Frisson

Debates

I'm sure my eyeballs were rounded just now. Hearing him say something I already knew, I was shocked. How did he know that now Han is with Kayla?

"I don't know what she's thinking, but that's why .. she doesn't really change."

"That order let me and Han take care of it. You don't have to interfere. We can handle it," hissisku couldn't stand it. Please Ga. Don't shake me. I was determined to rebuild my home. I don't want everything to fall apart.

"Is your pregnancy healthy?" ask Gara who started leaning his back on the body of the chair. Sighs.

"Of course."

"Finally you are bound in a bond that is hard to break, Zi. The baby." Because sigh. I'm silent. The guilt still exists. Because I'm the ringleader of this man to be like this. Because of my selfishness he was hurt.

Zia's pregnancy strengthened Han's and his wife's relationship. It made Gara feel defeated without a fight. All that makes Gara restless.

"Sorry." I said that with a clean slit. Closing her eyes for a moment.

The short relationship hurt him.

"You must have gotten a better replacement than just a woman like me. I'm sure." I mean comforting. Even though it felt bland, but I couldn't stay still after taking her heart and throwing it away. Because of looking to the side. Towards me who was also looking towards him. I turned my face away so I wouldn't look.

"Dispose of your faith, Zi. It's just a cliche entertainer phrase for me. For now there is no other woman to fill my mind but you." Because I said it with a bitter face. I'm down.

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I don't know when Han came, because after Gara came home I waited for Han to fall asleep. Looks like he moved me to the bed. Because I feel soft under my body. I got up and looked for that figure. Apparently Han was sitting on the balcony with a cup of tea in his hand. Looks like it's a holiday because he's not getting ready for work.

"Are you awake, baby?" asked Han who saw me walking towards him.

"Yes" I said and chose to sit in the other seat.

"I'm sorry I couldn't wake you up. I see you're tired."

"Yes. I'm tired." My lips do not argue. "So where exactly are you going, Han?" I don't seem to want to linger with bad thoughts about Kayla.

"I'm meeting ..."

"Kaila?" guess I cut the sentence off. Han quiet. "Be honest." My face turned away from him. I'mtired. Already intending to rebuild a messy household, in fact he lied behind. It feels free to fight.

"How to come visit you?" Surprised Han asked about Gara. My face was bent hearing it.

"Is he talking about Kayla?" My shoulders go up and down with a breath.

"Why? You don't like your sister unpacking everything?"

"You still love him?"

"Han! What are you really talking about?" Blood boils. Han quiet. "Stop talking about Gara. I'm mad at Kayla." No longer able to talk much, I chose to move away from the chair towards the nightstand in the room. Take my phone and show it to Hanen. Photos sent by someone. Hanen and Kayla both. "I'm talking about this" I said.

Hanen's eye beads looked towards the image of her on the phone.

"Where did you get it?"

"Jawab it's me. What are you doing there? Appointment with client? A fella? Or an ex-lover?" I felt the heat stinging my body from anger and annoyance. It's like Dejavu. I've experienced this. When he just married me and stayed with Kayla.

"It's not what you think."

"What thoughts do I have in mind when I see you having dinner with Kayla? Must be suspicious, angry. There's no way I think you're in business with him. So what's your excuse for this evidence?"

"I'm not dating Kayla, Zia ..."

"Then? I'm here by myself, while you're at ease having dinner with him? Don't play me anymore, Han. If it can't be together, it's better to separate."

"Zi! I am also determined to repair our relationship. Don't say separate."

"What is your purpose?" about me being impatient. If the beginning of the marriage I just keep quiet and feel sad, this time it must be firm.

"It concerns the two of you," Han said with a solemn, but mellow face.

"Two?" ask me with a heart beat too fast. "What do you mean, Han?"

"If I refuse the dinner invitation, Kayla will make it public about your relationship. Your love story with Gara." I know Han spoke the facts. There was a love story between me and my sister-in-law, but now it feels like I'm slapping.

"So you mean you're protecting me now? Or do you cover up your mistakes?"

"I have to close that story. It's not the public I'm worried about, but you. Especially your family." I was silent hearing it. My feet stepped up to sit back. The story of Gara and I must be hidden. Then what would you say if you knew that our story had to be erased in my mind, Ga? You must be angry.

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