FROM THE HEART

Why You're Not Honest

"Ara.." called Bryan in a limp tone, he tried to walk towards the living room to approach Clara, Kathryn and Riko who were there.

When they turned to look at Bryan, Bryan smiled at them, his eyes began to dim and suddenly he lay unconscious which made Clara shocked and immediately staggered her husband.

"Wake up, why are you?" Clara shook her husband's body hoping Bryan would open his eyes.

"Why are you like this?"

They were all shocked and Bryan was immediately rushed to the hospital.

"Miss Clara, why is your husband only back after 2 years he let this cancer develop in his body" said doctors Sontak Clara shocked to hear her husband had cancer.

"Cancer doc?"

"Sir Bryan has stomach cancer which is why Mr. Bryan can vomit blood, 2 years ago he had chemo here after that he did not come again, I think he was in intensive care in Singapore because I had advised him to go to Singapore.".

"Doc, then can my husband be cured?"

"We can take the surgery, but we can't give much hope the surgery will be successful because the cancer cells spread so quickly to other parts of the body, he said, mr. Bryan can survive all depending on how strong his desire to live, what else now Mr. Bryan is very weak, his blood pressure is also low, he said, we'll wait until his blood pressure is back to normal after that we can operate on him, but miss do not have to worry because stomach cancer surgery is not at risk of death rarely found patients die because of abdominal cancer surgery."

"Dok, please do your best for my husband doc, I don't want to lose my husband." Clara quipped her eyes in tears.

*****

Clara could not sleep, all night she accompanied Bryan in the icu room. The condition of her husband is now so alarming that Clara powerless to hold back tears. Riko was also there accompanying Clara.

"Didi persevered, you must be strong, you must heal for me and our children, the doctor said tomorrow you will be operated on soon, so my husband must be strong yes I believe Didi is a strong person, he said, Didi won't leave us because that's Didi's promise to me." said Clara.

Clara saw Bryan's tears flowing from the edge of her eyes, Bryan could hear Clara's words but he could not open his eyes or move his lips. Clara wiped away every drop of her tears, climbed into Bryan's bed and Clara hugged him until she fell asleep.

Mornings

The doctor and nurse were getting ready for the operation. But had not been brought to the operating room, Clara saw Bryan's heart detection device getting weaker, Clara immediately hit the emergency bell calling a nurse or doctor.

In just a few minutes the heart was very quickly turned into a straight line, Clara screamed hysterically.

"I beg you to open your eyes, Don't joke like this I don't like" said Clara staggering her husband's body.

"Didi, you promised you'd never leave me, let's open your eyes Di, you said we'd always be together caring for and raising our children, are you this weak, are you this weak, don't you want to come with me anymore." said Clara while beating Bryan's stiff body.

"In, I beg you not to go. Never leave me Di.." cried Clara sobbing before her husband's body, while Riko she could do nothing but be stunned unable to hold back tears.

"In, open your eyes.did you not hear my request Di, please don't go.." cried Clara as she shouted and continued to beat Bryan's body, Riko immediately grabbed her so that Clara would stop beating her husband's body.

"Suster, record the time of his death.." the doctor asked, the nurse also noted it.

"Miss, Mr. Bryan is gone." said the nurse.

"No. no doctor, my husband could not have died, he's already pledged to me that he would live for me and our children..." said Clara who still does not believe that her husband is dead.

"Sister-in-law, calm yourself realize that you are home, please let your Master go so that he can leave quietly" said Riko to calm down Clara.

Clara stopped her crying, she came back to her husband's body she could not deny the sadness still enveloped her, tears flowing down her cheeks. Clara hugged Bryan's already stiff and cold body.

"Didi, I promise you I will take care of and raise our children as best we can, go quietly and peacefully by His side." lirih Clara whispered in Bryan's ear and kissed her husband's forehead one last time.

Clara who was in Riko's arms looked at Bryan's body wrapped in a white cloth. Clara is powerless to endure the grief she has to lose a truly loved one.

"Rik, my husband is gone, he left us." - Clara.

"Patience sister-in-law, brother-in-law must be strong for the sake of children, they have lost a father do not let them have to lose a sister as well." said Riko while wiping away Clara's tears.

