Happy Fajarini

Episode 22

"A long time no see, Wa. You're healthy, right?" ask me to Sendawa.

"It's healthy, Ra. How's it? I'm slim, right now? I'm not on a diet, hehehe."

I smiled hearing it. Words so good to cover up a wound. I know that behind the increasingly thin body of Sendawa, there is a huge inner pressure on him. Is it pain to stay without explanation?

"What do you want to eat? Today I'll treat you," I bargained.

"Eat anything, Ra. Same with you." I nodded, wrote the order and handed it to the waiter.

Ting

One message came in, the name of Tegar there. I replied to it briefly then put it down again.

"You're lucky to have a Hardcore, Ra. If I were as lucky as you are" Sendawa said.

"Laughter, we're lucky women. You still have a lot of people who love and care about you. We're both lucky women, Wa. It's just God's way of slightly differentiating our fate." I clasped his hand, trying to strengthen.

"But Zamman is different, Ra. You must know what it's like, without needing me to explain. I don't even know where his nose is right now. Go without explanation. What for Zam is that everything that happens between us is meaningless? Am I being too dreamy and too ambitious to continue to have her? Maybe even someday when Zam comes back ...."

I prevented Dawa from continuing his sentence. Clasping her hands tightly to channel the energy, but she immediately burst into my arms.

"Whether Zamman comes back or not, you have to continue your life, Wa. Because the Lord who gives you breath wants you to make it through His trials. Never depend your life on a human being, because a human being is the wrong place." I rubbed Dawa's back which I thought was a sister.

I know that comforting the wound will not heal and make the memory fragile.

It does not change the surface of the feeling that has been scratched. The scars may not disappear, even with all the process. I was just helping to pressure her to not freak out, hoping that her pain would lessen and no longer get wet.

....

I smile. Very sumringah. Because some time ago, I got a letter from the religious court that the lawsuit I filed was approved and today will be the first hearing. My phone rings, there's a strong name on it.

"Hallo, you're missing, Toy?" I was accompanied by laughter.

"Where, Ra? If you want to walk, let me know. Be careful on the road. Hope everything is good. I love you, Ra."

"Yes-yes, honey. I love you too, Toy. See you tomorrow, bye."

A car I knew stopped right in front of me. I looked at the figure who was still my husband's status down and approached me. We sat and kept quiet with each other. A very loud rough sigh rang out in my ear. I threw away the face.

"Are you sure of your decision, Dek?" hand's shrill.

"Hm." I nodded without looking at him.

"Mas hasn't had a chance to make you happy, Dek. Even really want to. Your love for you has grown since you made a holy promise before God. I always want to protect you. But sorry everything has not materialized yet," said Mas Kukuh while tidying my hair in the wind

"It's almost over, Mom. We have our own storylines and it is not too late for us to correct our past mistakes. We both have someone behind the back of our household. Our relationship is not healthy from the beginning, for it with full humility I ask Mas Stukuh to continue our trial and return to our original storyline. Like before we knew."

"Well, Deck. It's hard to let go of what we already have. You are very valuable to Mas, even from the beginning of the pronunciation of the sacred promise, Mas vowed to always take care of you and all your needs. But now, you are asking for this marriage to end soon and indirectly force Mas to renege on Mas' promise before God." Mas Kukuh sighed heavily while confirming the position of his glasses. We kept each other quiet for quite a while.

"How are you Sukma, Mas? He's okay, right?" my many.

"Four blood transfusions and we were all confused because Sukma's blood type was not available in the hospital. But we finally found the donor quickly. Now he has recovered and is back to his activities as before."

"Sukma's in college again?"

"Yes, after I persuaded him to finish his S2."

"It's good that way." I smiled with relief.

"We're not going to a religious court, are we?" tanya Mas Kukuh made me glare and immediately see the numbers on my watch.

"Great, thirty minutes left. Go on hunting, Mas!"

"That's enthusiastic. You don't know what I did," he replied indifferently.

"Mas.." My whining made him chuckle but also made him kick the car tire.

On the way to the religious court, both I and Mas Kukuh were silent to each other. Not a word came out of our mouths, busy with our thoughts. I was actually a little touched when he said that he began to love me and promised before God to always take care of me. I don't know why my feelings are suddenly empty and there's a little bit of unwillingness.

Finally our car arrived in front of the religious courthouse. I closed my eyes and lowered my head. This is what I wanted all along. But why is something so bad? No, it's not a feeling of love. But it is true said Mas Kukuh earlier, that it is difficult to let go of what we have.

"You sure, Happy?"