadah single child. By Yuana niku's mother."

Half-glazed Bu Aminah tells about Yuana while looking at Nabila who is leaning on the chest of Inspiration. That Yuana is currently living. His paternal grandfather and his mother, both overseas, both had only one child.

"So, that factory fire was their only relic?" Ms. Fatma just wanted to be sure, because she had heard a cursory glimpse of Yuana herself.

"Snitch, leres," while rubbing both eyes using a handkerchief that he always carries, "the fire field niku, Yuana kedah kelangan as powerful as the legacy of tiyang sepah e, nggih including griyane. Amar thimble enjing wangsul dalu, fight damel nebus griya lofted bank, ngantos sakniki dereng ketebus, eh Kersane Allah Amar kapundut, ninggal Yuana yama Nabila."

The tears of Bu Aminah increasingly flowed, considering the responsibility of his favorite child, unresolved at the end of his life.

"Saestu kulo niki mboten tego ningali Yuana kedah kelangan sedayabalanipun tiyang sepahe. But kulo niki nggih namung tiyang hamlet, mountain tops, mboten saget mbantu nopo-nopo."

Ms. Fatma and Ilham could only look at each other to hear all the words of Ms. Aminah. However, it was only the family of Bu Aminah that Yuana had right now. Ms. Fatma becomes selfish if she forces Yuana to stay in the pavilion forever, but releasing Yuana is also reluctant.

"Mother Aminah do not be discouraged, we also love Yuana like family. I already consider Yuana as my own daughter. Pray we can help Yuana..."

"But kulo kuwatos, kawontenane Yuana ten mriki even burden kagem njenengan family, even nekakaken slander mriki family."

Inspiration who had been listening silently, actually wanted to express his hope for Yuana. But he was confused about how to start, because what happened today did not match the scenario he designed in his imagination.

Ilham planned to invite Yuana to stop by Bu Aminah's house after attending the reunion, because the place was not so far away. But it was Bu Aminah who came to the pavilion when Yuana was in this state.

How could he ask for the blessing to propose to Yuana when he actually proved his inability to keep Yuana.

His rough breathing made Nabila a bit of a nag. The little girl must also be uncomfortable with the current sad situation.

"Dad, if you want to be the same mother."

Bu Fatmah and Bu Aminah stared at Nabila who called as if Ilham was really his father.

"When you see Mbah wae yo?" haggar Bu Aminah was answered by his grandson's head.

Nabila is indeed less close to Bu Aminah, probably because of their difficulties in communicating and rarely interact. Ms. Aminah who does not speak Indonesian, though understands if other people are speaking. While Nabila only slightly understood his grandmother's language.

"Ayaaah, If you want to be the same mother," Nabila increasingly sulking.

"When you're with me, baby. Mother is resting, we play with Azyan only yuk," persuaded Ilham.

"If you want to be the same mother," Nabila increasingly whining, even had to cry.

Ms. Fatma who happened to have not seen the condition of Yuana finally stood up and reached out to hold Nabila.

"Yes already, look at the same bundle just as you are. But if you're powdered, Nabila don't bother ya."

Nabila nodded with a smile, welcoming Ms. Fatma's hand while jumping down. Then dragged Bu Fatma's hand excitedly towards Yuana's room.

While Ilham who was left alone with Bu Aminah certainly felt awkward. His heart and mind now struggle between going forward or retreating to immediately express his intentions to Bu Aminah.

He looked at Bu Aminah who was rubbing her face. Fine strokes look far more than they used to when he and Amar were still together.

"What's the news, Mom?" finally Ilham decided to speak stale first by asking the news of Yusron, his brother Amar.

"Alhamdulillah, Yusron is healthy Nak Ilham."

Just like that. And then the two fell silent, immersed in their respective thoughts.

Bu Aminah said that if Ilham was the right person to replace Amar happy Yuana, of course he would be very happy and calm. But what is possible? Yuana was only the widow of an Amar, who was far from Ilham. Even the closeness of Amar and Ilham used to be a boon to his family, an Ilham son of a mountain-top hamlet could serve the young master of a revered bindara.

