Floating Boat

62

...Feeling Guilty...

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"I'm really hurt by your treatment, Eden. If it wasn't for the rest of this pain not being caused by the love that was still a little imprinted in my feelings, maybe better, we split up first. But, what do I want to say to your parents, especially your mother, if I can't bring my promise to them."

On that long sofa, Miss is venting her anger. An angry miss is so great it can't simply forgive her "in my opinion, we were alone for a while. Until this pain is gone, I'm just thinking whether it's back or gone forever from you."

"So, our wedding plans are next Sunday, how are they ?."

"Still you ask about our marriage ?. Right now, I am not thinking of getting married, maybe you are too ?. Our marriage is only possible if our hearts and feelings are not at stake because of the selfishness of our behavior."

"Lost, I regret it. I don't deserve to be your husband. I'd rather die if I were to part with you. I was tempted by her, I was fooled by her seduction, she was too smart for a slightly confused heart to think about your family's decision on our marriage. I forgot that it happened, it would lead me to a problem I could regret, Miss. I'm sorry, Miss !"

"I'm wrong, it's easy ! Confessing to regret, it was very quick. Even a child would say the same thing if he made a mistake, but in order to correct the hurt feelings of being able to heal by simply admitting your mistake, I forget that tonight, at the dock, I did, I saw two B*** savages who were going beyond their own ethics."

"I'm not B**, Miss."

"Then what ? If it's not B***."

"Lost, don't let your anger burn all your feelings for me, even a mountain will burn with that anger."

"That's it !" There's nothing to talk about between us anymore. "From the initial breakup that occurred, maybe you've done this kind of thing with Anggun or Resky right ?" And now you repeat it again. "Do I have to be the one to always give up or do you deserve to do this sick ?."

Night mourning should be a time of rest for withered love. For flowers that fall from the twigs for some hope that still wants to combine romance. Just this morning, not enough 24 hours, in his own room, they hit the cord of affection, they grasped the threads of love, tonight stormy because of love.

Is there a heart that is not hurt if disappointed. The eyes are made to cry, and miss swallowing simalakama that nudges her.

"Lasso..." From the outside, the courtyard of the house, a male voice called out to Miss, who walked into the house. "Lasso..." C'mon ! Forget him, is that the man you tell me so much. The man who made you so sure, the man you've even seen tonight made a fatal mistake, he can't give you happiness much less be your husband."

"Who is he, Miss ?" So that's the young man who almost married you first. "I know, maybe for this reason, he's present between our relationships so that, I feel from every family, especially your Daeng, as if burdening me with various desires that I can not understand especially about our marriage decisions that seem to impose his will."

The quarrel, the tension of the condition increasingly becomes between Eden and Miss.

"You shouldn't answer like that, Eden. What did I do ? Did you see me make a mistake that could strain our relationship. So, that's your excuse ? Because my family's decision seems excessive to make you take another way to decide a step like this. You don't have to question who he is ? It doesn't matter you know who he is ?. If you want to know, who is he ? I'll tell you. He is the one who until now so every waiting for my love, he has always given me hope to maintain our relationship. But it is already ! You'll only understand if I'm married to someone else."

"Yes, that's it !" I think, this relationship of ours, we're ending tonight. "There's nothing more to talk about." I give up, I lose, Eden ! You won because you gave me hope and after that, you destroyed it at will."

"Then, on the same dock, when I didn't have anything, you did the same to me. You believed so much in a woman who claimed to have been smeared, without hearing my explanation, you immediately kicked me out. You forgot me that day, you forgot how I felt that day. Tonight, outside of everything you see, you want us to end this relationship. Relationships that we have been fighting for, relationships that we have been cultivating for a long time, and we are building. It's okay, if this is your decision then this is our choice. We choose the views and pain of both of us, and no longer maintain resentment, hatred between us so that at other times, we may think, there is a heart that has been built up yet, but, choose to separate."

"No !" I would never think so. "If I think of it any other time, I will find my own reason for happiness."

"Levil, talking is easy."

"Yes, talking regretfully is easy too. What is not easy is to repair the damaged ones. If you hadn't hung up on me and picked up my phone to talk about the seriousness of our relationship, it wouldn't have been like this. I know, when you came home after hearing my family's decision that we were going to marry next Sunday, there was no joy I saw in your face until you sent me an SMS with "i'm confused" content", actually I understand that. However, why didn't I respond by asking you why you were confused. The reason is, I only care about our happiness, our love, our relationship, not your confusion that I want to know from you. At least, I've understood that it was that decision that then made you take another path, parting to never know again."

"Separate ?."

"Yes, part !."

"Long, stop ! Don't be so angry. You can kill me or hurt me, just forgive me, miss me !."

"Have you said !." Fresh with his emotions. "I don't like the way you treat Misses like this."

"Who are you ? Don't interfere, it's my business with Miss." Firmly Eden to him.

"What's Missing's business, it's my business. You think, which woman would forgive your depraved behavior after knowing that it was a fatal mistake. Even I as a man very distrustful, a Phinisi businessman whose name is known in the region of South Sulawesi actually behaves B***."

"Fresh, let's go home ! How sorry he is, in my eyes, he is not the Eden I once knew. I forbid my love for her and I don't want to see her again after this."

"Miss, your decision is hard for me to believe. If it's my fault that it makes you have to end our relationship tonight, I accept. I'll never again tease or even remember your name."_

"Go home ! Here, let me lament what I've done. Maybe tonight we can still look at you badly, but for the reason of separation, I'll let you go forever."

Every meeting will have a farewell and every farewell will leave memories. Memories that may be twisted or happy are a form of love.

"Never give in to the conditions", the hitchhiking that could do nothing could only comfort Eden with words. Miss, go home without sending a message that he will return.