Happy Fajarini

Episode 18's

The space is covered in black clouds that are so dense and evenly distributed. Blocking the horizon ray that had just published its rays, it was now gloomy. Sesuram the current situation when Sukma again asked the truth between me and Mas Kukuh. I've been stuck here for half an hour listening to the dispute between the two of them that never ends.

Although awkward, but I was not as awkward as earlier when the fear of Mas Kukuh will dismantle everything. Luckily, Mas Kukuh is still thinking about the risks if our marriage is exposed now.

"If so, I'd like to quit college. I want us to get married, Mommy."

I gulped the orange juice rough until it made a sound. Sukma's statement as well as request made Mas Kukuh silent instantly. He took off his glasses and stared intensely at Sukma. I'm still listening, waiting for the decision that Mas Kukuh take while biting the pipette.

"Why are you suddenly getting married, honey? Ever since you always refuse if I invite you to marry? And now you want to break your dream?" cerca Mas Sturdy.

"I changed my mind, Mom. Come to think of it, I better get married before you fall in someone else's hands."

"It's falling, Ma. You're late," my inner. Somehow I feel upset and also awkward with the unexpected decision of Sukma.

"Ra, I'm sorry I misunderstood you and accused you of not-no, yes. I'm too jealous of you, Steady. Though I should have known that you wouldn't betray Tegar."

I nodded and then said, "The two of you should talk. You are both adults, it is time for you to formalize your relationship. I'm sure you guys are a fool." I smiled miris. I don't know what is going on in my heart. I am sure that I love Tegar, but my current husband is Mas Kukuh. So it's probably natural that I feel this. Just a sympathetic feeling between the wife for her husband.

I said goodbye after sucking out my drink as fast as lightning.

It's raining heavily this afternoon. A little complicated for the self that had already made the promise of meeting the demon humans that had destroyed everything. My path is in a hurry, down the road that began to be crowded vehicles. I chose to walk because the distance of the restaurant was with the place that the demon man promised was not too far away.

I ran into a cafe a little after putting an umbrella to the officers.

"Sir, where's the table on behalf of Teguh Bromo, huh? I've been traveling since I didn't meet."

"He's in the VIP room, ma'am. Let me take you."

I felt a little uneasy when I heard the statement that the human was waiting for me in the VIP room. What exactly is he planning again? I cursed the man.

"What's wrong?" ask me to sniff after landing my ass on the couch. I kept watching her as if she was stripping me naked through her beautiful eyes.

"Make it impossible for your husband's marriage to his girlfriend."

"No way!"

"Sad. Do you think that after you divorced Steady, then Rigid would accept you as a widow? Don't be so high in dreaming, be happy! You better keep your household and still get Steady. Or you're divorced but you don't get anyone between the two of them."

I'm speechless. Digesting every word Bang Teguh said. I chose to leave him.

"I see you're getting thinner, Ra. Keep health. Sorry," he said as I held the door handle.

"I hate you too much, Ra. I should never have loved you in the past if I ended up hating embedded."

"Don't take care of my life that you've ruined, Bang. I know what's best for myself. Please don't make me more depressed" I replied.

"I will be the first to protect you when the world no longer stands with you, Ra."

"You think I believe the same thing you say? Don't expect more. Remember one thing, you are the cause of all this. I hate you anytime, Bang."

I left that room. Bang Teguh is actually good. But his jealousy and obsession had already closed his eyes. I'm sure Tegar told Bang Teguh everything. But I will never forgive him.

***

"Where are you from?" the baritone voice greeted me who had just stepped foot in.

"Meet Harder" I replied.

"From now on don't see Harder anymore."

"Why? Don't screw me" I replied as I took off my shoes and socks. Responding to it nonchalantly.

"Dec-s"

"Let go of me, then everything will be fine, Mas. You can marry the same person who definitely loves Mas Kukuh. Are you not tired, almost every day we argue, Mas."

"Never talk about it. Only I have the right." His jaw looked hard.

"I'm entitled too, Mom. I have the right to decide what is best for my life. I'll take care of everything now!" exclaim me. My body staggered as I was about to grab my bag.

I hit him on the back as hard as I could. Trying to rebel over what he is doing right now. But it turns out I'm not that strong against his energy that is very passionate tonight. Swears and screams kept coming out of my mouth. My heart is completely broken. Tonight, my husband treated me harshly. Lucky, had not had time to do unification, Mas Kukuh still use his common sense not to hurt me.

"Sorry" he said. His breath is still puffing.

"You are nothing more than a wedge, Mas" I said sobbing. Turn my body behind him.

"Sorry Mas who can't control himself, Dek," he whispered as he hugged me from behind.

"I hate you, Mom."

I opened the window. The wind blows softly. Air enters my nose regularly. Responding to every rough breath of mine. It hit my face very gently, as if it calmed me down. I've almost gone crazy to face this situation. Refrain from making a sound. I am a sinner who wishes to escape the grasp of a husband only for another man. And I don't know the shame I keep on seducing God.