Such perfect inspiration in the eyes of Bu Aminah should have gotten a girl who was worth it. If only in the past, Ilham who married Yuana, would be a very harmonious couple. However, Yuana is now just a one-child widow who doesn't even have anything left.

But, didn't Yuana also deserve to be happy? Yuana who is very stoic in the face of the test of life, does not also deserve the best?

But Ilham felt a sting on his tongue. I want to talk but I am confused how to start. Sitting unsettled, repeatedly lifting and improving his sitting position. Groping the nape, occasionally scratching it. Glanced at Bu Aminah at a glance, then fixed his seat again. Then tap the fingertips over his knees.

What if Ms. Aminah refuses her request completely.

Sighing deeply and exhaling a little strongly then cleared his throat and finally ventured to open his voice again.

"Mr Aminah... Sorry, I didn't know if it was the right time or not. But I have to talk about this with Mom."

Although he was used to doing presentations or negotiations with various circles, but facing Bu Aminah this time could not eliminate or cover up the nervousness in his heart.

No less anxious was Bu Aminah staring with anguish at Ilham, there was concern in her heart about what Ilham would talk to her. What about Ilham's objection to Yuana's existence in this house? If that happens, he will voluntarily invite Yuana to stay with him in the village, as long as Yuana is willing.

Or about Amar who had already cornered Ilham by marrying Yuana. He remembers how Amar cried in his lap when he said he had to marry Yuana and betray Ilham's trust.

"I ask permission and ask the blessing of Bu Aminah, to replace Amar, as the father of Nabila."

Seeing the silent Bu Aminah staring at him, a little made Ilham nervous again, but all was brushed aside by repeating his words earlier.

"What about dospundi, son of Ilham?"

"ehm.." cleared his nerves, "I want to propose to Yuana, Miss Aminah. Isn't it just Bu Aminah, the old man from Yuana?"

Suddenly, Aminah cried, her feelings raging in her heart. What he had just thought, which he had hoped for and feared, was answered with a request from Inspiration. There is a sense of haru, gratitude, pleasure as well as worry and fear, mingling into one.

Bu Aminah felt very moved because she felt Ilham appreciated her by thinking of her as an old man from Yuana. He is grateful and happy because it is Inspiration that is willing to replace Amar's responsibility for Yuana and Nabila. But he was also worried whether Ilham would really love Yuana and Nabila sincerely and afraid that all he heard was his illusion.

"Mr Aminah... Sorry, forgive me if there is a wrong word," of course Ilham who saw Bu Aminah crying as if she wanted to panic and feel guilty. Maybe this is not the right time for him to talk about his wishes. Why can't you read the situation.

"No, son, don't..."

Lunglai already, when Ilham heard the word 'no' from Bu Aminah. He felt defeated at the beginning. Feeling that he is very inappropriate for Yuana, how a coward can expect too much to get someone like Yuana.

"Nopo Nak Ilham saestu ta?" mama asked Aminah after she wiped her tears. He needs to know if Inspiration really means what he says.

"Yuana niku namung rondo, pun gadah yugo, mboten gadah nopo-nopo, Yuana wangsul mawon kale kulo ten ndeso, kersane mboten dados load damel Nak Ilham family," said Bu Aminah felt that the request of Ilham was only because he felt sorry for Yuana so he wanted to help by proposing to her.

Ms. Aminah who has understood well with the habits of this family if always totality in helping others in need. He thought that the current attitude of Inspiration was only because of his mistake was telling about the sad life story of Yuana.

He who was wondering if Ilham replaced Amar as Yuana's companion now felt very inappropriate when Ilham actually proposed to Yuana. He also felt he did not have the authority to give an answer to the request of Inspiration.

While Ilham thought that Bu Aminah judged him to be inappropriate for Yuana, he would not be able to sustain Yuana's life because of his personality which proved incompetent to look after Yuana.

But because he did not want to lose Yuana again, Ilham humbled himself to his knees before Bu Aminah.

