He is my eye
Ch 6's. Second meeting
"Actually I'm not interested in your best friend," said Alfan began the conversation.
"Why doesn't Alfan like Elsa?" manya curious.
"I don't know, I don't feel like I'm klop with him" he replied.
"What are the criteria for women Mas Alfan is looking for?" my many.
"I want to find a wife who is sholeh, religious and of course beautiful" said Alfan.
"Elsa his man sholeh kok, proof that he never misses any busy prayer he. If the problem is not ugly, he is not ugly either. Surely if she wears makeup and wears beautiful clothes, she will look more beautiful like artists on tv," I explained.
"Well that's the problem, she never wears makeup when she meets me and her clothes are always wearing pants. I don't like girls who don't wear makeup and dress like that" said Alfan while sipping his drink.
"Because I often meet important people, I want him to have a wife who is good at taking care of him like wearing makeup, she said, wear a robe or skirt and certainly my wife later should be able to look elegant and meek. My wife should be able to keep her honor as a woman and as the wife of a doctor. He should also be able to love my parents like he loves his own parents" continued Alfan at length.
It's only natural that Elsa doesn't attract his attention. Although Elsa is kind, sholehah, but she has a weakness in terms of self-care. Elsa once said that in her teenage years she was very tomboyish even her hair was cut short until she was finally put into a boarding school by her parents. Until now she went wherever she never wore makeup, everywhere only wearing long pants, keja and veil worn perfunctory.
"Well, high is also Mas Alfan's criteria, so until now you have not been married," I said insinuating.
"Yes have to dong because my parents always say that looking for a wife that should be invited together to find heaven later so I shrill the sholeh. If the face is beautiful so as not to be embarrassed if you meet people," he said lightly.
"The beautiful woman spent money. Buy make up can reach millions. Not yet the clothes, have not gone to the salon, not to mention other prints. Is Mas Alfan capable?" my many.
"If that is a problem I understand. That beauty costs money. Even with that I can feel that all this time my hard work has not lost because when I came home I could look at my wife's soothing face," said Alfan.
Honestly, I was a little disappointed with what he said. He was looking for a woman who was too perfect. Though I guess a good man never sees a woman by her looks. Although I do not deny that he deserves a perfect woman because he is also a very perfect man.
"What do you think I am?" manya curious. Honestly, a good woman like Elsa is still not suitable, I became curious how his view as a man towards people like me.
"If you are beautiful, smart preening but you have no ideals in your life. You are like flowing water, living only for pleasure, not living with the purpose of being a person who can be useful to others. Her clothes are too open. The man who looks at you will take you for granted. Try to close your aura or if you are still not ready for hijab, try to wear more polite clothes and try to respect yourself more. Surely men will appreciate you too" Alfan spoke.
What Alfan had just said was truly beyond doubt. I've been living all I wanted. Even my mother never advised me. Maybe my mom was tired of facing me. I used to sleep with the guy I was dating just to get the money, and sometimes I gave my body away for free to the guy I just met. All this time I was like a cheap woman, even worse. I never appreciated my body.
It all started because of Ariel, my first boyfriend when I was in 3rd grade of High School. On that day just when my birthday was 17 years old, he took me to a tourist park to celebrate my birthday. There I had fun riding all the rides there. After returning home from the tourist park he took me to a villa not far from the tourist park. There I was forced to serve his lust. I even tried to rebel, but he kept forcing me to hook up. My virginity finally disappeared already because of that day. Even my belongings bleed so much that they wet the whole bed.
After that, I always locked myself in my room. At school, I was often alone considering how dirty I was now because of a man I had only known for three months. I didn't even think he'd do something like that.
One day he suddenly came to the house apologizing for what happened that day.
"Why are you apologizing, it's too late. You may be happy that you have ruined my future, but I will see your life ruined one day. Because I believe God is fair. He knows how cruel you are to ruin my life!!" I was really angry with Ariel. If only I could I would kill him and throw him in the tiger cage. But what can I do, the rice has become porridge.
After I graduated from high school, I actually had no intention of continuing college. But my mom gave me a choice, "if you don't want to go to college it's better to get married and have someone take care of you." I who felt pessimistic about my virginity, finally forced to obey my mother's desire to go to college. I majored in accounting at a university near my home because when I was a kid I dreamed of working for a bank.
One day I met my senior brother. He offered me to sleep with him in exchange for two million dollars for one night on the condition that I would keep this a secret, so that no one would know about my relationship with my senior brother. I refused his invitation. But after I saw my mother take pains to find a loan to pay for my semester and not get it, I accepted her offer.
"I'm not a virgin anymore. Why am I selling my self-esteem so dearly. Surely I will be laughed at by any man if I sell expensive when the interior is dilapidated. I also need money to pay for my college. I don't want to keep bothering my mother" I said in my heart. Finally, I always accept the offer of sleep from any man no matter who is still my age or who is old. I have enjoyed my dark life.
