Floating Boat

13

...Trying Smile...

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When you first came here, I never knew, who were you going to meet ?. Even when I saw you that night, I still didn't understand that a woman as beautiful as you would receive love from a man with a coastal complexion like me.

Just a quick glance you come and you also go. Now, your Phinis brought you from before me. Back then, when you were here, still at home, while still chatting with my grief and my loyalty. Where when his students came to my house, wanted to take you to the dock.

Not only did I shed tears because of the imbalance of my lost heart but they also wept over your departure.

Tears call out your name, a name that they are no stranger to in the long run. They will remember you and your smile, the kind smile you used to give them in the school room.

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When on the dock everything spills...

"Master teacher, Ma'am teacher is back. We'll miss Mother teacher, don't go too long teacher. Who will give us indoor snacks while studying" the students told Miss.

There was nothing to say but a cry between Miss and her students decorating the state of the pier. Hugging his disciple, he looked at me, staring at the man he loved, and was also increasingly concerned about his sad face.

I tried to hold back the tightness in my chest despite the fact that I was sad, trying to hold on and strengthen myself so that he would leave in a state of carrying our dreams.

The people who were there knew that we were each hurt. This state of affairs is not a kind of forever departure that will never meet again. A situation that more reflects the mismanagement atmosphere between the two of us experiencing uncertainty, confused and want to stay together forever.

I was a bit away, he started to let go of his embrace to his students. To get on his Phinisi ship. However, there was a turmoil he wanted to convey to me that was still held back by the shame in front of the many people.

My mother who also helped usher Miss the dock that might see the direction of my vision is always focused on Missing. Tell me, "Eden, we better go home ! don't linger here, son. You'll cry if you're here. What kind of boy wants to cry for a woman ?."

"Why is this mom ?. Who's gonna cry, Mom ?."

"You want to hide again by holding back your tears. If you cry here, miss, maybe you won't leave or maybe you will be laughed at by the people who are here. You want, if everyone here is mocking you ?."

"Why is this mom ?. Eden doesn't want to cry about his loss. Eden was sad to see his disciples crying. Eden was moved by Bu to see them."

"Eden, I know, you hold back your tears. This is what I told you not to open your heart to that City woman. You're the only one who won't take what I say. Love is sick, son ! one can suffer for love. We should just go home, not stay here, I can't stand to see you like this."

On the back of my conversation with my mother. Shouted above the dock to give me. Miss who was on her Phinisi ship came down with tears flooding her face.

He walked towards me, after getting a bit close to me. He hugged me in front of everyone. Some said, "just cut the ship was not going to leave yet when he loved, Eden. Eden's also not ready to go home waiting for this opportunity."

While wiping away her tears, I held her face with my two palms. He held both my faces with his palms, "laugh Miss, don't cry ! I'd be happy to see your last smile here...."

"How can I smile for you while I'm going to leave you here, I'll bring all our memories with me. I can only smile if you smile, Eden."

It is heavy ! I can only listen to every beautiful word from the people here. Missed as much as I did. There's no answer, all I know is, Miss will come back to me.

"That's already !. Missing, if you go in this situation then you will not be happy on your journey to Makassar. Eden, this is my business. I'll look after Eden for you."

His sparkling eyes stared deeply at my mother, "justified... You're gonna look after Eden for me ?."

'Yes, I promise you, son miss you. As long as you come back, I'll trust you more."

Once again he hugged me and whispered a beautiful word, meaning to me, "Eden, my soul is with you. Whenever you want to see me then say my name in our love, I will be present with you at that time."

"Miss, once you're there, come back as soon as you can. If in a month, two months or even years, you haven't come back, I'll come pick you up in Makassar so we can both come back here."

"Promise me, Eden !."

"I promise I miss you !."

He returned to his Phinisi ship after shaking the hands of everyone present.

Leaving me with these people on the dock, their voices occasionally mocked me for just wanting to see my tears so as not to stop.

I don't care about their taunts. My eyes are focused only on Phinisi's ship. Slowly the anchor is raised, slowly the machine is rung, slowly the screen is developed. I saw Miss still standing in front of her boat waving her hands at us.

Like a child, I sat for a moment. I want to let go of the heartache of his passing.

"Mom, Miss Ma. Eden's sick, Mom. Like a knife slicing my hand, ma'am."

"It's my son !. Missed promised you and Mom. He'll come back to see you here. Don't cry like this, son, be ashamed of the people here. We can't be sad, let alone cry. I told you, every encounter must finally be a farewell. But you still didn't hear Mom's words. If this is what he wants to do again, he does not go for something more important than other business. Let's just pray, may what he tells us, it's true ! may his family accept your wishes, son. A soul mate is like your sorrow, when you are sad, a soul mate hides."

"But Ma'am. I am sick !. She's gone !."

"That's it, son !. Let's go home ! if you want to cry, then at home you will cry. Here a lot of people, look at those who are here looking at you. Not that I want to ban you but I don't want them to say anymore that you're like this just because of women."

I stood by my mother's advice. However, my eyes have not stopped looking at the Phinisi ship carrying my moon. It's far away ! he no longer heard my heartbeat only I still heard the sound of his ship's engine.

If I were a dolphin who had helped Ayu back then, I would have chased after her, playing lovingly under the bottom of her boat. For him to see me, see the men in coastal skin remained faithful to follow his steps until the sea Makassar.

The farther away, the smaller, I returned home to look for the marks, lay down on his bed that still smelled.

Come back with a beautiful hope. Here, I am not only sad but almost dead holding tight in my chest because of your departure.

I miss the greetings for our hope. Greetings to your family there, greetings to maintain our relationship, along with the waves on the sea that ripples, I will always be in front of the beach waiting for you after this.