"I beg you, Ma... Allow me to marry Yuana. I'm sorry I can't take care of Yuana. Please give me a chance to fix it. I promise to take care of Yuana and Nabila, I promise to make them both happy with all my body. Please, allow... Allow."

Bu Aminah was flabbergasted at what Ilham did, to the point of being speechless, until Ilham finished his words and bowed his head to Bu Aminah.

"Son Ilham! Kados ngaten too!" exclaimed Bu Aminah while himself also gathered in front of Ilham. Grabbing both arms Ilham asked Ilham to stand up immediately.

"I beg you, Ma... Let me propose to Yuana."

Reviving Inspiration awaits a definite answer from Bu Aminah, forcing Bu Aminah to allow it.

Half frustrated, Bu Aminah who wants to explain the reason but difficulty to speak Indonesian so that Ilham does not misunderstand the meaning, "fouh, yaknopo niki."

For a moment they floundered in their position, Ilham who knelt and Bu Aminah who rested before Ilham. A voice came from Yuana's room.

"Son Ilham took riyen nggih," said Bu Aminah patting the sofa next to him asking Ilham to sit on the sofa. And breathed a sigh of relief as Inspiration complied to immediately sit on the sofa.

Shortly after, the door opened. Ms. Fatma came out first followed by Nabila and Yuana who were dragging a suitcase.

Bu Aminah and Ilham who were stuck in each other's minds, turned simultaneously towards Yuana coming.

"Yuana" said Ilham while standing about to approach Yuana but was blocked by Ms. Fatma.

Seeing Yuana carrying a suitcase certainly makes the heart of Inspiration become ketar-ketir. Inspiration was agitated and afraid, did Yuana hear her talk with Miss Fatma earlier? Does Yuana intend to leave because she did not accept the intention of Inspiration?

"I'm sorry, Mr. Ilham. Yuana was willing to leave, Yuana wanted to come with her mother to the village," said Yuana lowered her head without looking at Ilham.

"Please, don't leave here, Yuana, "Ilham is like a child that her mother will leave behind.

"Sorry, Mas... Yuana still has to go."

"Yuana, I'm sorry for not being able to take care of you earlier. L'm... I promise I won't repeat it again. Pleases... Don't go, will you?"

But Yuana remained in her position to leave, intending to continue the step out choosing to wait for the arrival of Nazriel in front of the house only.

Just a step forward, felt his hand drawn by Inspiration. The touch of Ilham's palm seemed to flow electricity directly through the heart and quickly spread throughout his body. Apparently the medicinal effect in the juice was still working in Yuana's body.

Yuana straightened her body, raising her head while exhaling. Struggling to relieve the turmoil that appeared in his body due to the small touch of the palm of the hand of Inspiration that he had reflexively thrown earlier.

"Yuana please, Mas. This time alone, let Yuana go."

Yuana's plea to leave after shaking her hand, made Ilham stagger back on the sofa. Seeing Yuana's reddened face, Ilham was sure Yuana was angry with him, at his inability to keep Yuana and at his unwillingness to dare propose to Yuana to Bu Aminah.

Ms. Fatma patted and rubbed Ilham's shoulder, "let Yuana go, Ham. Ummah has given Yuana a week off. Let him calm himself down first, don't make him feel pressured to be here."

"Dad... If you want to go to the house of grandma. Will you pick me up?" Nabila approached Inspiration to say goodbye and was answered with a nod and a slight hug. The tongue of Inspiration is too weak even just to answer 'yes' on Nabila.

"Assalamu'alaikum."

Nazriel had suddenly just appeared in front of the pavilion door.

"Wa 'alaikum hail, well that Nazriel has come. Here Le, please bring your suitcase to the car, "Mrs Fatma immediately asked Nazriel for help so that Yuana could immediately leave and rest at the house of Ms. Aminah.

"Mak's coming to the village?" nazriel asked as she dragged the suitcase out of the pavilion, followed by all but Ilham who remained seated and stared at Yuana's departure.