Happy Fajarini

Episode 23

Finally our car arrived in front of the religious courthouse. I closed my eyes and lowered my head. This is what I wanted all along. But why is something so bad? No, it's not a feeling of love. But it is true said Mas Kukuh earlier, that it is difficult to let go of what we have.

"You sure, Happy?"

"It's the best, Mom," I replied. He smiled, but I could not conclude the smile. He got out of the car, and so did I.

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I put this body on the bed while continuing to massage my temple that felt throbbing from earlier. I never thought I would marry someone I didn't love and soon be a widow. Lucky my relationship and Mas Steady not that far to not make me lose too much. Never nearly, but not to the point of intercourse.

Just for a moment I was about to close my eyes, the boisterous sounds of the children made me fail to fall asleep. It seemed like I was too late to go home, so the kids were still free to play outside. I reached into my bag and grabbed something and walked out of the room. A moment to stretch the muscles while enjoying the afternoon breeze so soft hit.

"Sir Happy! Here!" shouted one of the children followed by the cries of his colleagues and asked me to join.

"Hi, everyone. Look here, brother bring lolypop for you."

"Yeeeeeeeeee!" cheer them all up and immediately docked, saying one by one lolypop.

"Slow down, don't struggle." I warn those who are getting crowded.

"Well, done. Brother, Hana is not parted," the five-year-old boy complained to me in a sobbing tone. I crouched down, balancing the boy's height.

"Darling, Hana. Sorry, Brother yes. What if Hana eats another snack?" persuade me. But Hana shook her head slowly, holding back her sobs.

"Sister, this is mine for Hannah." A teenage boy handed over his lolypop. Hana immediately sumringah, grabbed the lolypop enthusiastically.

"False, Mas Ande. Muaaah." Hana kissed the cheek she called Ande. Of course making the cheeks of the boy happy and also blushing.

"Thank you, Ande. Fortunately you came."

"Sama-sama, Brother. Earlier, Lily's mother said that Brother was happy to come, Brother was told to go to his room. There's a new baby brother in there."

"Infant? Yes, brother went there first. Thanks again, Ande." I hugged him before I moved.

My steps came to a halt in the doorway, silent for a moment staring at the fussy baby in Lily's mother's sling. I said my greetings and was immediately welcomed in by the owner of the room. I actually have a little trouble determining feelings. Should be happy because there is a new member in this foster home or should be sad because the innocent baby was just abandoned by his parents without mercy. It seemed to have been hoarse the voice of the baby who loudly cried.

"When, Mom?" my many.

"So early in the morning the children found him in front of the dormitory. Cup cup, don't fuss, son."

"Let Ra be fat, Mom." Miss Lily nodded and gave the baby to me.

I petted him. Give the milk that Miss Lily offered. Before long the baby was silent and willing to drink milk. Ms. Lily seemed to be giving thanks over and over again. The baby snores finely after the milk in the bottle is almost gone. Ah, cute. I'd love to have a baby.

"It's kind of big, Mom?"

"He's on his stomach, Ra. I think it's been over five months. It's just a small body," explained Lily's mother.

"Ra's gonna help me take care of this baby after work, Mom. Ra really wants to have a baby and understand how it feels to be a mother. Ra will try to love this baby even though Ra never felt the affection of Ra's own mother."

"Ra, your mother must be very proud of you. You are a great, hardworking, independent woman. Hopefully what happened to you at this time can be over soon. May God do all your business in the world." Ms. Lily rubbed my head gently like the touch of a biological mother.

"Aamiinu. Thank you, Mom."

"Ra, does your husband know that you live here?"

"So soon she's no longer Ra's husband, Mom. He doesn't need to know that Ra is here. The decision to divorce was unanimous, we should not be together" I replied.

My mind floated at the first time the incident began, when Bang Teguh dark eyes were about to do something heinous to me just to keep me away from Tegar. But when Mas Kukuh came, became a guardian angel for me even though he was finally responsible for what he really did not do. At the same time, the sacred promise was uttered inevitably. Mas Kukuh is a very good and responsible person. I was the one in our household. I am the one who wants divorce. Until finally provoked anger Mas Kukuh.

But I'm right to take steps now. Both I and I deserve to be happy with the people we love.

Drrt

"WHAT?"

"Why, Ra?" ask Miss Lily. I told Miss Lily that information. Just as surprised as I am.