Happy Fajarini

Episode 12's

This afternoon I was with Tegar. The man of the last eleven years has always been the lifeblood of a weak woman like me. L loved her. Dusk has always been a silent witness to our love.

I left the apartment when I and Mas Kukuh had a fight. The sudden presence of Bang Teguh and Sukma made me talk over the line. I'm not supposed to talk about what happened a year ago. Not time. But I don't know, I'm so stuck and I want to be free soon. I want to continue my journey of love and Stiffness in peace.

"Sukma's home, Ra?" ask Hardcore. His hands were busy braiding my hair. I nodded as I continued to enjoy my favorite soy sauce martabak.

"He sends you his greetings" I said with my mouth full.

"Have you met Mas Kukuh?"

"I think they're meeting now. Sukma took to the apartment. But Steady again left. Sukma deliberately wants a surprise. But Toy, you know what? Sukma is now fat. Haha, I was just gawking."

"Oh yeah? good for that. Now you no longer need to go to Mas Kukuh. Don't you freak out, Ra." I chuckled as Tegar who was now holding me possessively from behind. I rubbed his arm. Enjoy the afternoon air at the beach. A warm and comfortable hug always makes me feel protected. Her breath hit my shoulder warmly.

"Ra wants to keep rich gini same Toy. Ra is happy because God has brought us together. You know what true love means. And so Ra learned about kink with Tegar. If only we had never met. Ra doesn't know what's going to happen to an orphan girl like Ra. Maybe Ra will be the one to fail because of being wasted. And maybe Ra will continue to be imagined with the wounds that the people closest to Ra do. Wounds, scourges, even wounds on this body, Ra still remembers. Although it is no longer used. But the wound moved here. In this chest. Luckily Ra was saved by the angelic hearted people. Mommy, dad, you." I turned my body to face Hardcore.

"R...." Harder covers my face. Look me in the eyes. I smile. Speak through the eyes and the gimmick that I will not cry.

"Hard, are you going to be like those who dumped me when you found out I had a big problem? are you gonna dump me?"

"Ra said what?"

"Please promise to keep loving me no matter what, Hardcore. I will not understand and will not be able to undergo kinkaran without Tegaran on the side of Joy. Ra will be destroyed if Tegar left Ra because of Ra's mistake." I hugged Tegar. My body is shaking violently. I really can't stand all this. But I also have to keep the condition firm. I can't possibly say everything now. I don't want to be a mastermind in Tegar's slump.

"Ra's afraid. Ra was afraid of Tegar leaving. Please convince Ra that you're not leaving Ra's life, no matter what." I hugged Tegar.

"I don't have to promise to keep what's been neatly ingrained in this heart, Ra. Everything between us doesn't need a lot of words and promises, because we'll both make it happen later. Enough of us and our hearts" said Tegar earnestly.

This afternoon we do not bear witness to the love of the sky for dusk. Except those who witnessed how great a love of Hardcore for Joy. Without having to speak. And now God is testing my love. Testing how solid my love for Hardcore is without falling for the charms of other men. Hardcore, don't hate me someday when you know all. You should know my struggles before you hate. All of your brother. But you must believe that this love never wavers in the slightest. Hopefully never will.

"R...." Hardcore let go of our embrace. Then he reached into his pocket and grabbed something.

"What's this, Toy?" I asked when I saw the little blue box in the hands of Tegar.

"To answer all your doubts, Ra. Which I should have done this a long time ago. Proving love through action. And today, witnessed by heaven and earth, I propose to Gembira Fajarini to be the companion of life Rigid forever. Are you ready, Happy?"

I'm stunned. My heart is beating fast. This is the moment I was waiting for when I graduated from college. Tegar proves his love through action. But one thing is now stuck. It's not time yet. I can't even though I want it so much. As a result of the incident a year ago, I still can not accept the application of Tegar completely.

"I know this is too sudden, Ra. But I won't force you to get married fast. I will keep this ring on your finger as a sign that I love you, Ra. Later, when you are one hundred percent ready then me and my family will propose to you officially. How's it?"

"Isn't papa?" my many. It was clearly a disappointed streak on Tegar's face even though he nodded and smiled.

"I know you need time, right? And there's still a lot you haven't accomplished." I nodded then hugged Hardcore tightly.

"I'll soon be yours, Hardcore. Don't worry I'll leave you. You are the only man who reigns in my heart. I Love you, Hardcore. Full I love you."