Floating Boat

15

...The Pajero Ship...

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He lied to me, he did play the word for a belief I entrusted him with. My heart has sunk the ocean, long waiting for a dream he did not fulfill. His studies were ignored, what the heck he had to lie to a good heart, be honest with him, faithfully waiting for him turned out to be nothing but the whistling of an invisible night bird.

Miss, don't you hurt me by waiting here for you. I'm also human like you, this pain is a sign of my love knowing you. Should it be like this, should you hide behind my expectations or you indeed want me to wait for you for good, aging unaccompanied life because our promise has not been fulfilled.

Missing, there is a ship that in the near future will sail to Makassar. I'll come along, get on that ship, like you told me to catch up with you in Makassar if you don't come back.

Pajero ships such as Phinisi are fast and large, sailing even engined. The difference, Pajero is the name for a ship that comes from the direction of the sea that I do not know, whether it belongs to the Bugis or not. This ship, the owner is also a woman whose beauty is not much different from you. He came to the village with the aim of selling items that are needed by many people in the village.

Do you not feel my presence, Miss. I want to go see you soon. If the owner of this Pajero says he loves me, do you not mind forgetting me here, Miss.

You will definitely object and might get angry if you know. But what about me you left behind ?. Even anger will not be able to explain the pain and longing that I crave.

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I began to wonder at the owner of the Pajero ship. Ask about Makassar, about Bugis who are many Phinisinya, about you who used to be here. He doesn't know you at all, he just told me that Makassar is big and wide. A City with an extraordinary range of development, a City with a variety of humans.

I wanted to tell him honestly that I wanted to ride on his ship. Just because many people are still choosing clothes, clothes and others. Finally I put it off but obviously, I'll tell her that I want to hitchhike.

On that occasion, I waited for him. Waiting until there is really no one who chooses the goods anymore. When the goods began to be packed, just to help him, I ventured to express my intentions to him.

"Miss, is it okay if I come with you to ride on the ship you brought to Makassar ?."

Maybe because he was surprised at me who made my request. He smiled and said, "where are you ? and why go to Makassar ?."

There's no way I'm telling you the truth, why should I go to Makassar. If he finds out, maybe he won't call me to come with them.

"I'm real here. Just a walk in Makassar City. Like you said, Makassar is a big city with its exotic variety, I want to see and pit my fate there. If Miss allows me, I owe you one, Miss."

"Just this, you help me clean up all my stuff. After this, we will talk again. I'm just surprised, why you want to go to Makassar when there life is more difficult and dangerous."

"What do you mean, what is it ?."

"Yes, in addition to a lot of development, we find many young people who sometimes with the heart to hurt their partners. Take away her chastity and go somewhere ?. In addition to the injuries left behind, it was also a disaster for the family. You want to go there, I'm the one from there, I throw myself into remote areas like this to make money."

Wow, this woman even broke my spirit. He seemed to know I meant that I would meet a woman, my love, and my life in Makassar.

"What's your name ?." The lady asked my name.

"I !."

"Yes, you !."

"Me, Eden. I was born here and grew up here."

"Don't call me Miss. My name is Queen Resky Amalia !."

"That name or what ?" with a smile, I bowed my face.

"Did you see that ship I brought with me some friends ?."

"Yes, I see ! why is it ?."

"That ship, why would I give you the name Pajero. Because long ago, I had a lover named Pajero. A man who came from a rich family, was seen, owned a lot of land, people saw it as if they saw Money. He was so kind, friendly to others, he loved me so much. Because we had different economic status, different social classes, different lives, our love finally foundered. He married not me but an equal woman, balanced with her, who was worthy of his family's eyes. I, I was thrown away like trash, though I begged, I did not get a helping hand from his family. Because of my great love, who loved him until I decided to turn myself into a traveling merchant by passing through the high seas like this. I immortalized his name to be the name of the ship I now carry"

"You don't even know why I'm telling you this kind of story."

"No !."

"Your words, I saw the shadow of a woman standing holding a flower. In your mind, I see there is a glimmer of hope that you want to meet in Makassar, every question you just asked me, I get the knowledge that you want to meet someone there."

I'm confused myself. Wonder how he knows everything in me has to do with Missing. I was curious about him until I called him home.

"Resky, how do you know what I'm thinking. Is it okay if I take you to my house so you can tell me the reason why you know what I'm thinking."

"Oh ! it was just a guess. Like my ship that will soon sail through the great waves, like I am leaving this village, that is how I see hope in you"

"No need to go to your house, just follow me to the ship so I tell you where I can find out what's on your mind."

I'm getting excited. For a moment, Missing was the biggest motivation in me. His belongings have been finished I put in the sack, the cart has been waiting to load all Resky's belongings. The people there saw me there were even some who did not believe me who were this fast familiar with this rich woman.

I drove the cart full of stuff to the dock. There his Pajero docked, that's where Phinisi belonged to Miss also docked while he was here.

Looking at me, my mother called me. My mom was looking for me.

"Eden, where are you going ?."

Because a little far away, I waited for him for a while. Resky also stopped to wait for my mother.

"Who is he ?" resky told me.

"He's my mom !."

"Oh ! call him, let him both come down to my Pajero."

Once there, my mother told me to go home.

"Mom, just a cent !. Eden, just want to help me get the stuff, ma'am. Mum, see it ?! it's a lot, it's heavy again. Mom's time could see him pushing his stuff alone."

"You who do not see, Eden. He's with his friend, your half-dead time helping him."

In our little debate, our simple perceptions. Resky said his thanks to my mother.

