He is my eye

Ch. 14. He is my eye

Alfan, the man I've only known for two months. He's the guy my best friend Elsa likes. I have to what about this feeling? He is the sun that has come to shine upon my dark life. He made me rise from the darkness in my heart. After getting to know Alfan, my outlook on life began to change.

I want to know him even further. I also want to approach him until he can be mine. I want him to always lead me through the darkness of my life. My selfishness, if all I want is for him to accept my unbecoming feelings?

"Shifa, how are you today?" ask Elsa.

"Better than yesterday" I said lightly.

"Is your problem with Reno resolved?" search Nela.

"Already dong. I'm the same she broke up. We both don't match anymore."

"So now you're just like Dito doang?"

"I think I'll break up with Dito, Sa. I'm tired of dating mulu again," concluded I seriously.

"Why? Tumben?" ask Elsa again.

"Males is all."

"Maybe because you've been dating a lot, so you're getting bored, right? Yes, it is mending rest first so that your heart is calmer. You can even focus on college, right?" Nela. Nela is the best friend to talk to. His thinking is never complicated when faced with a problem.

"You said, Nel, it's time for me to focus on my college. Let my grade is also high, not mediocre," I agreed Nela.

"I called Krish this morning, he said he and Alfan had some free time this afternoon. After college, let's get them samperin at Cafe Deliche. I told Krish to take Alfan with me" Nela asked.

"Wahh. nice dong then. We can talk to both of them. When else can we be like that? Besides at Cafe Deliche as far as I know there is also a karaoke place. We can book a place there to be more private," said Elsa happily.

"Congratulations to you both. Finally you can double date, you guys can get them," I said a little jealous. I just got in trouble because of Reno. But my two best friends are even happy because his efforts pdkt fruitful. Is it possible that I'm jealous that Elsa will meet Alfan?

"You too, Fa. All of you can get over your emotions when we karaokean. Isn't that right, Sa?"

"Yes, you come along, cook us both want to stay you are sad again like this anyway."

"No, it's okay. I'm afraid that if I come along, it will become a mosquito repellent again" I said seriously.

"We won't consider you a mosquito repellent. What the hell are you doing? We have been in office since we entered this campus. So if there's one of them that's a problem, we should be able to cheer each other up."

"Udah come along. If you don't come, we'll drag you!" threaten Elsa's.

"Yes-yes I'm coming, but sure you won't feel awward if there's me?"

"Related!!" nela and Elsa.

I don't know what will happen later, for sure I will join the invitation of my two best friends. Hopefully my expression will not show clearly if I like Alfan. I'm not ready if Elsa and Nela know my true feelings.

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"Hello!!" elsa and Nela shouted as they entered the room they had ordered. I who was behind my best friend just bowed quietly. In there, there are already Alfan and Krish who have also ordered food and drinks that look very good. Looking at the food on the table, made my stomach worm sing aloud.

"Here.here. Loh there's Shifa too. Here, Fa, we've eaten for you. If you feel less, you can order again, really. Today I'm the one who's buying, "welcome Krish at length.

I chose to sit on the right seat, slightly away from them. I pretended to hold my phone so that I didn't feel sorry for me because I didn't have a hand.

"Are you here already?" ask Nela. "Sorry, we are late. Our lecturer told us to complete the task this time as well, even though the campus bell rang thirty minutes ago."

"It's okay, relax. Today we both have free time. That's why we can be here now. Isn't that right, Mr Alfan?"

"Yes just relax. Please you guys want to eat whatever it is up to. If you want another message, you can too," said Alfan smiling. I glanced at him briefly. And when our views collided, I was misbehaving myself. I pretended to focus on the phone I was holding.

"Shifa, you're just being diem. What do you want to eat?" ask Elsa.

"I'm up to it."

"Nih, fried rice is your favorite chicken katsu. I'll take avocado juice as well. You eat a lot of yes, let it be strong against Reno," said Nela. He knows my favorite food and drinks. But why was there a word Reno behind the sentence he said?

"Who's Reno?" search Alfan.

"The ex-girlfriend of Shifa, who recently broke up" Elsa said.

"Oh...."

"No, I want to be alone again. I'm tired of going out."

"Ngapain wanted? He still has one" said Nela.

"Seriously?? So you're the one who cheated on me?" ask Krish.

I saw Alfan's expression on me. It seems like she was just as surprised as Krish after knowing the truth about me. Presumably I've been stamped ugly by Alfan, I've been acting ugly too. From the start, I was pessimistic about my pride. Although I love him, but Alfan is still a man who is too perfect for me.

"long story. If I cheated, where was his fault? What matters is that I don't cheat on people's husbands."

"Today who wants to sing first?" my many.

"Who is? We both sang. You guys go ahead," bargained Alfan.

"If only I sang. Because my mood is bad, I want to sing Ailee's song" I said as I pressed the remote looking for Ailee's song.

"Ailee's Song? Who's that?" ask Alfan.

"Korea singer."

The song I was looking for finally found. I was ready to sing as the music started to sound.

*Neol pumgi jeon alji moshaetda

Nae meomun sesang

Chanranhan geoseul

(Before I had you, I didn't know

When the world I've occupied

This bright)

Jageun sumgyeollo daheun saram

Geop eopsy nareul bulleojun nest

(I reached you with a small breath

This is the love that calls me fearless)

Mopsido

Neoreul jikyeobogo

Useupge judo haetdeon

Pyeongbeomhan sungandeuri

(I like it a lot

Watching you, I thumped

Even when I am sillyly jealous

All those ordinary moments)

Kamkamhan yeongwon

Geu oraen gidarim

Haessalcheoreom niga naeryeotda

(In an eternal darkness

In that long wait

You came like sunshine*)