Frisson

Not a winner

"I accept Han's offer. I backed off," Gara said in the end.

Gara ..., Inner Zia.

Hearing that, the tears of Zia suddenly broke. Until he himself is confused to remove it. Repeatedly erasing, the next tear continued to melt. Hanen caught Zia's trembling hand wiping away the tears. Then he helped Zia wipe it. This woman was sobbing that Han had to embrace the increasingly vibrating body.

Zia's cry exploded in Hanen's embrace. Rara wiped her tears. He's been so full. Mama was hugged by papa because she was crying too. Throwing your face in the other direction. His hands under the table clenched hard. His decision to accept Han's offer was not his real wish. He just wanted to save Zia from the worries. He took one of Zia's choices until he could no longer choose.

"So, Zia ... What about you?" Papa started asking. Hanen had already released Zia's body. The woman was no longer crying like that. "Take decisions that you think are good. We will not blame you for the outcome of that decision. Because it was a mistake to start with us who thought Hanen would be a good husband."

"I ... " Zia's sentence was paused by the lingering cry. "I didn't choose anyone. Since the beginning Hanen has been my husband." As she said so, Zia simply stared straight ahead. Towards his father-in-law. He didn't want his sight to rub with Gara. It could melt it again.

Although it sounded selfish, Zia made this decision with a wounded heart as well. I smiled bitterly hearing it. Rara knew her brother's feelings. Until it doesn't feel like the water is melting again.

Although the like family accepted whatever decision he would make, he also had to think about his family back home. There's no way she told her mother that she was having an affair with Gara because Hanen hurt her. You must be so embarrassed and hurt. He chose to try to reconcile with Han. Yes, the man she loved, and the one who always hurt her.

This decision is cruel and stupid. Zia and Gara knew that.

"So you received him back and ... " Mama was about to name Gara, but was soon dropped. Seeing the look on his second son's face, he knew for sure that his son was also injured. More hurt than Hanen. "So you're willing to accept Han back as your husband?" Zia nodded slowly.

Seeing the nod of his daughter-in-law's head, the mother immediately stood up. Papa and Rara who were near mama were astonished. It turned out that mama approached Zia then ducked down. Forcing his knees into a pedestal for his body to be able to hug his daughter-in-law who was sitting on the sofa.

"Mama ..., " said Zia restrained. All eyes didn't expect Mama to do this. Papa approached and asked him to stand up. Mama shook her head. Papa was forced to stay close to his wife.

"Thank you for being patient and for being Hanen's wife, even if she hurt you. Mama's very grateful to you."

"Don't do this, Ma. Mama doesn't deserve to kneel to me. I'm a nobody. Stand up, Ma." Zia tried to force her in-laws not to hug her while kneeling. But mom's embrace was so tight. Until Zia is unable to revolt. Rara, Gara and Papa can only see their mother hugging and apologizing to Zia. There's nothing to do anymore. So they let Mom do what she wanted to do.

"I'm sorry for all the inappropriate treatment of our son. Mama is embarrassed not to be able to educate mama's son, well." said mama again.

"No, Ma. It's not Mama's fault. Han, please make mama not do this," Zia pinta in a hoarse voice.

"Mama stand up," pinta Han who was standing near Zia. He was about to touch his mother's body but was restrained by his words.

"Shut up, Han. You will become miserable if you again injure Zia. If you hurt her again, it means you hurt Mama too. Remember what Mom said." Han stopped forcing his mother again. His body froze at the threat of his mother.

"Han," said Gara. Han stopped his steps. Seeing Han stop, Gara began to speak, "My decision of letting you win over Zia is not the way for you to hurt her anymore, Han. I gave up not wanting to see him suffer" Gara said at the front door of the reading room.

Zia who turned her back on Gara closed her eyes. The water is about to break again.

Don'tdon't. Don't cry anymore.

"I'm not the Hanen I used to be. I really wanted to treat her wound because of me. Don't worry about that."

"We can still be friends and sisters-in-law despite the hardships, Zi. I'll keep an eye on Hanen to make sure for myself that all of her words aren't just bullshit." She stared hard at Han. This man felt that gaze stab at his back. "Hopefully be happy, Zi."

Zia was no longer able to hold back her tears. Again she was crying. After that Gara went to the outside door. It seems like the man is reluctant to be home. He wanted to kill the bitter feeling outside and alone.

Unbeknownst to anyone, Gara wiped a tear at the end of her bead. Then it darted out in a medium-speed car.

Zia's cry was still left. However Han patiently accompanied the reluctant Zia to sleep.

"I'm sorry, Zi," Han said as he sat next to this woman.

"Enough apologies. Better just show me how you fix it." Zia repeatedly wiped away the remaining tears.

"Thank you for taking me back."

"You are still my husband. It's just that you yourself eliminated me and obscured my position as a wife because of someone else" Zia replied in a hoarse voice in tears. Although his face was swollen with tears, he was still able to give this man a sharp look.

"This time is not so, Zi," Han said as he grabbed Zia's hand and kissed her. "Sleep. You must be so tired." Zia was just following the instructions from Han. He lay down while tilting to the opposite side of Han.

This man knows it's not easy to forgive himself. Gently, Han covered part of Zia's body with a blanket. Then he himself tried to close his eyes.

Behind Han's back, Zia cried again. He's still thinking about Gara. Especially when he heard the roar of the man's car darting out in the night.

Gara ... You know you're not okay. But I hope you can stand up straight. I'm sorry once again. Thank you for your prayers. I will also pray for your happiness.

Hanen heard the sobs. He himself could not sleep. Even though he himself was among the winners. Han remained sad. Zia still refused with him. He hasn't been on the podium number one winning Zia's heart. Han was only declared the winner without any trophies and successes. The road is still long if you want to be called a real winner.