He is my eye

Ch. 22. about my race

"Mas Alfan still rarely met Elsa?" ask me to start the conversation.

"I haven't seen him in a long time. What's the matter, Fa?" ask Alfan.

"It's okay to just ask."

"Did he tell you anything about me?"

"He just said that Mas Alfan was a busy man. In chat rarely ggebales, invited to meet also no time," I answered honestly.

"I'm busy, Fa. Eating my grilled fish. It's delicious." Oh." Alfan started bribing me with his spoon.

"But I can't eat seafood" I protested.

"It's not seafood. It's regular food. Here's a flick of my hands numb." I started to eat the feed from Alfan. Duhh .. when else can he be like gini, not ashamed to bribe me.

"Enak, Brother." Not only is the grilled fish delicious, but the feed from Alfan that makes the grilled fish more delicious.

Kriiiinngg .. tciiiinnggg ....

My phone rang when we were eating together. It says Dito's name on my phone screen. "I go to the toilet first, pick up the phone" I said to Alfan.

"Hello ... What's up, honey?" ask me to start the conversation.

"What are you doing again? You're going home from college?" ask Dito from behind the phone.

"Udah, really. What's wrong?"

"It's okay. Suddenly I miss you. Tomorrow I'll pick yuk up, we'll meet."

"Tomorrow? See tomorrow first yes, because tomorrow my schedule is solid," I said reasoned.

"Don't you can't anymore? Look out if you don't want to see me tomorrow, I'll cut your monthly money!" dito's Threat.

I heard him a little confused, how can I pay for college, while soon the exam will begin.

"All right, honey, don't get mad at that. I'll try to see you tomorrow."

"Well, so dong, anyways you don't dare to be disappointed me again like yesterday. Otherwise, I will overwhelm you to face me in bed!" dito from behind the phone.

"Yes-yes. I'll see you tomorrow, my dear," I said trying to end the call.

Tutt .. tuuutt .. tuuutt ....

Dito does have a bad temper. Just because I reneged on my promise to meet him, he threatened me.

"Who's phone, Fa?"

"How do I answer Alfan's question? Would I be better off being honest?" I was confused as to what to answer.

"From my boyfriend." I tried to be honest even though I was actually ashamed of Alfan.

"What likes to get angry? How do you still want him?"

"Where is it ... Let's go home, Mas. It starts tonight." I was confused how to tell it myself. I'm not ready if Alfan finds out how dilapidated my life is. Just like this, he has often protested about my ordinary dreams. Especially if he knows that I am no longer a virgin and often sleep with men to get pocket money.

During the journey, we were more silent with our own minds. Maybe Alfan knows, if I'm not in the mood to tell you anything.

"Now, I bought a little for your mother. Greetings to your mother." Alfan gave me a package of food.

"How much, Alfan?"

"Who knows you're laper again. You're the eater" Alfan replied casually.

"Yes-yes my little brother who is a pincher .." said Alfan as he pinched my cheek with his anxiety. My heart melted a little. I was embarrassed by it. He knows how to comfort me who Dito just took care of.

"Mas Alfan didn't stop by first?" bargained.

"No need, Shifa, Mas wants to rest in the hospital before starting the operation."

"Yes, Alfan be careful driving the car."

"definitely. Then I'll go home first. Greetings to your Mother. Assalamu'alaikum," said Alfan.

"Wa'alaikumsalam."

Alfan finally left with his car. I also went to enter the house.

"Assalamu'alaikum, ma'am," I said as I entered the house. I saw that mom was busy packing cookies while watching television.

"Wa'alaikumsalam's chat. Shifa, here please help Mom. Just a little more."

I started helping my mother pack the ripe cakes.

"Your college till night again huh?" ask mother.

"No, ma'am, Alfan made me eat, I said honestly.

"That's the package you brought with you what? You're shopping for clothes again, aren't you?" search mother.

"No, Mom, it's food for Mom. It was Alfan who was nitipin to Shifa."

"Wahh .. very good Alfan. You say thank you to her, Mom for her."

"Yes, Mom, I'll tell you later" I said.

"How is your relationship with Alfan? You're ta'aruf with Alfan?" Mother's question again about it. Though recently my mother has often asked about my relationship with Alfan.

"Yes, Mom, Shifa's still a kid, still going for a walk. Shifa has no plans to get married."

"You're not a child anymore, Shifa. Look at the age of you, there are already many who carry children. You are the only one who does not realize that he is an adult." quipped Mother.

Mom was too honest to insinuate me. Indeed, many of my Junior High School students already have children. In fact, there are already holding two children at the age of twenty-one years.

"Some, Mom, Shifa still wants to focus on college. If Shifa is married, she is afraid that Shifa will be lazy to go to college" I explained. "Pity Elsa if I get close to Alfan anyway."

"What?! What happened to you, Alfan and Elsa?"

"Uuuppss .. I think I mispronounced. How do I answer that now?" my question is in my heart.

"Emm .. How about, Mom. Elsa likes Alfan, not only do I like him." I finally decided to be honest. I also wanted to hear my mother's advice so that I could decide to continue pursuing Alfan or stop here just this story of my love.

"What?! How can you both like the same person? You guys are suhabatan? What about your relationship with Elsa?"

"Elsa meanwhile doesn't know, ma'am, about my closeness to Alfan. We actually met at the cafe. It was Elsa who invited me and Nela to accompany her."

"Keep, if Elsa finds out about your relationship with Alfan, how, Fa? I do not want your relationship with your friends to be bad just because of a man," said the mother.

"Shifa what should you do, Mom? Shifa and Alfan were already close even though we never committed anything. Alfan and I are comfortable with this relationship. Although Shifa does not know how Alfan feels, but Shifa already likes Alfan," I explained at length.

Just this time I dared to be honest about men to my mother. My mother hugged me after I told her how I felt. It feels warm and makes my heart calm when I am in the arms of the person I love the most

"Indeed Alfan is a good man. Anyone who knows him must feel comfort from within him. You'd better give up than you'll have to be hostile. You can stay friendly with Alfan, but you have to appreciate Elsa's feelings. You can still hang out with him, but you should try to erase that feeling slowly, Shifa. Isn't friendship more precious than men?" I approved my mother's words to erase this love.

Maybe this way is better than I have to be hostile to my best friend if Elsa knows about my true feelings. Besides Alfan also only thinks of me as a sister, nothing more. I think I need to erase my feelings slowly.