Happy Fajarini

Episode 20's

I walked down the corridor of the hospital very brightly. Greet everyone I have been through so kindly. I don't know why my heart keeps giving thanks. Just a few more steps before I go back to fighting for my apologies from the people I love and care about. Starting from today, I hope tomorrow will be okay.

Just a few more steps I was about to go into my father's ward, but a burly hand first blocked my wrist firmly. I was shocked when I realized that Mas Kukuh was also here.

"Follow me now!" command me. I tried to resist and rebel over what he was doing now. But he with all his manpower forced me to follow in his footsteps.

Mas Kukuh took me into his car. Many times I asked to come down, but he was deaf and would not respond at all to my words. I could see his hardened jaw and his sharp eyes. Maybe he already knew my purpose in going to the hospital. That's why he was so rude, just like last night when he was so eager to take away my honor.

I chose not to scream anymore, it's useless if he won't listen. But I was surprised when the car we were riding stopped at a hotel. I look at him with a cruel look. I swear, I really want to scold her all out right now. Not until it stops here, Mas Kukuh now come out and open the door for me.

"DON'T FORCE ME, MAS!" my snapping. But I was fishing for the emotions of the man who was holding as my husband.

I was forced to go back to following Mas Kukuh's steps very quickly. Everyone who was there looked at us with question marks. I tried so hard not to scream and cry. Still I follow the steps of the Steady who took me to a room.

"STOP, MOM!" I tipped her hand from my wrist.

"I didn't know you were this crazy. Everything you need I have fulfilled and your dignity as a woman I have saved. But look, what's your reply right now, Ra!" His eyes were piercing.

"Don't feel like you're the one who's hurt the most, Mom. I also sacrificed a lot to stay in our relationship. Now what else? What to defend? We have our own stories, Mom. Between you and me, it won't be a story. How else do I have to talk? I've filed for divorce in court, just waiting for the call and we'll be done" I said.

Plaques

A hard slap landed perfectly on my cheek. I smiled at her side. Resisting pain and also pain in my cheeks and heart. I fixed the position of my head without fading a smile. I looked into her heart-changing eyes while looking at her hand that had just slapped me. Quailed. The hand was trembling. But I was no less trembling, opening one by one the buttons of my shirt without turning my eyes in another direction.

"Sir, what do you want?" tanyakanya. I smiled cynically and my hands were still busy with buttons that began to open one by one.

"Why surprised? I want my body, right? Now I will serve you willingly. Doesn't this body belong to you? Come here," I said in a very crazy manner.

Mas Kukuh retreated his steps. In parallel with that, I was getting closer to him who was trying to get away.

"Come, why are you getting so far away? I'm ready to serve you, Mom. Or maybe you-"

"Enough! Okay, if that's what you want." He grabbed my lips full of lust. I closed my eyes trying to hold my sobs.

"Udah?" ask me after he let go of his grill. I dropped my shirt on the floor. Tears kept me wiping so as not to shed, resisting the almost insane turmoil of self.

Brakes

The door was forced from the outside.

....................

I hear voices calling me. I tried to open my eyes that were still a little heavy. Staring at the ceiling, hoping that I was now out of a nightmare. A nightmare that ruined everything.

"R...." Someone held my hand.

"Hard, why are you here?" tanyaku.

"I will accompany you, Ra," he replied no less quietly. Hardcore kissed my hand as if I was afraid I wasn't okay.

"But, is it still appropriate? Ra's been a traitor, Hardcore." I sobbed, trying to get my hand out of Tegar's grasp.

"It's all my fault, Ra. I failed to look after you."

I shook my head, looked back at the ceiling and said, "I am the worst woman. I am a woman who does not take care of herself. I failed to keep your trust, Gar."

"Never say that, Ra. Don'tdon't. I'll keep you company no matter what. Sorry, I broke my promise to always protect you. Sorry."

"But you see these tears? I can't be as strong as you want me to be. I'm weak, Hardcore. I'm not that strong. I'm not Happy." Hardcore hugged me. Diverting the energy he had to re-enforce me. It occurred to me once that my parents were mistaken in bestowing the name Happy on me. I can't really be that happy woman. I have a fragile point.

Thirteen minutes passed, Tegar managed to win my emotions. He kept saying the words that made my mind go astray. Her beautiful smile and her shady face, returned to calm me down. He did not allow me to take my eyes off his.

"Look, what if Ra becomes a widow?" I asked when Tegar was preparing food for me. I saw him stunned.

"Continue?" tanyakanya. My forehead is wrinkled.

"Toy-y"

"That's not a compelling reason for me to leave you, Ra."

"But Tegar once said to Ra; if Ra betrays Tegar, then Tegar will leave Gembira."

"No need to think macem. Here I bribe." They started scooping food for me. It is undeniable, my heart is still very ungodly. This nestapa must pass quickly.

Tegar asked me to sit by the window of this hospital. We were on the eleventh floor giving the opportunity to enjoy the twilight again for the umpteenth time.

The sky with a million charms, again showing off its beauty through its infinite horizon. The seagulls welcomed the light. I too, waited for the sinking for forty-seven seconds without a sound. Only prayers are held in my heart, seducing God to make my world affairs easier. And also, love. I want my love to stay with the man who loves me too, God. A little pushy, I want Hardcore, Lord.