Happy Fajarini

Episode 7's

The wind blows softly. Air enters my nose regularly. Responding to every rough breath of mine. It hit my face very gently, as if it calmed me down. I've almost gone crazy to face this situation. Refrain from making a sound. Refraining to maintain self-respect. I'm Happy, an ordinary woman who also has life problems. Very tricky.

Today I want to talk soon. And ran saying my true love to Tegar. I hope he is right to accept me for who I am. Although I don't know how she's been when I found out about me for the past year. I turned my head, the man behind me still faithfully looked at me softly. I didn't lose heartily. I hope there will be decisions that make me free. But I still have to wait. I don't know until when. I dare not speak.

"Dec, eat downstairs, yuk." he asked. I'm shaking.

"Let me cook."

"You said that from now on. Come on!" Mas Kukuh pulled my hand. He knows what is weighing on my mind right now. But he didn't talk to give me a way out. I'mtired. But I can only be quiet for a while.

Tonight is as usual. A night full of fearful thoughts. I want to become a newly born human being. This guy's almost driving me crazy.

.....….

A string of music rhymes. Accompanying me through his boisterous tone bubbled in the ears. Today I want to dance, speak through this body language. All that I have always prayed for is to be real. God knows what I always wanted. I want the problem to end quickly. And simple, I want my life scenario to end beautifully with Tegar. I hope that.

Singing waves is no less tempestuous when I release the source of music. Seagulls also decorate the blue sea which is hit by an orange hue. This afternoon is so graceful. There is no beauty on earth other than its charm. Is beautiful. I leaned on his shoulder. A few seconds of dusk drowned leaving a charming orange tinge. I'm looking. It turns out that twilight also adds to the beautiful impression that hit your face, Tegar.

"What can dispel a girl's doubts when it comes to making a choice?" ambiguous ask. I rubbed my head with my darling.

"If in doubt, all one has to do is pray, convince oneself, and look at the twilight." I-i understand. Although Tegar answered me with origin. I hugged him tightly. The body of the man who has always kept me warm and comfortable these past eleven years. Hardcore always misses my love, becomes the dawn of my weapons, and becomes my joy. I love her so much. I hope God will pick me up first. Because I was so unprepared to lose Tegar even though it was seventy years to come.

I haven't been able to get home yet. I went straight to see my Tegar when I got back from the radio station. I've always been this way, longing for excess. Although I know everyone says that overdoing it is not good. But I I'm like this for a reason. Hardcore can suddenly leave me. And my anxiety to get back to living alone.

Still on this beach. Me and Tegar spent the rest of the time eating.

"It's really bad, Ra. Why do I eat vegetables?" Stiff with his protest tone.

"Ra just wants what's best for—" my words were cut off.

"But I'm fine, Ra. My heart is not papa." I shook my head at the sign of not accepting his refusal. He grunts. I clasped his hand.

"One day with you is precious. For that reason, Ra does not want to ruin our day. I hope you are always healthy."

"I'm promise. My whole life. I love you, Hardcore." Again. I said another word of love to Tegar. But Tegar remained the same, just smiling and peeking at my forehead. Although not spoken, I know that love is very real. He has his own way of loving me.

"I'm sorry yes. I can't take you to Mahameru yet. What about the day after tomorrow?" I'm shaking. Hugged him again from the side. I still remember the incident five years ago when Tegar was unconscious for forcing himself to the top of Mahameru. Her dream is only one. Retracing Mahameru's summit with me. Introduce me at a bright dawn. But his dream must fail. I kept banning it. For me enough with him I feel beautiful, without having to know the wider dawn.

"Only here with you" I replied.

"Why go to Banda Neira? or going to Mandalika?" I'm back to shaking. Hardcore chuckled as she looked at my manyuning expression. We have often argued over this issue. But in the end, women always win.

With Rigid I sow great hopes. Which I hope will one day flourish to be the embodiment of a wonderful life with him. I'm a lucky woman to get love from her. Although I knew, I accidentally knit a wound that would shake our relationship later. But I promised myself I would still love him no matter what. Love is not wrong. I was wrong.

It's raining tonight. I don't know what time I'm with Tegar. The three days of his departure made my miss full. And tonight it's time to drain this miss. To fill up tomorrow again. Stay here for the reason of the rain.

"Like his love and sincerity. Like his heart and sacrifice. I want my body wet and dry to hold you. My happiness flows as hard as rain soaks the earth. I remove my wounds and sorrows, alternating happily to stay side by side with you. I hope the rain will stay the same. So do we both." Harder covers my face. I am moved by his words. Which unhappy woman gets this much love. The rain hasn't stopped yet, but my miss has. When Stiff put these lips together warmly. Only with love, not with naps.

"Thank you for taking care of me all this time. I have much to thank God. You are the most beautiful gift, Hardcore. I love you even as we age and no more words of love are spoken from our mouths." A few seconds later, Tegar took me into his arms. I want to continue like this. Being a happy and happy woman. There is no sadness, for I am strong with Rigid.

The rain has gone. My misses are gone too. Tegar drove me to the front door of the apartment. One sweet kiss landed on my forehead as a sign of goodbye. Kegar opened the door and let me in like a queen.

"I hope you can learn from the past." The sound of the baritone managed to surprise me who had only three seconds closed the door. I gulped violently.

"Mas, that was Sukma nelfon. He said please see Mas Kukuh home at what time, who's home, peek at him again what, don't forget also to take his laundry, Mastin Mas Steady his body is still the same, not too fat and not too thin, and ingetin Mas Kukuh for Ngabarin Sukma. Karna Ra is the neighbor of her best friend Ra's future husband."

"And you did not carry out the mandate of Sukma today. Don't you see what time it is, Dek?" I'm getting scared. Even though the sound is flat. But I know Mas Kukuh is holding back anger.

"That's no business of the Staunch. I consider Mas Kukuh as a brother, does not mean I have to obey all what Mas Kukuh said." Mas Kukuh looked surprised by my rising tone. I also did not realize that I had been released like this.

"But I'm not ka—'s sister"

"I'm going to sleep, Mom. Tired," I concluded.