"Mom, Mother's Son is good ! he is easy to help people. If you don't mind, I'll call him to Makassar. Mother's son, will be part of ABK's Pajero ship mine."

"How is it ?. Eden, I've never been away from you all this time. Can it be yes ? he's on your ship ?."

"Well, we'll talk on the ship. We will decide there. Whether Eden can or not, come with me."

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Hope is at the end of the road. After fiercely asking for my mother's consideration, I was finally allowed to come with Resky to Makassar. Now, I was in the ocean, beginning to turn my back on my island, beginning to dig out the dreams that Miss brought.

My curiosity for Resky, who said that he saw a woman's shadow in my eyes, now I ask him.

He still looks busy. Just like Miss, smart to hold and control the steering wheel of his ship. When all the ABKs of the ship had fallen asleep, I went to him only to ask him how he could find out that I wanted to meet the woman I loved so much.

In the engine noise, he greeted me rather loudly. Calling me closer, he understood that I was still curious.

"Ask your curiosity now to me ?"

I tried to lure him onto a ship that was not too noisy with the sound of the engine.

"Resky, how about we get on the boat ? here, even if I ask, maybe you won't listen too much, is it okay ?."

"Can !. Please wake up one man to control the wheel."

I followed his direction. The youngest I built to control the rudder of Pajero's ship.

We got on the boat, the night breeze started to cool my body, Resky looked cold too. I started to wonder at him. The first thing I asked was what kind of shadow the woman he saw in my eyes.

"Resky, there's a lot I want to ask but to sum it up, just tell me, what kind of shadow of a woman do you see in my eyes ?."

"Eden, can you tell me what the name of the woman you love is before I actually answer your question ?."

"At that time, he gave me his name, there were two, first Aliya and the second Missing. The familiar name that I have today embedded in my heart is Miss."

"Do you know who that woman is ?"

"No !. I just knew that he had promised me to come back to pick me up here. She had even forgotten about me after bringing all my love wishes to her. Even that promise he made in front of my mother. That's why when my mom saw me pushing your wagon, she called me home. Kan, you've heard for yourself what my mother told you that day."

"Do you really want to know who the woman you love is, who she says loves you too. Are you sure he loves you, Eden ?."

Even what Resky said made me even more confused. I don't understand what he's saying. Turning back my tongues is one who does not understand, which Pajero ship belongs to him.

"Ouch ! don't do it, Resky" I said quietly following the cold wind tonight.

"Eden, say your love to the woman who truly loves you. Missing, even though she may love you, she will not be yours. Missing, even though he may have promised you, he will no longer be able to see you, he has come a long way. Like you who have been far away chasing illusions, like I was once just released by my lover, like Pajero who played with the waves in this open sea. Missing, having forgotten you, she may be currently smiling or laughing, she forgot there is a man from a small village who is now on board the ship I want to meet her in Makassar. You know Eden, the woman you love is a child of the owner of the island of South Sulawesi."

"I mean ?."

"He is the son of the Governor of South Sulawesi who controls the regions of South Sulawesi including your small island."

Hearing that, I fell so deeply silent. I thought of the fate of my love that had already loved her. Assault alone, everywhere, he was always escorted by two women and his Phinis guarded by four men. Turns out he's been lying to me all along. She is the son of the number one person in Makassar City, she is the most appreciated woman in Makassar City.

My dream is empty hope. There's no way I can live side by side with him. There was no way I could meet him in Makassar, there was no way I would be accepted by his family. This might make Miss to not come back to my village.

"But, how did you know that he was the son of a Governor ?. Didn't you ever see it in person ?."

"Yes, right !. I never saw him in person. Aliya's name she told you was her father's short name. That's why, he told you not to tell anyone his name. And was he in your village, if he went, slept, and wherever he was accompanied by two women?, four men guarding his ship ?."

"Where do you know about that ?."

"Yes, I know ! because in Makassar, he went always with those six people. Two women are policewomen, four men are police as official aides."

This is bad !. I just realized it tonight. It was fortunate that my bad intentions to her at that time were not so I did. Otherwise, I could go to jail.

Stress thinking. I was shocked to hear Resky's explanation just now. The coldness of the night is no longer felt.

In the drought of my heart, I no longer had any hope of meeting him. I stared at my distant island, just a little red light on the ceiling of the island, I wanted to go back to my village, I did not want to continue this journey.

However, Resky's Pajero took me far away to Makassar.

I told Resky to sleep, to calm my mind, mind, and body, Longing to lie to me for a reason that was conducive to me.

"Eden, don't be disappointed !. The night is long, the day will still pass. This life do not rely on feelings but look at a deep sincerity of the people you love. Look at my face, whether you see the disappointment in my face or you see that I am hurt, which you will see, is awakening through time in search of a more loyal and responsible life partner."

He told me to look at his face. When all ABK Pajero has been soundly asleep. I followed her wish, which was true, I saw a face that was no less beautiful than Miss. Don't let this be a nuisance tonight, cold wanted warmth, I say goodbye to Resky.

"Resky, I'm going to bed. Honestly, I saw your face in this state of gloom, so beautiful, you were born as a woman who lacked nothing."

No answer from him. He just looked a little embarrassed in front of me. I stood up and went inside his Pajero. Leaving her on board in a state of enduring her cold night.

Miss, lie to me. I know you're waiting for me not what Resky told me just now because I'm sure, in Makassar, you're waiting for me. If later I meet you in Makassar and I am disappointed that you did not accept me, I sincerely accept Miss.