"This is the fate of brother-in-law, life and death of someone only belongs to the almighty, when he takes someone's life it means he loves that person very much. We all know, Mr. kindhearted person, his heart is very noble, I beg you not to continue to dissolve in sadness, you must be able to let you go so that you can leave peacefully." explained Riko, who is the best friend, he tried to strengthen the heart of Clara who was currently so weak helpless.

Clara was silent, her heart began to feel calm, now she began to rethink her children who will always be the reason she can be strong through all this.

*****

Today is the day Bryan's body will be buried. Everyone flocked to Bryan's funeral to pay their last respects to a kind-hearted person like Bryan.

Bryan's sudden departure left many wounds and impressions on the hearts of those closest to him.

They remember Bryan as an unsung hero because Bryan has helped so many people in need, especially for orphanage children, Bryan secretly donated some of his wealth to orphans, he said, everyone found out about it after the orphanage foundation's caretaker exposed the truth.

The funeral was over. Riko, Kathryn, and Clara's parents are still accompanying the reluctant Clara to stop staring at her husband's grave.

"Didi, you are calm there." said Clara while holding Bryan's headstone.

Clara tried hard, she could only endure the deep sadness, which seemed to have destroyed her world at this time. He tried to smile and be strong for the sake of his little baby.

Clara kissed her husband's headstone as a sign of her great love and will always dwell in her heart. Riko and Kathryn help him stand up, to immediately bring Clara home so that Clara can quickly rest and the day is also late.

*****

Clara sat on the edge of the bed still reflected fond memories of being with Bryan, so much happiness that Bryan painted in his heart, but now that he's alone there's no more laughter in every way he'll close his eyes or open his eyes. It was difficult for him to get through the days without Bryan who had always been the spirit and protector of his life. Now only the word miss is terbesit in the mind of Clara, longing that will never be treated again.

Clara could not resist the fate of the Divine, every encounter must be parting, that is how the life of every living being will surely be lost when the time comes. God never gives a hard trial for his people, just how sincere the way we live the destiny that has been outlined for us then we will find happiness. That's how Clara was always strong even though her heart was screaming.

"Didi, even if you're not here but you're always in my heart." said Clara, hugging a picture of her husband.

Tears that tried Clara weirs finally dripped wet the picture of the husband. Clara kissed her picture and hugged her back, feeling so heavy for her to have to live without Bryan by her side. Clara can still smile despite the weight she still forced to smile despite the burden on her heart.

Clara is about to put Bryan's photo back on the nightstand, but Riko breaks Clara's daydream.

"Miss, I found this in the office, in Master's drawer." Riko handed Clara a large box.

Clara received the gift. He sat in bed to open the gift.

"I still accept your gift, even though you are gone, so much is your love for me, Di.." Clara cried tears opened her box slowly.

After opening the box Clara found a small red box and there were several other gifts. Clara was just pointing at the red box, and then she opened it.

"Hi Araku." Bryan's scream.

"Didi... Didi. you're here..."

Clara felt Bryan was calling her name so she stare at the room looking for her husband, but she realized it was all just her imagination because she missed Bryan so much.

Letter: For My Wife and My Children

**Maybe when you read this letter, I am no longer by your side, I'm sorry Ara, I have to keep this disease a secret from you, I don't want to make you sad and burdened if you know I'm sick. Ara, the goal in my life is only one that is to make you and our family happy.

You know, Ara, I always pray to God that I will be given the opportunity to see our children, even though I cannot see them growing up, but I always wished I could see and accompany my wife to give birth to my children.

And I am so grateful to still be given the opportunity to see them born into this world, caring for and keeping them together with you even for a moment. Honestly Ara, if I faced 2 choices, then I will continue to ask to live longer, but it turns out that God has outlined my destiny until here.

Ara, if you love me then wipe away your tears, so that I can go quietly by His side. You have to keep smiling even without my presence, rest assured Ara I am always in your heart, accompanying every step of your foot, I am sure Ara you can definitely pass through.

I love you my wife, you and our children must always be happy.the spirit, the spirit, the spirit, the spirit of my dear wife, keep fighting for our children...

Greetings to your husband: Bryan Duke Mirza**.