Floating Boat

14

...Not Phinisi Hope and Waiting...

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You left yesterday as if it had been a month. What if one month you leave, I will lose my spirit for one year.

Morning, evening and even night, I was just by the beach. Waiting for you, every boat that came I thought was your Phinisi who came with a thousand of our hopes, it turns out only small boats belonging to fishermen who came carrying fish.

Not simple ! it's complicated to explain to the beach sand grains that I'm waiting for you. Even the fishing boats that have just arrived will not be able to contain the amount of my heart that yearns every minute.

From here, another roaring sound of engines from the tip of the island. I stood to look at it, only a small starlight in the sky illuminated the ship that was about to enter the dock in front of the village. It is unclear whose ship ? I just saw it in white.

My joy raised my hope that it was your ship. Again, it was not your ship that came but a passenger ship from the next island.

"What's wrong with me ?. Missing will not come ! he just left. Where could he come back here again" just told me the restlessness that was lodged in my heart.

Just a few hours while I was at the beach. My friends who used to call me play guitar came to me on the beach. They came to see me just to tell me not to think too much about that City woman.

"Eden, we were at your house, your mother said you were here. That's why we came to meet here. Ever since you got to know the lady of that City, we've been hard-pressed to meet you, together like you used to be, rejoicing as you are without a burden"

"If you think about it more, you will get hurt more. He's gone ! while you're the one who's tormented here. You never know, maybe once he gets to the City, in his village, he'll forget you here."

Their words seemed to hit my racial sensibility on Miss. Want to get angry at them, I can't ! want to tell me not to say that to me, they told me the truth.

"I want to go home ! Please for now, don't bother me just yet !."

I immediately stood up leaving them, all the feelings that hurt my feelings came with me towards the house.

When I got home, my mother was waiting for me for dinner.

My taste is gone. Want to do nothing, I'm not excited, like losing my way for a time I don't know.

This is the pain of being away from the people we love. Especially when love, feelings, really just starting to grow, just starting to bloom, just starting to smell, immediately not splashed with water then become withered.

I headed to the room, ignoring my mother's little call calling me to dinner.

"I'm still full, Mom !. I'm going to bed first, ma'am." My heart goes out to my mother who was waiting for me.

"You don't want to sleep but miss. I know, you're hungry just because it's that longing that makes you not want to eat. What is difficult if you eat first. When you are finished you go to sleep. Later if you are sick who bothers you must be your mother and father. Instead of you going to the beach waiting for his Phinisi to come bring Miss, he won't come. Kan, you know for yourself, he just left this village. What love is trying to be lodged in your head and heart so as to keep the meal time alone must be reminded. Eden, the boy must be stronger than the girl, you are so saddened to be abandoned by Miss. He must have missed you more. Mom used to be like that, falling in love with your dad but it's normal. For the food, I always remember. This, you have only experienced it once, parted once, the loyals many times. How if many times separated would not want to eat too many times."

"Yes, you sleep first only if your headache increases do not call Mom yes. Call the name Rindu as hard as it is, sayin through the wind just let it to his ear."

Be present ! This mother, it's adding to my heart tonight. In fact, I want to find the rest of the traces of the lover in the room he occupied.

"Yes, all right ! Eden's there to eat, ma'am."

"Well, that's so good !. Where's dad, Mom ?."

"Your father, ordinary ! he's still at his friend's house."

When I sat next to my mother. Not long after, the sound of machines from the direction of the sea was heard again. I thought I must have missed it. I speed up my meal, I want to go back to the beach to see the ship that came.

My mother noticed me from earlier. He laughed to see me eating like a race guy.

"Eat it slowly, son. Where are you going to eat in such a hurry ?. You want to go to the beach again ? I think after eating, you want to go straight to sleep. It's a ship that doesn't sound Phinisi Miss. The new time to go is coming again. Just eat slowly, don't mind the ship."

Just this time, I became a man who was bewildered by love. Is this how it is if you just love a woman ? is it because he went by Phinisi until every sound of the ship from the sea was always he I thought had come.

Not in a state of happiness. I'm worried, I should be happy because Miss brings our hope to the front of her family.

I went back to my room after I finished eating. The cuddle pillow worn by Miss every night I make friends vent. I told him a lot about myself and him, about our love, about our feelings. Like someone who lost his mind. I have to talk to whom to tell all my complaints other than the tracks I'm currently hugging.

If this pillow could talk, he would talk to me to let go or he would laugh at me and talk to me, "don't hug me like you hug the woman you love. I'm sick with that big hug."

Yeah.huh...! it would hurt if I hugged Miss because I would give her a reminder that she will never forget. Let him be mad or something but I'm sure he won't be mad at me.

Long time I talk to this pillow until the sleepiness is gone. I'm out in front of the house for a little while to see the black sky up there.

Always be ready at the place of changing colors. I say to the true star, "little star, when I look at you then convey my message through your light, speak to the Miss of the present, whether he was still on a boat in the middle of the sea or he had reached Makassar. Talk to him, I'm here just hugging a bolster pillow that he always hugs in his sleep. Talk to him, I'm here like a little laron who flies here and there, stops somewhere in the end also dies. Speak to him, hurry back, for I am not only suffering but my soul is wounded by the freezing of taste"

Silence without answer. I was depressed by the time that didn't lead me to dream dreams in my sleep. Not only did I become strange, but all sides confirmed my attitude that I was indeed strange.

Sitting leaning too tired, I stood also tired, entered the room also can not sleep. What happened to me ? should I be like this, like forgetting myself. My mother said that love can drive people crazy and lose their normal direction. Love is a mystery even though he is real but when he is lost then all happiness is lost.

I feel that. He went with my hope, only his Phinis who every morning and even the night I always look forward to, may he be there, came waving a romantic screen, a screen of love for me waiting here.

Miss, don't be long yes, I fell asleep by bringing his face into my sleep.